I do silly things Alone in the cold. For you my heart sings Until I grow old. I am scared of your beauty. I still love your light. To hide is my duty. To slip into night.
Cry, baby, cry She's dead in her eyes Die, baby, die She took her own life The sunlight beamed The people screamed One simple line Scratched in her flesh "It was your fault" We all caused her death
Bad habits Tried to kick the problem I fall backwards Into something, maybe nothing I'm in there no matter what Must be black demons Red hearts Deep scars Addiction always there What's your drug? Like knives, blue pills No matter what Anger kills Can't fight Won't win Gave up And I'm here again
You are a poison That exists only to destroy all that is good. You are a toxin that seeps through every crack In all the armour I wore To try to keep you From destroying me. You are a fume That fills the whole room. Yet we cannot escape And there is no cure. You are family
I looked in the mirror. All I saw staring back was this beast. I see this monster. This evil creature I'd become. I watch the tears roll down my face, and I just look so much uglier. "How do I fight you?!" I shout. I look so small. I'm weak. I can't handle my thoughts, emotions. I can barely lift an eight pound weight well. I'm puny. I am useless in school. I feel unloved by near everyone. I can't stand this creature in the mirror. I can't be weak anymore. I tilt the chair My feet dangle and kick And just as the world fades, I see that this made me weaker than I was before. I never could be strong. How ironic.
Out of breath Empty pockets Close to death A fleeing rocket Pull up the gun And soon I **** it You've cut too deep You run away You go to sleep I hear a bang
In times of distress I lived unlike the best. I followed three hearts; Fell into fear. Demons shrieked, Angels cried; Gods bled; Devils died. The end of all. Fallen creation.
In this endless onward, I will lose my name. In this forgotten battle, I'll inherit shame. Suns set, But rise behind us. We forget our place And the meaning is lost.
My ears are covered, yet the screams sre louder The world is paused, but somehow moves faster I closed the book, but the end's coming sooner. I never saw a butterfly, and I've never seen a beginning. There is only a strange circle of workong out. We all lose. I am no great man and my life was a lie
Every day a new addiction, Bleeding out my contradictions. Soaring lower than even dirt, My own soul begins to hurt. I wish to be free; To fly for me. I am slave, though. In everyway, I've hit my low.
Somehow this will **** me. And that will be okay. I will lose all control. And that will be okay. Somehow I will go backwards. And that will be okay. I will be invisible to all. And that will be okay. I'll lose all that I love And somehow it was okay.
Cry, he says no more Tears Smile they say a kick in the teeth Dance with me my feet ran away I laughed She cried no games to play I stare at my cup Nothing to drink the tea's gone cold I look to the wall the paint peels off I watch her blank stare The pain screams into my heavy head Finally I know No way I'm not dea
Hey, little boy I know it's been a while I've missed you I realized you could've grown You might have changed For better or worse I know you can't see I wish you could be here But things could've gotten worse Thanks for what you said We were young We didn't know much But you're still wiser then Than me now You told me things will get much worse Thank you I will be prepared I loved you I miss you little boy I wish you hadn't died that day I'll see you again Goodbye
Oh flesh that was so sweet Bring your lips that ours may meet Lie to me and say you love me Say I'm the one you want to see. You went away and now I lack. I see that now you won't come back
My life shouldn't have begun I was never one to finish all I fight til I stop And I stop every day I sang to you once You kissed me that day I climbed into my sheets And cried pain away Now there was no song Please come back lullaby Beautiful, come kiss me goodbye
Curious To think of eyes To see a dream To believe Growing Curious to feel Curious to want Being human is strange Being human is all Life filled to the brim Moment upon moment Yet nothing new Knowledge to understand Answers to questions Nothing changes And it doesn't need to An eternal sky Blue or grey Is a sky And that's enough
You look so happy We still see the stains You laugh at our jokes We still feel your pain Now take your anger and release your fear Nothing left to say Life never loved us anyway Look away from your knife Now I'll bring you back to life
Lift your head Taste the sin Break the bread Scream again I see your eyes I live off dread Call me lover I live under your bed I'm your own monster I can crack your hard head The blood it ran We painted you red Come now, dear lovely There's nothing unsaid.
There's this girl in my life That frankly I like. But for now she won't know The feelings I hide. I'm too scared to show These feelings inside. So I'll laugh and I'll cry, I'll dance and I'll sing 'Til one day I try To soon make you see That I want you To like me too.
Darkness is not lost Light becomes dark in the night Dreams live off the dark
I'm am very repetitious. I apologize. I am still a young, immature writer. I can always get better, but for now, I'm not very good. Thank you all so much for dealing with me.
What is strong? What is weak? Do you know either, Natalie? You say you're not strong What are you? I know that in no way are you weak There are no expectations to live up to No limits to defy There is only you You're Words Thoughts Actions Tears Arms Fears Heart Scars Every beautiful streak of light in your smile Everything in you making you fall Now, fall back to me When time comes, run away You aren't a quitter Stop trying to give up
I don't want to face you, My eyes have their fear. I know I'll just turn blue. The day is so near. I just wanted to tell you Good luck in your light. In the way that I loved. There was no real fight.
**** this shell we call flesh. I am its victim and prisoner. I cannot break free Or fly away, But I try still. Oh if only you could see What it was like to fly. Or feel what it was like To melt myself away.
Every night it gets worse I'm crying and screaming I am yelling I'm trying to help myself I can't do it alone Please I'm the boy that fell off his bike Please I know I'm ugly I know I haven't been the same since that day People, help me
I know I've been different It was such a dark night I'm sorry I tried to stop Please listen to me I'm sorry I tried I didn't want to **** your son
Today, was the same as they say No different from yesterday Likely, tomorrow won't change But one thing is new What I know And what I knew Or at least thought It's not about loving the girl It's about loving with the girl Growing together Becoming one through a shared love And in the end Loving her anyways
Light before night My heavy conscience burdens me I let my caged heart spread its own wings The weight of its balance breaks the bars But breaks itself Heart can heal Heart can break I am Atlas I am under everyone And I am great
Dumb eyes Heavy head Long hair Great undead Here I walk Or do I lay? No one who's come Has ever stayed Am I alive? Or are you dead? The fear, it comes I leave my bed
I took a walk I saw a cross I knelt down and walked beside Him He told me what I knew But what I had to hear: "You saw the snake, Ignored the cry 'Here's the apple. Want a bite?' Why not eat? Come, Walk with me."
I've never been good at love Or loving Or feeling anything really. I've felt anger More than anything else, But I would let myself Fall If it meant feeling Something more.
I yearn for love And the simple touch Of one hand In mine.