I have found nothing but happiness in the time that I have been away. In the garden of orchids I learnt to scream in color painting pictures in vivid technicolor.
I learnt to laugh with my tongue sticking out much like this orchid, I wasn't always this happy but now... I have found a wave of calm like no other.
I no longer get mad thinking about you instead when your name visits the corners of my mind. I open that tiny door and mellow in the memory thinking
Wow that once made me happy but that once led me to the ocean weeping my sorrows away
Today I think of you with roses in mind except now I removed the thorns, pruned the bush and smelt the sweet fragrance of joy.
P. S I hope you're as happy as I am and if not I hope you find the kind of joy that makes your toes tingle and your face brighter. I hope you learn to laugh again. I always loved that laugh.
I've been gone for years but I'm not back for long I just needed to show you that I've since found it, joy.
A univeral sence of escape
Not just my own luxury
Trapped behind the walls
Screaming with my silenced voice
I am okay , I promise
These markings on my body
Yet each one has its own
Meaning something to me
I am sorry
I am okay, I promise
I am not okay ,but I guess that doesn't matter to you.
Because you aren't even there
Painful yet enjoyable
Leave me with a reminder that last night was not a dream and that you won't fade away like the thoughts I had of you.
Bite because **** if that's all there is to it then atleast there is one night that was enjoyable without the wiskey in your glass
On night that matters when you are sober / when I am there and I matter when you are sober
So yes bite ... Until WE are both content
— The End —