I couldn’t comprehend
I couldn’t let go
I couldn’t understand
But now I know.
....Now I know.

All of these times together
If I could just stitch them apart
You would see how forever
Is just measurement of a heart

I met the one
But then he ran
So then I sank
While he swam

Never been around someone so exciting
Where every moment felt just like lightning
That was also what was just as frightening
That two souls could potentially be uniting

I couldn’t feel
I couldn’t tell
What was real
I couldn’t mend
I couldn’t deal
Or bare to face
That I should heal

I guess I can’t delete every feeling
‘Til they're done twisting the knife
That’s when I choose to finally give up
That’s when I detect the strife
That they don’t realize mortality
Or get the meaning of life

Go find your soulmate
And not your twin flame
One will give you love
One mirrors your pain

Not sure if you ever noticed
I couldnt make eye contact with you
I could never match your gaze
Your eyes knew exactly what I knew

I never thought low of you but now I do
Everything that happened I wish I could undo

I know I should be living in reality instead
but I prefer the memories inside my head

I’m only on his mind
When he exhales his smoke
By the time he’s finished
I’m right back to revoked

I don’t need to navigate the highs and lows of others when I can cruise in the middle lane of my of my own highway.

How many full moons have I tried to let go
When I flow you ebb and when I ebb you flow

You don’t know my dreams, my hopes, my fears.
The way I take my coffee or the songs that drown my tears.
You don’t understand the way people have ****** me over or you wouldn’t have done the same.
You don’t realize how bad I need someone to vent to or the way I hate my name.
You don’t know the way my demons torture me and what I stay up all night thinking.
You don’t know my regrets or my favorite book or how to keep me from sinking.

Can’t run from your demons you have to finish them
Can’t run from your problems you have to diminish them

Ashes to ashes dust to dust
Love is shiny until it rusts
How can you ever learn to trust
When its real or if its lust

Our story is the worst movie I’ve ever seen
But the book oh the book is legendary

When I’m going through something
I bury it deep inside
No one knows what going on
Because I have too much pride
I wish that I could breakthrough
But instead I always hide

Can't make heads or tails of this connection
if it's twin flames or just rejection?

Tell me what would happen if an angel fell into your lap
Would you mistake her for the devil and stab her in the back?

When you hold it all in
When you can’t say goodbye
Thats when it just festers
& ***** you up inside

Was that version the real you?
Or just what you wanted me to see
Was it all just a role you played
Who you thought I wanted you to be

You plant ur seeds & disappear
Time again, year after year
But now that you’re no longer here
Loneliness I do not fear

In my sadness I stood completely still
Finally ready to release how I feel

I wasn’t born with a door
I had to build one for myself
To keep out people like you
Who place me on a dusty shelf

How many tears can you cry
How many times can you try
How many years can you lie
How many deaths can you die

Embedded deep inside my brain
Transparent memory windowpanes
I can see them but I cannot feel
It’s just the past, it wasn’t real

You gave me enough space
You gave me enough time
For me to finally realize
You were never going to be mine

For you in my book I broke every rule
Only to end up looking like a fool

I sunk so deep I forgot who I am
but then I remembered and so I swam
...so I swam

I hope your games were worth it
I hope that you played your best
Cuz you just lost at checkers
While I was playing chess

You know the gift that keeps on giving
When you learn how to mourn the living

I thought if I destroyed myself
I would also destroy my feelings
But what I really needed to do
Was just some inner healing

I thought you were more like me
and I guess you thought the same
but we both missed the mark and
underestimated the game

As time went by and we both grew more old
Shorter conversations as you grew more cold
So I withdrew and that’s when I started to see
That what I once most wanted didn’t want me

Real men fight for what they want
Real men do their best
But all that you could ever prove
Was you were like the rest

The dialogue will be different
The actors will not be the same
I can’t recreate what we had
Because it’d be a different play

What you tend to forget
What escapes you
Is that I still exist
& I’m hurting too

You can’t control the future, can’t control the past
Let go and everything will come to you at last
Learn when you should bend and when you can break
But never try to braid the threads of fate

It finally hit me like a ton of bricks
Our pieces are just never going to fit

I know that you are long gone
But I still sit by your grave
Mourning what once was
Wonder if you do the same

Memories that will never be made
Guess it’s better to just let them fade...

You know what they say about ghosts with unfinished business...they’ll always haunt you

Frozen in the same spot you left me years ago
If only Father Time wasn't irreversible

Closed minded conversations
"Black vs Caucasian"
The usual equation
Giving off bad vibrations  
The bleeding of a nation
Headline sensations
Stem from greek imitations

Over time love transmutes into hate somehow
Forced to use your name as a curse word now

I looked at your picture today and felt nothing for the first time
Felt deeply gratifying yet hollow like a piece of me had died
It ached like nothing had before but still I somehow couldn’t cry
No matter how hard I tried all I managed was a relieved sigh

You only want the surface level with me
But I don’t do superficiality

So spin your web of lovely lies
They can no longer ensnare me
You think I’ll still believe them all
Don’t ever double dog dare me

I can't keep trapping my feelings deep inside
It’s a force stronger than I that can't be denied