I'm so in love with this girl
And I know she loves me too
But sometimes she doesn't
And I'm like, "What did I do?"

It's so **** confusing
I've gotten used to it now
So I just give her space
Unsure of what she'll allow

I want to talk like normal
When we're loving and flirty
She really is everything
Sometimes even a little *****

The perfect combination
Of wisdom and beauty
But she plays hard to get
Winning her is my duty

However,
I definitely got her
Kind of right where I want her
Because at the end of the day
I'm on her mind
Without me, the world's a blur
She's in love with me
And I'm in love with her

I just want to be held
My stomach hurts
I want you to see me
Vulnerable
Upset
Sad
And want to help me
But you're clueless and lazy
Won't stick by my side
So I have to hide
My feelings
I cry on the inside
I'm like a little girl
With sad eyes and brown curls
I want to feel loving arms around me
So I can live life calmly
But no one is there
You're without a care
And I'm left alone
To suffer again on my own

There have been a few
To capture my love
But never one like you
You're situated way above

There is something remarkable
About your whole composition
Mind, body, and soul
A very special edition

My whole heart beats for you
I've never wanted something more
Our precious love is long over due
You are precisely what I live for

It is impossible to neglect
The fire you ignited within me
It burns bright and takes effect
Growing bigger by a large degree

Baby, your sweet existence
Is enough to make me smile
And the fact that you share it
Makes living so worthwhile

Because life is a crazy thing
Never go away or leave my side
Kiss me and soften the sting
To happiness, you are my guide

I don't often look in the mirror
I'm not pretty, rather ugly
I'm not in shape, pretty fat
I don't like what I see
So how could anyone else like it
Every time I look in the mirror
I'm reminded of why I'm not chosen
Why I'm not loved romantically
It's my looks

On a wintery day such as this
All I need is my dog
And it's bliss
I look into her shepherd eyes
And I am simply mesmerized
Filled with loyalty and admiration
Her love is all I need
Never has she acted on me in greed
She knows when I'm sad
Walks towards me when it's bad
Leans on me, letting me know she's there
She understands me even in despair
She licks my hand to say "it's okay"
She gives me comfort in every way
I couldn't imagine waking up
And not having her by my side
It truly was a miracle finding her
She makes perfect my normal life

There's this boy I know
He's a particular fellow
He's mentally unstable
And even trips over the table

But he's funny and witty
Kind and sweet
You feel for him not pity
But only pure love

He's compassionate and deep
Hot, with many layers
Like a tea that sits to steep
Warm and comforting

He looks at you with those eyes
And you are compelled to worship
The ground he walks on
And accept the beautiful lies
That make up your relationship

We are forbidden lovers
No one can know how we feel
When we're under the covers
We keep it between us
Like kids sharing candy
On a yellow school bus

But what we have is much sweeter than candy
Much more than just dandy
What we have is rare
What we feel is care
What we have is between us
Only we can bare
We love each other
There is not another

No one can take your place, my love
For you are my only one
My one truth

Hours go by
Even days
Weeks
And I'm still thinking
The same horrible thoughts

Sometimes I forget
The way my heart raced rapidly
Or the way my stomach turned
Sometimes I forget
The way I couldn't do anything
Or go anywhere
Without thinking of you
Or talking to you
Nor did I want to
I didn't want any second
To be spent apart
Sometimes I forget
No matter what time of day
Dawn, afternoon, night
We would get so wrapped up
In each other, in the lust of it all
And completely give in
To a time of sin
It was so blissful
I felt it, it was so strong
Sometimes I forget
How much you'd need me
And how much I'd need you
There was such a yearning
And longing between us
You were my oxygen
My drug of choice
Sometimes I forget
The smile on my face
That would never leave
Everyone would wonder
Who or what
I was so wrapped up in
Little did they know
It was someone I loved
More than I had loved before
And these are the reasons why
It's impossible to ever forget you
You're always in my heart
Always occupying my mind
The presence of you
Will always linger
You were a part of me
And you forever will be

I forgive you
Because I am better
Than you
But I won't let you in
Because you are
Never true

I never knew that my
Deepest
Darkest
And dirtiest sin
Would attract someone so new
And so kind
Who knew
That someone could view my actions
In a different light
Calling it romantic
And selfless
I am suddenly understood
And it's such a nice surprise
To make a new friend
Or more
With someone
Who seems to genuinely
Want, care, and need me

All I want to do
Is be next to you

i'm such an impatient person
it stems from my insecurities
but that's no excuse
i treat my friends like they don't exist
ignoring their calls
and their invitations
rarely do i ever socialize
i treat my supposed lovers
like they're nothing
it's as if they don't matter to me
like i don't care if i lose them
what is wrong with me?
for someone who was once so selfless
it would appear to an outsider as though
i'm the most selfish person
making everything about me
comparing myself to others
acting like my struggle is worse
i would never want to hang around
someone like me
i'm impossible to deal with
impossible to please
i hate myself
so i hate the world around me

I guess I'm just dull and boring
My feelings are so transparent
I'm really not worth any adoring
Perhaps my mind is even abhorrent

It's not likely you'd wanna stick around
It's not likely I'll make you laugh like the class clown
But who are you to even judge?
You're not even around me that much

Little did you know I'm the funniest of my friends
Little did you know I'm quick witted
Little did you know I'm the one that always lends
A helping hand to those when they need it

I love too hard and it's over bearing
I care too much and it's creepy
But it's just my heart I am sharing
I can't help that my feelings live deeply

Maybe one day someone will appreciate
How I give my all to them
Maybe one day someone will alleviate
This worry that I am not a gem

You mean nothing to me
All you're good for
Is some ****** poetry

Sometimes I can't help but day dream
I sit and think about spending time with you
I imagine myself driving you around
Taking you out on dates
I picture in my mind all the laughs
And deep conversations that would be shared
I create scenarios in my mind
Where we try new things together
Explore and experiment
You bring out a certain side of me
I'm always envisioning you with me
All I can see myself doing
Is giving you what you want and need
It's especially bitter
And sweet
How I wonder what kissing you would be like
All I ever want
Is your lips against mine
Getting to spend time with you
And share joyful memories
Is what I dream about
Not only in the night
But during the day as well

I bombard people with my deep emotions
It turns them off
Well excuse me
I didn't know you were the boss

You're too shallow for me anyway
Don't appreciate me?
I guess love is not your forte

I'm doomed
I'm so whipped
I want you attached
Right to my hip

These thoughts of you
Never dissipate
Your *** is
All I anticipate

Every time I think of you
It really turns me on
It feels so good
It feels so wrong

I've never felt
Such a strong
Urge
Want
Need
I go
Wherever
You lead

This is so deeply rooted
In my mind
In my heart
In my body
That's how I know it's real
It's why I want you
Beside me

It would be torture
To live without you
So I'm really hoping
I don't have to

You taste like **** and beer
Oddly, I like it
Probably because it reminds me
Of your tainted soul
Which is the very reason
Why I love you so

Oh, my love
How can I begin to express
What you are to me
You're my rock, my strength
The most considerate of companions
I think about you non-stop
It's become a daily routine
Your eyes tell a story
They show how deep your love goes
I know you are true
That's why I confide in you
You don't lie to me
You treat me like a human being
But more so
You treat me like a queen
And you are my king
We live happily
In the kingdom of our love
Forever in the castle
We built together
Our foundation has no cracks
Because what we have
Is based on true love
Not some game

I was once a believer in true love
I thought that if someone showed enough interest
And enough care and love
Enough tenderness and consideration
That they would be able to, in turn, be loved and appreciated all the same
When I gave that to you
When I was a mere player in your game
And bought into your plots and schemes
When I believed your excuses, your deceit
I came to the realization that all you did was reject me
You dangled your love in front of me
Just out of my reach
With that, you ruined me
You singlehandedly destroyed any hope I had for true love
I hope you sleep well at night
Knowing you destroyed someone who was once so sure of herself
And so capable of loving
Now all I am is numb

I'll smoke this cigarette
And think of you
My one regret
Wish I could forget
One day I will
And that'll be a sad day for you

i get really sad
and somewhat heartbroken
when i think of all the things
that i don't know about you
i don't know where you go
or what you do
it may seem weird
that i would want to know
all of the little things
like what you eat
and when you go to bed
and what you do with your day
but i guess that's what love is
i'm interested in everything
that i could possibly know
it ***** that most of you
is kept so private
i would share anything with you
i guess you have to protect yourself
but i'll tell you right now
i'm not dangerous
and i love you enough
to where i would never
want to harm you
or use anything against you
no matter what
i wouldn't dare think of it
i just want to know you
thick and thin
through and through
i feel like i'm shown one person
and the rest of the world
the real world
is shown something else
i want to experience who you truly are
not just some part of you
or some held off
piece of you
i want all of you
i want to know everything you think
everything you say
and everything you do
i want you
one hundred percent
i want to know all the secrets
that you don't share with anyone else
i want to know all the different parts of you
the dark ones and deep ones
that only come out at night
the light and funny ones
that come out on a good day
the hard working and dedicated ones
that come out when you are focused
i want to see it all
because i love you
and to think i don't know all there is to know
rips me in two

I wish for one minute
I could stop thinking about you

I'm afraid that...
No other man will treat me like you did
No other man will make me feel appreciated

I'm afraid that...
No other man will say to me the sweet things
Sweet and sincere, your words, they gave me wings

I'm afraid that...
Without your love, I'll always suffer
In this crazy world, I'll find no other lover

I'm afraid that...
No other man will want me with as much passion
No other man will look at me with such attraction

I'm afraid that...
I'll never find "the one" for as long as my days
Can't believe it was you who left us here in a daze

I'm afraid that...
My confusion and sadness will never part from me
And that I'll always live my life so angrily

I'm afraid that...
My one true soulmate has passed on
And I'm here remembering our times all alone

I'm afraid that...
No other man will be able to stitch up my heart
The way you did, it was like a form of art

I hope to see you on the other side
Till then I will just pass my time
Staring at the sun
Staring at the moon
You'll always be my number one
Visit me in my dreams soon

I think about my baby
And how she's all alone
The many things I'd do to her
I have to make it known

I'd give her kisses deep and soft
Her tongue will taste so sweet
With my hands on her hips
Our kissing will create a beat

Then clothes will come off
Things will grow in passion
Her body will feel like silk
Her skin better than the highest fashion

She will make me guide her
Right over to our bed
We will lay down and kiss
Make me feel out of my head

I will travel down her belly
Worshipping every inch
She will shiver and she will shake
The sensation making her flinch

As I make my way down
She naturally spreads her legs
I fit right in-between them
This point is when she begs

I kiss the very part of her
That is the most private
Her moans reassure me
That she truly, really loves it

Her **** sounds of pleasure
Make my job so rewarding
I could do this forever
It will never get boring

As I continue my loving
Right on her sweet spot
She moves in sync with me
Giving me all that she's got

I take her to the highest place
I go right along with her
We have a lot of ailments
But we are each other's cure

She explodes and it tastes so good
Her hands are on my head
And she pulls me to her
Heaven is what we have in our
own
little
bed

Maybe I should stop giving a ****
Maybe that would better my luck

Despite every morning
Feeling anger and sadness
Regret and disgust
I still remember feeling
All of the lust

It's hard to interpret
Exactly what I want
My feelings are so mixed
One day I'm longing for you
The next day I'm ******

I read people well
I have always known
Where your heart resides
It's never been with me
I'm not sure why I even tried

You're not the only one
That I've ever loved
But I feel such a strong attraction
That I've never felt
Towards someone so foreign

You have such a perfect face
Your eyes hypnotize
And your lips tease
Your whole entire body
Gets me begging you "please"

I firmly believe for as long as I live
That I will always want you
Your heart, body, and soul
You're my only weakness
You'll always be a part of my whole

You are so sweet
Like peaches
In the summer time

When you kiss me
It releases me
From the chains
That bind my brain

I get this feeling
It's like I'm healing
Can't get enough
End up wanting it rough

Your touch is intoxicating
Your taste is levitating
I could do this all day
I always want to stay

It takes me so high
Even feels like I have died
And gone to heaven
In our own love haven

The feeling I get
Feels like we fit
In the pit of my stomach
Warm like I'm sipping Malbec

Your lips fit perfectly with mine
The sensation I get is so divine
I want these moments to last forever
I want you wherever, whenever

I look into your eyes
You're better than the other guys
Such a beautiful affair
Perfect and rare