I won’t let you navigate my dark alleys and broken corridors
I won’t let you examine my scar tissue and bullet holes
I won’t let you solve the riddles and enigmas that my brain produces
And I certainly won’t let you tear down the walls I’ve built from despair and infinite contempt

I don’t know how else to explain it but there’s someone out there that’s broken like me and it’s what’s gonna unite us because it will fit like fractures of the same mirror.

How do you channel your passion
How do you tap into the stream
How do you rise from the ashes
How do you simplify your dreams

I’m only on his mind
When he exhales his smoke
By the time he’s finished
I’m right back to revoked

The circumstances of my life belong only to me
So what is the point in trying to get others to see
If only myself can determine what is meant to be

Searching for something to fill me up
Looking for answers in the bottom of a cup
Existential crisis, need some advice
Unfortunately reality is never that nice

Shortfall or an avalanche
Never even stood a chance
Kismet or just happenstance
Left me screaming **** romance

The dialogue will be different
The actors will not be the same
I can’t recreate what we had
Because it’d be a different play

I marched diligently towards my own demise
should’ve recognized the executioner eyes

Oh Chameleon, you play so many roles
But for me I’ve never met a kindred soul
As familiar as yours, why must you run?
Love doesn’t come in the shape of a gun

Stop painting pretty illusions
Instead of realistic landscapes

When it’s all completely over
When everything’s jaded
It’s easy to say it wasn’t love
When everything’s faded

I made a bad decision
But you made it feel so good
You evoked things out of me
That nobody ever could

I’ve been writing again which means my hearts been abused
Bleeding out the words until the pain becomes reduced

One day I will tell my brown eyed little girl
"The world is your oyster and you are it's pearl"

The vast emptiness I endure will never compare to the amount of times I haven't crossed your mind.

I continue to mourn the person I thought you once were
You can get to know someone but you can never be sure

Pretty bird pretty bird
Locked inside your cage
Filled with hope and wonder
Despite your advancing age
Pretty bird pretty bird
Suppressing all your rage
I hope you find your own way home
Despite your broken gauge

You can’t ever recognize them all
They’ll mold into everything you lack
And just when you begin to fall
They’ll decide not to love you back

Maybe the truth would make a difference
Maybe you’re just not the one
Maybe it wouldn’t change a thing
Maybe what’s done is done

You were really insecure about very minor things
Guess that’s why you ran away, to repair your broken wings

Realization spreading through my veins like cancer
I knew deep down you did not hold the answer
You said that I could do no better
You told me we would last forever
In time I learned that this was indeed untrue
It is your heart that I wish I never knew
You were my undoing, I barely recovered
Now you live with the fact that you will find no other
Doing lifetime of penance as your sentence
I bet you wish now things had turned out much different
Swallowing medicine can be so bitter
When you are alone with your regrets maybe consider
What life would be like without mistakes
I hope it hurts every beat your heart takes

I once met a dead end
Because I picked the wrong road
No choice but to hitchhike back
With such a heavy load

Chameleons are the worst
They learn your favorite color
So they know which trance
They should use to put you under

You can try to erase or delete me
but the heart never forgets completely

I can't keep trapping my feelings deep inside
It’s a force stronger than I that can't be denied

I looked at it from every angle
I analyzed it for years
I came out of the derealization
I drowned in the postponed tears

Wonder how many oceans these tears could fill
Suppress the demons with the contents of a pill
No one to talk to, nowhere to turn
"Fight or flight" more like Learn or Burn

All of these times together
If I could just stitch them apart
You would see how forever
Is just measurement of a heart

And If you were to ask me how I’m feeling
You’re a dime a dozen, I’m one in a million

You carved out a piece of me which only you could fulfill and decorated it with stars that shined so bright with all of the answers of the universe and with one look you saw your reflection in the vastness of their incandescence and your soul burned so bright no ocean could extinguish its flame

When I’m going through something
I bury it deep inside
No one knows what going on
Because I have too much pride
I wish that I could breakthrough
But instead I always hide

I ripped my blindfold, I can see
Life's not what it's cracked up to be
But these were the cards dealt to me
To convey it even remotely
I write this little elegy
To let my mind and spirit free

Tell me what would happen if an angel fell into your lap
Would you mistake her for the devil and stab her in the back?

Like a rock I crumble under the erosion of obstacles insane
Like the sun I burst into my own foreshadow’s flames
Like the wind I feel every tentacle of love’s sting in vain
Like the trees I stand absolute through my epiphanies and pain

Never been around someone so exciting
Where every moment felt just like lightning
That was also what was just as frightening
That two souls could potentially be uniting

You put a smile across my face
You lift me up on gloomy days
You help me keep the dark at bay
I'm unfamiliar with your ways
Somehow I manage to navigate
The twists and corners of your maze
our views, our soul, are all the same
One question snaps me out of daze
"Is love only a twist of fate?"
And if pray so do feelings fade?
Not much longer will we have to wait
To figure out if destiny is just cliché
I know I've found my true twin flame
If u dare to follow ill lead the way...

Is there a word in any language that means I miss you everyday?
The absence of that word negates anything else I could ever say

Ashes to ashes dust to dust
Love is shiny until it rusts
How can you ever learn to trust
When its real or if its lust

I can’t tell you anything real
You don’t live in reality
I have to fake how I feel
It tests my own mortality

I know you can’t live in the past but I was happy there
When time’s always racing against you the rules are unfair

I could delete every trace of you
But there’s no way of erasing you

I burned what's left of u and let it go
extinguish the hate so it won't grow
Fire hydrants couldn't drown the memories
Painful reminder of sleeping with the enemy
Retrieve my soul so I may sleep sound
You can't leave your heart in the lost & found

My sadness lives inside me
Carving out a home
It cannot find another
At least I'm not alone
Follows me like a shadow
It's very own entity
We always rejoin each other
Like the tide returns to sea

When I close my eyes I see green
The strangest shade I’ve ever seen
More chartreuse than the usual blue
When I close my eyes and I see you

Goodnight sunshine, hello moon
I revel in your glory and all of your gloom
I bask in your light and long for the stars
To answer my prayers please protect me from afar
Talk back to me tell me all that you know
Will religion destroy us all is it really our foe
Earth is so barren with all of its fears
I know we've disappointed you over the years
Eternally Nocturnal the world is your burden
The sun will rise soon the only constant for certain

A side eye, a drag of a cig, a meaningful glance across a room, a smug look, a thoughtful gesture, an inappropriate whisper, a longing, a chemical shift, a comical exchange, a flirtatious remark, a witty reply, a curious inquiry, a telling observation, a childhood memory, a mutual understanding, an amalgamation.

If you only knew how long I’ve waited
Now I know the definition of fated

I was very lost, feeling blue
Random encounter, Déjà vu
Maybe I just hope that it’s true
That what you seek is seeking you

You cut me off at my most vulnerable
You rob me of my feelings
You reduce me to nothing
And Im still left wanting more