You're too diluted, no ones Cupid
Sometimes reckless, always stupid
Never catch on til it's too late, out of touch you cannot demonstrate
How to love and how to feel, need something more need something real
Cut your losses burn your bridges, you mustn't start what you can't finish
Don't you judge, don't be ruthless before you muster up courage to do this
Open the window close the door, your heart is dormant asleep on the floor
Shake the dust off shove it inside it's meant to break to make you feel alive

Beware trespassers her rivers run deep
Your life on the line shes playing for keeps
A valuable mind and insightful heart
she'll put you together then rip you apart
She reads your thoughts, she visits your dreams
But "Nothing is ever as good as it seems"
Run faster before she catches up & you fall
The devil's on your tail & she has you enthralled
She will take your soul and steal your last breath
Your life is now hers, the sacrifice - your death

Can't make heads or tails of this connection
if it's twin flames or just rejection?

You're sunny disposition
& I'm a black cloud
I'm introverted
you lean towards loud
I lack the confidence
You're extremely proud
Your soul is exposed
Where mine wears a shroud

I thought if I destroyed myself
I would also destroy my feelings
But what I really needed to do
Was just some inner healing

Reality is unforgiving so I keep my head up in the clouds
Yes I’m introverted because my thoughts are way too loud

Ignore the elephant in the room
Hoping you acknowledge it soon
All this time I always thought it was you
But you broke me because you were broken too

You carved out a piece of me which only you could fulfill and decorated it with stars that shined so bright with all of the answers of the universe and with one look you saw your reflection in the vastness of their incandescence and your soul burned so bright no ocean could extinguish its flame

You plant ur seeds & disappear
Time again, year after year
But now that you’re no longer here
Loneliness I do not fear

When I’m going through something
I bury it deep inside
No one knows what going on
Because I have too much pride
I wish that I could breakthrough
But instead I always hide

Avoiding interaction
Dying for a distraction
A chemical reaction
Equals fatal attraction

You can't drown your true feelings, you can't rewrite the past
You can't pretend we never happened just because it didn't last
You can't act as if I was never there
You can't convince yourself that I didn't care
You can't take drugs to numb the pain deep inside
You can't hide me in a dark corner in the back of your mind
You need pain as a reminder that I did exist
But you run from the truth like a flying fist
You can't replace me with someone else
& put all of our memories on a broken shelf
You can't have select amnesia only for me
You can't hide on land while I'm lost at sea
You can't ignore what you need to survive
You can't bury your heart while you're still alive

I never thought low of you but now I do
Everything that happened I wish I could undo

Are you my saving grace, are you my wonderwall
Are you my parachute to catch me when I fall
Or are you my undoing, my Achilles heel
You can never trust a man that has too much zeal

Realization spreading through my veins like cancer
I knew deep down you did not hold the answer
You said that I could do no better
You told me we would last forever
In time I learned that this was indeed untrue
It is your heart that I wish I never knew
You were my undoing, I barely recovered
Now you live with the fact that you will find no other
Doing lifetime of penance as your sentence
I bet you wish now things had turned out much different
Swallowing medicine can be so bitter
When you are alone with your regrets maybe consider
What life would be like without mistakes
I hope it hurts every beat your heart takes

The one question I couldn’t ask
Is how come you don’t love me back

I've always read about people who lived in far away places. Always had my head in the clouds, my nose in a book. Settle down they say. How can I settle when I've never belonged here? This isn't my path. I'll have to blaze my own. Pieces of my heart are scattered in far away places and I'm meant to find them.

Real men fight for what they want
Real men do their best
But all that you could ever prove
Was you were like the rest

Poetry is like a deep well
Which your soul leaks ink from

The definition of love is distinct to each individual. The experiences throughout your lives that have shaped and defined our opinion of love. How can you only love one person the rest of your life when your versions of love are different. Love fades because priorities shift or change. Evolution is the murderer of love. Perhaps proof that opposites do not attract. And how can you rotate lovers to coincide with what matters most to you at that time in your life and the adversities that you go through together how can that affect the core and dynamic of your relationship?

I could delete every trace of you
But there’s no way of erasing you

I felt vulnerable so I reached out
But you cut off my hand
I felt empty and drowned in my tears
While you remained on dry land
I felt nostalgic so I wrote about it
but you never heard my plea....
So I learned how to swim and
Floated in my sad sea

I think that we are in far too deep
in your adoration, my heart does steep
Embrace this love and forever keep
The tandem of our hearts in sync
From your kisses I desire to drink
Our vision is stronger when we sleep
We conjure and dare to conceive
A real dream within a dream
No longer I but instead now we
Our future is now our history

Internalize, internalize
Don't let those tears fall out your eyes
Ignore the ache of your demise
Your heart is punished for it's size

Closed minded conversations
"Black vs Caucasian"
The usual equation
Giving off bad vibrations  
The bleeding of a nation
Headline sensations
Stem from greek imitations

They try to break my stallion spirit
They only do so cuz they fear it
They want me to conform for them
They'll never get me, stupid men

Wandering aimlessly vs leaping dangerously
Which path shall I choose
Either way you look at it
You could win or lose
Principle vs passion
Time to pay your dues
"What's the point in living life?"
When you've got no muse
The thoughts that tend to cross your mind...
When you've got the blues

I had this dream that’s been haunting me and I can’t shake the feeling it’s left behind. I dreamt I had just had an intimate encounter with a stranger. He held my hand and lead the way to a beautiful cliff overlooking the ocean. Out of nowhere he counted to three and let go of my grasp as I watched him leap. I stood back in fear. The rest of the dream I was trying to get back to that moment and change my decision but it was too late. I regretted this moment with every molecule in my composition. When I awoke I was left with the most hollow reminder of my pain and it still hasn’t dissipated.

I can’t tell you about this dream but want you to know
If only I knew what would have been waiting below
I wanted to leap but I was too scared I would fall
The irony is I’m too late, I ruined it all.

I thought that I wanted to be deep
But stuck at the bottom of this well
No one to help me out on my feet
My own personal version of hell

The vast emptiness I endure will never compare to the amount of times I haven't crossed your mind.

Realized too late that you’re a plot with a twist
I’m not the narrator, i’m the protagonist

Dear moon, please do tell us your story
It's hard not to ponder your origin while reveling in your glory.

Inspiration is in everything, if you look with your third eye
Muses come and go they never really die

I hid her from the worlds display
Behind the fortress you chipped away
All for nothing, just so you could say
You didn't like her anyway.

The hardest thing it took for me to see
It wasn’t for you what it was to me

They say:
If they love you, then they'll return
To never let your bridges burn
But as far as I am concerned
You're just another lesson learned

Mental funerals, empty epitaphs
How sad it is when nothing ever lasts

Goodnight sunshine, hello moon
I revel in your glory and all of your gloom
I bask in your light and long for the stars
To answer my prayers please protect me from afar
Talk back to me tell me all that you know
Will religion destroy us all is it really our foe
Earth is so barren with all of its fears
I know we've disappointed you over the years
Eternally Nocturnal the world is your burden
The sun will rise soon the only constant for certain

Stop painting pretty illusions
Instead of realistic landscapes

Love holds you at gunpoint
Intentionally pulls the trigger
Hides the bullet casings
And wonders why you’re gun shy

Talk to me of the tainted tinctures in your head
How you prefer a deep shade of blue over crimson red
Tell me your fears are they similar to mine
Do you hate that there is no button U can press to rewind
Divulge your secrets I'll harvest them one by one
Where do you keep the bullets for your hypothetical gun
Look me in the eye tell me where your joy comes from
I will protect us both from the depths of the sun
If the spiders could talk that you let to see another day
What would they tell me, what would they say
The fly on the wall does he even know that you see him
And live so vicariously that U would trade places to free him

A side eye, a drag of a cig, a meaningful glance across a room, a smug look, a thoughtful gesture, an inappropriate whisper, a longing, a chemical shift, a comical exchange, a flirtatious remark, a witty reply, a curious inquiry, a telling observation, a childhood memory, a mutual understanding, an amalgamation.

In my sadness I stood completely still
Finally ready to release how I feel

I knew love was a truck which you would never be hit
And then I knew what unrequited meant

Writing eases the pain
It makes me feel less alone
When the words come pouring out
It makes me feel at home

Will we ever intersect
When our lines run parallel
At the point of infinity
Where only time will tell

She was always really fragile but it didn't seem to matter
They all ignored the fine print: please do not shatter
Hurt to take the bullets and shield her from disaster
Didn't mean to leave you but she told me to run faster
No one found the pieces to put her back together
Tried to fill their void but it was too deep to measure
No matter how many guys tried to put it aside
She could not mask her pain, she couldn't digest her pride
She could not erase the beginning she could only change the end
All of the boys and all of the men couldn't put her back together again

Red flags you ignore, wave a white one in its place
Just to help you escape once more
From time and space
It's all just background noise when in lovers embrace
One by one memories of you I will erase

I hate who I pretend to be
I always hide the real me
Caught off guard when you stole the key
Set all my inner demons free

But people can be so weird in that way
They say they want love but chase it away