Showing your true colors only when you're bout to lose
Never knowing when to fold or when to pay your dues
Cannot hide your face you must really **** at poker
I know I'm not your queen cuz you are just the joker

Mother Nature takes her toll
On complex creatures with gentle souls
She sends them rain when they seek solace
Her stars shine so bright that they them flawless
Rays beam the brightest when they're down
And shines their warmth upon their frowns
She opens their third eye so they might see
The striking beauty in a rugged tree
They look more closely and discover
That her roots connect us to each other

Maybe if I could leak out the sadness
Maybe if I could somehow let it drain
Maybe if I could pinpoint the culprit
Maybe if I could just hit the right vein
Maybe if I could find the exact words
Maybe if I could channel purely pain

I painted a pretty picture once
I don't think others would compare
But it disappeared somehow
Now all I paint with is despair

This isn’t a poem nor a prose
I just wanted everyone to know
That these couplets are simply practice
Until my muse becomes more active

Writing eases the pain
It makes me feel less alone
When the words come pouring out
It makes me feel at home

I hesitated and then restrained myself
The moment passed - you never knew how I felt

It’s hard not to be offended
To see your true imitative self  
When you literally pretended
To be someone entirely else

Happiness is an elusive thing
Kind of like an invisible string
You try your best to hold on
But life likes to test how strong
Promise of better things ahead
All an illusion, this single thread

Time and time I remind myself again
He will never be my version of him

It’s just not as easy as some people think
how can I be happy if pain is my ink?

It finally hit me like a ton of bricks
Our pieces are just never going to fit

I took you out of the box
I had once placed you in
whose bow was too pretty and
no longer matched its contents

When my brain won’t go to sleep
When my heart just feels too weak
When my sadness seems too deep
When my eyes begin to leak
......That’s when I turn to poetry

Wandering aimlessly vs leaping dangerously
Which path shall I choose
Either way you look at it
You could win or lose
Principle vs passion
Time to pay your dues
"What's the point in living life?"
When you've got no muse
The thoughts that tend to cross your mind...
When you've got the blues

He’s not on my timeline
He’s made it very clear
His thoughts aren’t linear
No weeks or months or years

You float & coast through life
Where I am more concrete
You’re also “fools rush in”
I think before I speak

The thing that plagued me, what I wish I knew
Was how to get back that version of you

No one will ever have my name or face or fingerprint or ancestry or thoughts or vocabulary or experiences or memories or relationships and that’s like insanely beautiful, no?

You hate it when you feel too deep
You hate when it consumes you
But every time you retreat
Is when I always lose you

Sometimes you just have to face the hard facts
I love someone who doesn’t love me back

Wish I could write something to bring you back
But those type of words are the ones I lack

Real men fight for what they want
Real men do their best
But all that you could ever prove
Was you were like the rest

I hid her from the worlds display
Behind the fortress you chipped away
All for nothing, just so you could say
You didn't like her anyway.

Love vs lust I can never quite discern
Or simply human nature to always yearn

Don't seek solace in the dark
Don't be afraid of the light
Don't squander all of your days
Waiting for the black of night

When you hold it all in
When you can’t say goodbye
Thats when it just festers
And ***** you up inside

The one question I couldn’t ask
Is how come you don’t love me back

I’m the saddest girl that ever lived
That’s why no one can match the love I give

You only want the surface level with me
But I don’t do superficiality

Put you in the failure file
You seem well versed in heartbreak

You can't drown your true feelings, you can't rewrite the past
You can't pretend we never happened just because it didn't last
You can't act as if I was never there
You can't convince yourself that I didn't care
You can't take drugs to numb the pain deep inside
You can't hide me in a dark corner in the back of your mind
You need pain as a reminder that I did exist
But you run from the truth like a flying fist
You can't replace me with someone else
& put all of our memories on a broken shelf
You can't have select amnesia only for me
You can't hide on land while I'm lost at sea
You can't ignore what you need to survive
You can't bury your heart while you're still alive

My trauma, my pain molded & shaped me
Without them this version would cease to be

Running away from the best thing ever put in your path
Do us both a favor and make sure you never look back

How to recognize a snake
They usually have green eyes
Don’t you make the same mistake
Of not seeing their disguise

I knew hanging out with you would be so risky
But I didnt know until the night you kissed me
That you would turn out to be so dark and twisty
Wish I never bought you that bottle of whiskey

You're ice
I'm fire
You're casual
I'm all or nothing
You're modern
I'm old fashioned
You're an attention seeker
I don't need validation
You're mainstream
I hide underground
You're lighthearted and airy
I'm the epitome of darkness

They try to break my stallion spirit
They only do so cuz they fear it
They want me to conform for them
They'll never get me, stupid men

Beholder of beauty
I wish I could find someone who sees what I see
But more importantly
I wish I could find someone who’d let me be me

I thought if I destroyed myself
I would also destroy my feelings
But what I really needed to do
Was just some inner healing

My feelings are diminished
You tarnished your own image
But now I must restore my vision
So I may see you with precision

For you I once tried to color outside the lines
But you made me realize I prefer black and white

I think that we are in far too deep
in your adoration, my heart does steep
Embrace this love and forever keep
The tandem of our hearts in sync
From your kisses I desire to drink
Our vision is stronger when we sleep
We conjure and dare to conceive
A real dream within a dream
No longer I but instead now we
Our future is now our history

Can’t erase your memory
Can’t stop reliving the pain
I want to rip my heart out
I want to burn my brain

Are you my saving grace, are you my wonderwall
Are you my parachute to catch me when I fall
Or are you my undoing, my Achilles heel
You can never trust a man that has too much zeal

But people can be so weird in that way
They say they want love but chase it away

In your little world I’m not on your mind
In your little world everything’s just fine
But in my little world everything hurts
In my little world you’re just an excerpt

You can’t control the future, can’t control the past
Let go and everything will come to you at last
Learn when you should bend and when you can break
But never try to braid the threads of fate

My muse does the random favor
Where my thoughts spill onto paper
Just when I begin to savor
The complexities of nature
Inspiration starts to waiver
And then **** she's gone like vapor

Hidden layers no one bothered to discover
Dig deeper to what led us to one another