I will always, always, always be broken hearted over the failure of us
I don’t know why we can’t be friends
I don’t know why we can’t be lovers
But for some reason, it isn’t in the cards
There is no “we”
There is no “us”
And it breaks me to think that there never was
I don’t think I will ever recover from this
The pain will just get easier to deal with
Right now, I am feeling numb
I can’t devote any emotion to anyone
I don’t even have a heart
It’s in a million pieces
Lying on the ground
Waiting for what used to make it whole
And that was you
But you are gone
And you don’t wish for me
You just want me to leave you be
And that hurts
More than any word
Or any poem
Could ever express

I don't like how
I can't tell you I love you
As freely
Like I used to

I don't like how
We no longer share
Intimate and close moments
Like before

I don't like how
We're always stuck
In between
When previously, we were one

I don't like how
I can't show you
How much I want you
Or even need you

I don't like how
I'm always scared
Of losing you
As I have in the past

I don't like how
Things have changed
I want you to accept us
Once more

I don't like how
You aren't mine
And how you're not
Exclusive to me

I hate how I can't
Express my love for you
In many ways
Like you used
To appreciate

I remember the hot summer days
When I’d spend every minute
Talking to you
But those sunny days weren’t as hot
As our love dates for two

I remember when I was everything you wanted
And the only thing you needed
To put a smile on your face
And the times when you’d miss me
Even if I was away shortly

I remember how good I felt
Knowing you felt the same way
I still drift away from reality
To just relish in a brief flashback
Recalling how lovely of an arrangement it was

I remember how you used to lean on me
And call on me for comfort and solace
It made me feel so powerful
And loved and appreciated
I wouldn’t trade it for anything

I remember when you thought I was yours
For the taking, forever
How I wish you’d take me now
And still think of me as your love
And even as your soulmate

I remember your words to me
And how much you cared
And how deeply you loved me
It was so magical and so rare
I was so happy, you took me there

And I remember when it ended
When my heart crushed not in two
But in a thousand pieces
Scattered everywhere, some are missing
Now I can’t put it all together again

One day
Someone will come along
And feed to you
Their beautiful lies
And then suddenly
They'll leave you in the dark
Only to destroy your life
Just like you did
To me

Name calling is
A sign of weakness
And of vulnerability

I miss your love
I miss your face
I miss your kisses
I miss our chats
I even miss the way you'd reject me
Because at least then
We were talking
I miss being your friend
I miss being someone you could rely on
I miss making you laugh
I miss making you smile
I miss giving you confidence
I miss making you feel worthy
I miss your texts in the morning
I miss when you'd tell me "I love you"
I miss everything
I miss you
But I don't think we'll ever speak again
So I guess from here on out
I'll have to miss you less and less

I'm finished
I'm done
There's nothing left inside of me
I have not won

I've lost
Everything
I'm tired of giving my love
And then getting
Nothing

Why can't I just be normal
Feel normal
Look normal

Then maybe I could be happy
But no
Just let me be

His mouth is so flawless
The way he speaks
And the way it moves
With every word
When we kiss
It's magic
Our lips were designed
To fit and belong with one another
They're perfectly entwined

As the seconds pass
Our need for each other arises
It heats up
With passionate feelings
Abrupt movements
It's almost as though we are in our own movie
A love scene
Scripted by us
The perfect love story

Desires keep expanding
As our fulfillment deepens
We are loving each other
Not only mentally and emotionally
But physically
Infatuated with one another
The perfect blissful time
Relishing in thoughts of forever
The curtains never close
And the chapters never end
In our love story