I love days like this
Days we spend together
Enjoying the weather

It's getting colder outside
Wonderful opportunity
For our hands to collide

Hugs & kisses
Cups of warm soup
Homemade by us
Not one fuss
Just love to profess
Just love to progress
It doesn't get better than this

Having you around
Makes me feel
Safe and sound
I love days like this
It feels like pure bliss

I love calling you mine
& when you take up my time
You fill up my mind
You're one of a kind

I can't live without you
I would never make do
I love days like this
Perfection does exist

Thunder and lightning
In my bed
It's shining
Through my windows
Then the wind blows
I hear the storm
In my bed
It's warm
Flash flood
Wet mud
Deer on the lawn
Let out a yawn
In my bed
Pillow over my head
The storm yells
Floods away yesterday
A new day comes
The rain drop hums
My mind focuses on the sound
My eyes start to close
In a deep sleep, I drift
I'll wake up
Tomorrow is a gift

Sometimes I sit on my bed
Looking at your picture
Your smiling face
Your bright eyes
Oh how wonderful
You made my life

Sometimes I cry & put on Pink Floyd
We used to listen together
About life and struggles
We would talk deeply
We were the only deep ones
That's right, just you and me

Sometimes I wonder where your spirit has gone
Are you soaring in nature?
Are you smiling down from heaven?
That beautiful smile I miss so much
How I wish to see your face
How I wish for one last touch

Sometimes I feel my memories start to fade
But all it takes is a smell
Or a song, maybe an image
And they all rush back to me
At times it can feel so real
Can't believe I lost you completely

Your death is my reminder
To never waste a second
I love you my best friend, my lover
And I'll always long for you
And I'll always cherish all
That we ever went through

Everyone is as fake
As a plastic face
I'm not

we always seemed to have fought
every other day
i don't know if it was because
we were doing something wrong
or because we just really care
our last fight
wasn't like the others
it was more extreme
we said some things
we probably didn't mean
i feel so unwelcome now
like you don't want me around
i feel like i always break your heart
and by hurting you
i break mine too
it was never my intention
i've just been so confused
normally we talk things out
but this time around
you said i needed to think
think about what i want
and it hasn't been that long
but i'm already beginning to miss you
our talks were so fun
we would go back and forth immediately
it was something i told you
i always appreciated
i hope you've been thinking about me too
i really miss how caring you were
and sweet
i don't think we will be
what we used to be
but i still want to be your friend
at least
maybe you can't do that
i'm sorry my heart is stuck in another place
but i will never forget
the potential that we once had

It's my birthday today
I turn 22
I don't feel like I'm very
Put together
I was born in '91
On a Friday, on the 13th
I guess I'm not that lucky
And I might never be
In my short 22 years
I've seen death
I've seen drugs
I've seen poverty & struggle
I've seen depression
In my short 22 years
I've seen prosperity
I've seen happiness
I've seen love
I've seen success
Life is all about the journey
The ride you take
It's all about the ups and the downs
And all the obstacles
My 22 year old self
Will live to be
Smarter, stronger
Better, kinder
I'm determined to not let
This year go to waste
Maybe this time next year
I will feel more
Put together

Tu silencio
Es mejor
Que tus mentiras
Ya me cansé
De ti
Y como tiras
Mi corazón
A la tierra
No aguanto
Nada más
De tus
Juegos de la mente
No quiero saber
Nada más
Sobre ti y la gente
Con quien
Estás
Quitate
De mi vida
Nunca quiero
Oir de ti
Por nuevo

I love the rain
It's so calming
Watching it fall
Watching it pour
I could sit there for hours
Wanting nothing more

I love the rain
It's so peaceful
The sound of the droplets
Hit the pavement
And you watch it
Wash away the dirt

I love the rain
It's so cleansing
All the water comes down
Drowning out the sorrow
Alleviating your tomorrow
Giving you hope

I love the rain
It's healing to witness
The way it's free
The way it reveals all honesty
Makes me take a nap
To unwind and unwrap

I love the rain
It reminds me of better times
Of times past
Spent huddled around a fire
During autumn days
Surrounded by family
It makes me think quietly
I reflect and I'm grateful
Suddenly
Life doesn't seem that painful

I have the best of friends
The kind that can watch me cry
And hear me complain
About my so called "problems"
Which in the grand scheme of things
Probably aren't that big of a deal
But in that moment of weakness
My true friends are there for me
Always caring, always loving
They give me hope
Hope that used to be tainted
By fake people
People who lie and cheat
People who use me
For what?
Just to let me go?
Time after time
I never knew what the point was
But those are people
I wish to no longer speak to
What I do wish for
Is eternal happiness
For my friends
For my family
Who truly love me for me
They see my extreme flaws
They accept my heart
And its ridiculous emotions
They accept my mind
And its crazy assumptions
They know that I am a lover
They know I am not a fighter
They cherish me
And I cherish them
They hate those
That hurt me
That ruin me
And that is something
That they do for me
They get angry
To see me so hurt
And that is why
They are my real friends

The distant tinge of teardrops
And memories dewed with moss

I've written a lot lately
Poems I refuse to post
Not really sure why
But it's her that bothers me most
I don't feel comfortable
Not with anything I say
I just wish I could erase my memory
And stop going back to those days
The betters ones
When things were different
When I wrote love poems
But now everything, I resent
Maybe I'll disappear
To where I can't be reached
At least not by the one
Who keeps me out of reach
To everyone, I'm distant
Cold all the way to the bone
This love will soon turn to hate
But even then I'll still be alone

Being in a relationship is new
It's been quite a long time
I must admit
But it is nice
To be back in it

Being in a relationship is sweet
Knowing he is there
Always trying not to stare
Loving unconditionally
To my heart, he has the key

Being in a relationship is gentle
Having someone
To caress you lovingly
To kiss you passionately
To care about you deeply

Being in a relationship is special
Both love like they breathe
And accept each other for all
There is no judgement
They just continue to fall

Being in a relationship is safe
My male counterpart
Always keeps me in mind
Thinking of only my needs
Never met anyone so kind

Being in a relationship
It's a mighty blessing
Don't let it get away
Or that will be depressing

relief is such a good feeling
all that weight off your shoulders
you can now start over
your head is suddenly clear
contentment is near
the past is behind you
taught you things you never knew
you're ready for the future
you've healed all your sutures
now life is on your side
you've gotten over your pride
the light at the tunnel is beginning to shine
once so low but now feeling fine
life has a way of working out
there is no reason to doubt
fate has in store something great
sometimes you just have to wait
relief is such a good feeling
no more false hope
or walking on a tight rope
positivity takes over the negative
and now you begin again

It’s sad how we always argue
Over misunderstandings
Do you know why I got upset?
Because you left me wondering
Whether or not you wanted me around
That time you stopped talking to me
For no apparent reason
So I lashed out
I gave up
Even though I will never truly
Give up this fight
I went away
I thought you wanted it that way
Then I got sad
And upset because how I understood it
Was that you didn’t care
To speak to me
Or care that
I wasn’t around
I’m not perfect
Not as perfect as you
But I thought my love could be enough
I loved you with every fiber of my soul
And I always will
You can hate me
And think I’m horrible
You can regret me
And wish for my nonexistence
But I am happily in love with you
Even though you’re not happily in love with me
And thoughts of you in my mind
Never fail to make me smile
I think of all the good you are
And how much I enjoy every bit of it
I think back on the time
When we were happy with each other
And that’s how I plan on remembering you
Because the fights
And the exchange of mean words
Doesn’t reflect how we truly feel
At least for me
It just proves that we care

I practically always feel so unattractive
Don't even feel worthy of being approached by people
What a tragedy
I'm always feeling unequal
In comparison to my peers
I feel like I'll never be enough
And that's one of my biggest fears
My adolescence was no help
It ruined me
Made me think I'd have nothing else
I gave up on myself
And let my emotions control me
I drowned in my own consciousness
Now my mind will never be free
I keep hoping for the day
When I'm courageous enough
To follow through with what I say
But again and again
I'm submersed in my weakness
I'm brought back to the start
Thinking *I really need this

You think I'm untrained in the ways of affection.
But my life holds hands with yours in the same direction.

If only you knew
About all the secrets
Your sister so sneakily
Hides from you
Like the ones she has
About me

I'm not sure why people love *** so much
Maybe I haven't had the right partners
Maybe I'm too insecure to enjoy it
That's most likely my problem
Or maybe it's just overrated
Every time I'm in bed
Attempting to crawl out of my shell
And give pleasure to my lover
I just want it to be over
I'm so preoccupied with being ashamed of myself
And embarrassed
Obviously I'm my own worst enemy
But *** isn't that enjoyable for me
I only like to give
I rarely allow myself to receive
I guess everyone else out there
Is having enough *** for me

People think that it's okay
To ignore someone
Just when things don't go their way
And not only then
Do people have a chip on their shoulder
Barely anything has to happen
In order for someone to turn colder
People get jealous
Of something that is harmless
Then they ruin what they had
All because they thought a little something was bad

You inspire me on a daily basis
I stare at you
And can't believe
How handsome your face is

Hearing you speak
Is like music to my ears
But hearing you sing
I could do that for years

You have a voice of an angel
To match your beautiful soul
You make me happy
The queen of your heart is my goal

We're so in sync
Our minds are on the same page
I can read you like a book
I set you free from your cage

Since the beginning
You had caught my eye
I always knew
That you were my kind of guy

I'm your leading lady
As well as your best friend
I knew we'd end up
Together in the end

Still so fresh
Still so new
But I know one day
I'll be in love with you

There are some people
Who wear their heart
Openly on their sleeve
Only to have it
Violently ripped off
And never cherished

There are some people
Who invest far too much care
In the world around them
And end up getting hurt
By nearly everyone
No expectations are met

There are some people
Who worry themselves sick
With the thought
That they are unloved
All because someone else
Is incompetent

There are some people
Who stay awake at night
Pondering the idea that
They are ugly and unworthy
This is a dangerous lie
Yet they still believe it

There are some people
Who wake up every morning
Fighting the urge to cry
They fail and let the tears flow
A symbol of all the emotion
They have built up

There are some people
Whose generosity
Care and affection
Go wildly unnoticed
And under appreciated
This causes them to break

There are some people
Who, after a while,
Break down tremendously
Enter a dark place
Only to return to the light
A completely different person

There are some people
Who experience so much let down
And so much heart break
That their heart is no longer
On their sleeve, it's nowhere
All at the fault of another

There are some people
Who have to learn
To give up on those
That are incapable of affection
Incapable of selflessness
And move on to what they deserve

I am one of those people
And I refuse to keep sinking
At the hands of people
Who couldn't care less
About me and my love
I am worthy of much more

There's this girl
She's a few years older
Says she's been eyeing me
From a distance
For a while
She's so new
So unexpected
She captivates me with her words
She treats me better than others
She acts as though she's wrapped up in me and only me
Every moment giving me her attention
Literally
I never knew she'd even make time for me
Much less say she's falling in love
Yes, she said it
I'm falling too

I'm sorry for coming onto you
Much too strong
I know that it's wrong
I should keep my distance
It's just hard to practice resistance
But I'll try for you
Cuz there's nothin left for me to do

It's been us for a while
It's been us for years
We were just held back
But now we have no fears

There's nothing in our way
With each other, we spend our time
Hanging out all day
Not seeing each other is a crime

We have so many firsts yet to experience
I can't wait to try them all
With the one I am meant for
I have already begun to fall

Throughout my days
I am so uneasy
But when you hold my hand
Everything feels calm and breezy

It's like a light breeze
On a scorching hot day
You soothe me, and I feel calm
My lap is where you lay

I love being close to you
I wouldn't ever turn back
We were meant to be more
It was the us we always did lack

You're my everything
You're my fate
You're my joy
My soulmate

i sink my fork into a heaping bowl
twist and turn to form a roll
swirls around, i salivate
no longer can i wait
i indulge and it feels so good
tastes so delicious just like it should

I know you don't care
So stop pretending you do

I'm in a stagnant place
Stuck on autopilot
Don't even recognize my face
Always reserved, always quiet

I feel very alone
Even with family & friends
I am always prone
To feel like I'm at my end

Every day is not new
No motivation, just doubt
An endless cycle of devalue
All I ever do is space out

I get drunk and high
To try & escape this reality
But all I do is ask why
Not even drugs are enough for me

I wonder when this will leave
And when I'll feel normal
I don't think I'll ever believe
That I'll feel anything but mournful

I only wish to sleep all day
And stay hidden in my bed
That is the only way
To cope with these thoughts in my head

I'm sorry for the way I acted
But can you blame me
For having such passion
Who else has made
Such a fuss over you
I doubt many people
Love you like I do
I hate the spell
You've casted upon me
It's made me different
And now I've gone crazy

***** and red bull
Allow me to forget
How you don't love me
But it only provides
Temporary relief

I feel terrible and sick
To know that you wouldn't care
If I simply disappeared
Into thin air

I'm thankful for God
I'm infinitely blessed
And without Him
I'd have no strength

I'm thankful for my family
They're my pillar in this world
My support system
My purpose

I'm thankful for my dog
I've never known such an unconditional love
My dog is my light
An extension of me

I'm thankful for my friends
The ones that have my back
And tell me the truth
We laugh together, think together
Expanding our minds

I'm thankful for the boy
Who gives me his whole heart
Says I'm his saving grace
He makes me feel worthy
Of the world

I'm thankful for my university
The thing that gives me hope
Makes me feel like I have direction
And a fighting chance in this society

I'm thankful for the mistakes
For they taught me how to grow
And better myself
Be the real me

I'm thankful to those who have wronged me
The liars, players, cheaters, and users
They've shown me what I really deserve
And what not to tolerate

I'm thankful for nature
Where I find peace in solitude
The flowers, the sun, the moon, and stars
They're my guide to faith and positivity

Lastly,
I'm thankful for my poetry
Even though I'm not the best
It's given me a place to express myself
When I had no where else to go

Have no fear
Don't hold back
There are things
I don't want us to lack

Even though it's strange
Our relationship's our own
Unique and one of a kind
Feel the love down to my bone

You've shown me a new world
Given me wonder & excitement
Every day is a mystery
All I want is to explore it

I believe I'll never tire
Of you and all you offer
You spark interest every day
You never are a bother

Wish there wasn't distance
Physical and emotional
For you, I'll practice patience
Our love is not disposable

My heart feels something special
Just for you, my love
It'll never go away
You fit me like a glove

So I hope you're ready
To give me what you got
'Cause I'm coming after you
I like you a whole lot

This Christmas
I reflect on the year
God gave me
This year was met with struggle
More than with ease
I sinned
I lied
Sometimes I felt so alone
But I'm reminded today
How I'm never truly alone
God is with me
And he's blessed me
With wonderful friends
And a supportive family
Sometimes along the way
We forget what we have
Christmas reminds us
Of how we're never alone
We were given a gift
Of eternal life
And happiness
That's the gift
That Christmas is about
Merry Christmas
And don't forget
That you're never alone

The guy that takes good care of me
Buys me medicine when I'm sick
Buys me food when I'm hungry
Takes me out on dates
Really knows how to love me

The guy that comforts me when I'm sad
Holds me close to his heart
Caresses my back with his strong hands
Plays with my hair to soothe my soul
Really knows how to understand

The guy that has fun with me daily
We smile and we laugh
We're like little children
The games make my heart sing
Really knows how to win

The guy that sees me for who I am
Looks past my flaws and imperfections
So kindly deals with my insecurities
And tells me I'm beautiful
Really knows ******* my worries

The guy that is my best friend
My one and only confidant
My soulmate since forever
He's my everything, my all
Really knows how to get her

The guy that I give my heart to
The guy that is worth all my time
The guy that always comes through
The guy that I'm fortunate to call mine