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472 · Dec 2013
Die Inside
Emily Dec 2013
I die inside
When I think of how much I want to love him
But I'm stuck loving you instead
20 words.

© Peyton 2013
471 · Feb 2014
Loves Me Right
Emily Feb 2014
He kisses
The salty tears away
Completely
Loves me right
10 words. Written on 1/4/2014.

© Mela 2014
471 · Sep 2013
Your Loss
Emily Sep 2013
I smile and sit
Act polite and real
You went ape ****
Lost all your appeal
Your loss
© Peyton 2013
469 · Aug 2013
Her
Emily Aug 2013
Her
I get so happy when she comes back to me
She makes me feel like a god
Like I'm the only thing in her life
That makes the sadness gone

She confesses her love to me and I melt
I can't believe she hid all these feelings she felt
She needs to practice on her expression
I think she's finally learned her lesson

Just when I think I can't take anymore
She acts and speaks in her perfect way
And so eloquently tells me
That she wants me to stay

Stay by her side and hold her close
Sleep with her at night
When she feels most alone
Let her know that she's alright
And that all this time my love's only grown

I love her so much
I don't know what to do
Since her, something's come over me
I don't even think clearly
She's all I want and all I need
Our souls are one and now we're both freed
© Peyton 2013
469 · Oct 2013
I Miss You
Emily Oct 2013
I miss you
Like the autumn leaves yearn to fall
Like the ocean creates its tides
Like the sun kisses the earth
Like the moon lights the night
Like the stars enable wonder
Like the mother loves her child
Like the writer tells of his stories
Like the rain waters the ground
I miss you
It's what I do
All year round
© Peyton 2013
467 · Oct 2013
Out Of Reach
Emily Oct 2013
I feel like no matter how close we get
You're still so out of reach
15 words.
Feeling discouraged.

© Peyton 2013
465 · Oct 2013
Alive
Emily Oct 2013
Something inside of me
Is alive again
Thanks to you
Thanks for appearing in my life again, baby.

10 words.

© Peyton 2013
464 · Jan 2014
A Thousand Years
Emily Jan 2014
Things that are the most precious
Are worth waiting for
And I'd wait a thousand years
For you
© Peyton 2014
460 · Dec 2013
Less And Less
Emily Dec 2013
I miss your love
I miss your face
I miss your kisses
I miss our chats
I even miss the way you'd reject me
Because at least then
We were talking
I miss being your friend
I miss being someone you could rely on
I miss making you laugh
I miss making you smile
I miss giving you confidence
I miss making you feel worthy
I miss your texts in the morning
I miss when you'd tell me "I love you"
I miss everything
I miss you
But I don't think we'll ever speak again
So I guess from here on out
I'll have to miss you less and less
© Peyton 2013
451 · Aug 2013
6 Days Part II
Emily Aug 2013
Well, it's the 20th
Which means our 12 days of freedom together will finally happen
You're off work
I'm finishing my summer
Hopefully you don't act like a ****
Sometimes you do that and it's a ******

You always have my undivided attention
When you're around
There is always some sort of tension
Especially with those stare downs

It's because you like me
And I like you
But you're stubborn, you see
Because you know it's true

You avoid reality
All because you worry about him
But in actuality
He is quite grim

So I'm waiting for you call
To see what will happen
Even though you won't, I know I will fall
With that, it is me you will sadden
© Peyton 2013
446 · Aug 2013
Gold Dust
Emily Aug 2013
There's something about this chick
That inspires me on a new level
Look at me, writing is what I pick
Her power is something special

She's never out of my head
And takes the top spot in my heart
She loves being in my bed
She's won me over, she tops the chart

Talking to her throughout my day is a must
Our conversations are what put a smile on my face
We have between us the kind of trust
That outlasts storms and never breaks

She's on a different level from the rest
She's the whole package
I can't get enough of our talks, they're the best
Her words, they paint an image

An image of love, an image of lust
Perfectly wrapped into one
On my life, she sprinkles gold dust
It's what her heart's made of, I've most definitely won

I've won the ultimate prize
My true love belongs to me
She's so beautiful in my eyes
To my heart, she's found the key
© Peyton 2013
444 · Dec 2013
We'll Always Know
Emily Dec 2013
Do you remember
How I dug you out
Of that deep and dark hole
That was your life

Do you recall
How I pulled you out
Of despondency and despair
Made your life worth the living

I treated you like the queen
That I took you to be
And all you did
Was make a fool out of me

I made you better
Happier and stronger
I had only the best intentions
But you were clearly using me

I gave every thing I had
Exhausted every effort
And all I got in return
Was you ignoring and forgetting

I didn't even get a thank you
Even though I saved you
Do you even care
I wish I would've just left you there
To suffer more on your own
But I guess we'll always know
Who the better person is
© Peyton 2013
443 · Dec 2013
Fuck You
Emily Dec 2013
**** people
Who tell you they're in love with you
When they aren't
**** people
Who like to lie to others
Just to make themselves
Feel better
*******
For doing that
To me
this isn't articulate but i'm posting it as more of a release of emotion than anything else.

© Peyton 2013
442 · Sep 2013
Forever
Emily Sep 2013
I can't count the days
That have been absorbed
With thoughts of you

I can't count the ways
That you have given me
A whole new meaning

I can't count the times
You have made me smile
Simply by giving me your own

I can't measure the infinite amount
Of love and desire
That live in my heart

I can't measure the "top notch" quality
Of your love and affection
That you provide for me

I can't fathom
Living in a world
Without you

I can't fathom
Not seeing you
Every day

I can't fathom
Waking up
Without you there

I can't fathom
Not having you near
For kisses and hugs

But I can love you forever
And I will
© Peyton 2013
441 · Jan 2014
Five Words
Emily Jan 2014
I would say a lot of things
But then I risk looking stupid
I think of how I could tell you
All I feel for you in my heart
I guess only five words
Can really suffice
I'm in love with you
© Peyton 2014
439 · Nov 2013
Give It To Me
Emily Nov 2013
I crave one thing only
And that is my lips
All over your
**** body
15 words

© Peyton 2013
438 · Oct 2013
One Big Lie
Emily Oct 2013
Been used and abused
Been drained and pained
Been loved and drugged
Been ditched and bewitched
All to be left with me, myself, and I
Life is nothing but one big lie
© Peyton 2013
438 · Nov 2013
Never Again
Emily Nov 2013
My dreams are haunted
With only one thought
My soul has rotted
I'm alone and distraught

My heart feels cold
From all it has lost
The love you withhold
Is worth no cost

It causes me pain
When I'm left in the dark
Makes it feel like a game
You've sure left your mark

Your imprint will stick
On my heart forever
I won't fall for this trick
Not again, not ever

It feels as though
A heavy brick is on my heart
Misery and woe
My humanity departs

I can't stand the idea
Of you anymore
I wish for amnesia
And the power to ignore

You've lied too much
And I must let go
I'm releasing the clutch
I have never felt so low
© Peyton 2013
437 · Aug 2013
It's A Funny Thing
Emily Aug 2013
It's a funny thing, the way life works
You can be so down and out
And think you have no worth
You can't even smile, all you do is pout

You go around faking that you're somewhat content
And then you wonder why people don't care
Maybe it's because they don't know, you relent
Showing that this life you can't bear

You have your pride
And it makes you foolish
Sometimes it's stupid to have lied
About your strife and anguish

Once in a while, someone comes around
And they actually show compassion
For you and your frown
It makes you happy, that little interaction

An interaction can last a short while
Or it can outlast even your oldest relationships
Luckily for me, I found someone that makes me smile
Makes me want to turn this into a courtship

I love this person and am grateful
I'm hooked and can't get enough
Without a doubt, I was sent an angel
An angel that makes life not as tough

It's a funny thing, the way life works
Seems like nothing will change
And you'll always be sad
But then someone special comes along
And life isn't so bad
© Peyton 2013
434 · Nov 2013
I Can't Help
Emily Nov 2013
I can't help
But always think of you
I can't help
But always want to know your thoughts
I can't help
But always want to tell you you're beautiful
I can't help
But always want to be a part of your every day
I can't help
But always ponder about what you're doing
I can't help
But always want to have your heart
I can't help
But always want to give you mine
I can't help
But always think maybe someday you'd give me it
I can't help
But always wonder if you ever think about me
I can't help
But always want you to see
That I love you so much
And always will
Even though it hurts
© Peyton 2013
431 · Aug 2013
My One Truth
Emily Aug 2013
There's this boy I know
He's a particular fellow
He's mentally unstable
And even trips over the table

But he's funny and witty
Kind and sweet
You feel for him not pity
But only pure love

He's compassionate and deep
Hot, with many layers
Like a tea that sits to steep
Warm and comforting

He looks at you with those eyes
And you are compelled to worship
The ground he walks on
And accept the beautiful lies
That make up your relationship

We are forbidden lovers
No one can know how we feel
When we're under the covers
We keep it between us
Like kids sharing candy
On a yellow school bus

But what we have is much sweeter than candy
Much more than just dandy
What we have is rare
What we feel is care
What we have is between us
Only we can bare
We love each other
There is not another

No one can take your place, my love
For you are my only one
My one truth
© Peyton 2013
427 · Jan 2014
Bright Spirit
Emily Jan 2014
My thoughts can destroy me
But my mind is also the thing
That keeps me going
It allows me to think
And have in my head
The fantasies
And the ideas
That I have of you
Without my mind
I wouldn't be able to think
About how beautiful you are to me
And how you're the only thing
That keeps me breathing
On a daily basis
You put the smile on my face
While I can only manage to
Roll my eyes
Or scoff at others
I sometimes wonder
What it is about you
That I love so much
That gives me hope
And fills me with a peace
That I can't find anywhere else
You make me laugh
And you make me think
You allow me to look at the world differently
You're so new in every way
I'm fascinated by all you ever say
I just keep wanting more
Of all that you are
You make my heart beat
When it only seems to be torn down
You nourish it
With your bright spirit
And I never want you to leave
© Mela 2014
426 · Aug 2013
Zero
Emily Aug 2013
things are finished now
I expected this, somehow

never will I be
what I want to be
because I am useless
and a fraud

oh well
this is my reality now
and it *****
just like this poem
since I can't write for ****
maybe I should just quit
but then
I'd be even more cowardly
than I already am

so I guess living a hellish life
is all I got
too bad happiness can't be bought
© Peyton 2013
426 · Nov 2013
My Guide
Emily Nov 2013
There have been a few
To capture my love
But never one like you
You're situated way above

There is something remarkable
About your whole composition
Mind, body, and soul
A very special edition

My whole heart beats for you
I've never wanted something more
Our precious love is long over due
You are precisely what I live for

It is impossible to neglect
The fire you ignited within me
It burns bright and takes effect
Growing bigger by a large degree

Baby, your sweet existence
Is enough to make me smile
And the fact that you share it
Makes living so worthwhile

Because life is a crazy thing
Never go away or leave my side
Kiss me and soften the sting
To happiness, you are my guide
Not my best but wrote it shortly before bed.
I love you baby.

© Peyton 2013
425 · Nov 2013
Bye
Emily Nov 2013
Bye
Numbness
It feels nice
In comparison
To the ****
You made me feel
On purpose
15 words

© Peyton 2013
425 · Nov 2013
That Loving Feeling
Emily Nov 2013
Have no fear
Don't hold back
There are things
I don't want us to lack

Even though it's strange
Our relationship's our own
Unique and one of a kind
Feel the love down to my bone

You've shown me a new world
Given me wonder & excitement
Every day is a mystery
All I want is to explore it

I believe I'll never tire
Of you and all you offer
You spark interest every day
You never are a bother

Wish there wasn't distance
Physical and emotional
For you, I'll practice patience
Our love is not disposable

My heart feels something special
Just for you, my love
It'll never go away
You fit me like a glove

So I hope you're ready
To give me what you got
'Cause I'm coming after you
I like you a whole lot
© Peyton 2013
418 · Dec 2013
12 Steps
Emily Dec 2013
I need a twelve step program
But not to stop any substance abuse
Rather, to stop a love that I can't seem to let go of
© Peyton 2013
415 · Jan 2014
Never Ending
Emily Jan 2014
Hours go by
Even days
Weeks
And I'm still thinking
The same horrible thoughts
© Mela 2014
415 · Dec 2013
So New
Emily Dec 2013
There's this girl
She's a few years older
Says she's been eyeing me
From a distance
For a while
She's so new
So unexpected
She captivates me with her words
She treats me better than others
She acts as though she's wrapped up in me and only me
Every moment giving me her attention
Literally
I never knew she'd even make time for me
Much less say she's falling in love
Yes, she said it
I'm falling too
© Peyton 2013
412 · Aug 2013
The Love Of My Life
Emily Aug 2013
The love of my life is special,
She’s beautiful and appealing,
I am quite addicted,
She’s really got me reeling,
I never would have predicted.

The love of my life is vulnerable,
She’s easily hurt,
And easily saddened,
Her mind often lurks,
And ends up maddened.

The love of my life is funny,
She starves for attention,
Yet cherishes her privacy,
Almost like a different dimension,
Oh, the irony.

The love of my life belongs to me,
We read each other’s mind,
We have a special bond,
She’s truly one of a kind,
Struck me with her wand.

The love of my life is perfect,
She may not realize,
Quite the effect she has,
But one day all those lies,
Will hopefully come to pass.

The love of my life is beautiful,
When I think about her,
And her pretty face,
I sit and often wonder,
Just how wonderful is her grace.
© Peyton 2013
408 · Oct 2013
Reality
Emily Oct 2013
I think of others
Far more than they think of me
I know this because
I'm never happy
And I always feel alone
© Peyton 2013
404 · Oct 2013
Same Direction
Emily Oct 2013
You think I'm untrained in the ways of affection.
But my life holds hands with yours in the same direction.
Ben told me this this morning.  

© Peyton 2013
402 · Dec 2013
Best Kind Of Feeling
Emily Dec 2013
Someone new is on the prowl
Someone so unexpected
This is the best kind of feeling
Knowing you are wanted
Especially by a person
You thought didn't know you existed
© Peyton 2013
399 · Sep 2013
Wow
Emily Sep 2013
Wow
I miss you
When we're apart
I think about you
And how you occupy my heart
Seeing you
Brightens my day
I'm so happy
Nothing gets in our way
I can't imagine my life without you
You ruin me
I ruin you
There's no turning back now
Constantly, I sigh
And breathe out a *"wow"
© Peyton 2013
395 · Oct 2013
Alone
Emily Oct 2013
I sit around wanting you all day
Even when I'm sitting next to you
I feel like it's not enough
I want my hands on you
I want to be kissing you
All the time
But I ruin us
Why do I always feel so uneasy?
Why do I let my mind get the best of me?
I overthink every second of every day
And it destroys me
Along with everything around me
I dig my relationships
Into the ground
With all of my thoughts
They don't hold any truth
Yet I still find myself believing them
Why can't I just accept reality as it is
Accept that someone loves me
Accept that someone wants me
Accept myself as I am
But I cannot
I am full of self loathing
And I fear it'll never go away
I've come to terms with the fact
That alone I'll always stay
Wrote this in 5 minutes as I sit next to him. Literally having the worst day.

© Peyton 2013
393 · Jan 2014
Won't Work
Emily Jan 2014
If you want to judge me
Feel free
If you want to get mad at me
Go right ahead
If you choose to see my every flaw
And fail to recognize the good I posses
You're not the person I thought you were
Meanwhile
I hope you have a good life
I don't want you in my mine
Don't ever try to come back
And destroy me as you've done before
Because it won't work
© Peyton 2013
391 · Dec 2013
In Time
Emily Dec 2013
You think you are the victim
But everyone knows
That you are not
You didn't even want me
So what is the big deal
I haven't done a thing
I politely asked you to leave me be
And then you hold it against me
Why are you so caught up in this
I can't help what other people say
I didn't tell them to stand up for me
But they did so anyway
They saw that what you were doing
Was rude and unnecessary
You didn't want me around
So why must you keep trying to see
What I say
What I do
And who I talk to
Be hateful for no reason
That's fine
A guilty conscious will ruin you
In time
© Peyton 2013
384 · Nov 2013
Can't Change
Emily Nov 2013
Last night I saved you
From going to jail
Although it was scary
I knew you were a violent male

You have some major
Growing up to do
The whole world does not
Live, think, talk like you

A nice man approached me
To ask me a question
You immediately got violent
And started to punch him

It was in front of
His young & innocent son
How dare you act on violence
In the presence of a young one

You assaulted a man
It was incredibly immature
You're brutal and a savage
Your heart is so impure

The real world doesn't function
Like your violent movies & music
There's a thing called civility
You need to learn how to use it

You say this is a red flag
For most women, well,
I'm included in that category
And last night was hell

I saw the side of you
That I try to contain
But I guess I need to learn
That some people can't change
Last night this middle aged man and his son innocently approached me to ask me a question. My friend went crazy and started to attack this man for NO reason, right in front of his young son. I had to force my friend off of this man and thankfully, the man didn't call the cops. I yelled at my friend and made him apologize to the man and his son. I feel horrible for them both, but especially the boy who was most definitely traumatized by my friend's actions. My friend has a history of being prone to violent behavior. He has some mental issues but none justify his actions. I am trying to teach him that that is NOT normal and that resorting to violence is never the answer. One can't just lay their hands on someone for NOTHING. Honestly, truly scared. Next time my friend won't be so lucky.

© Peyton 2013
383 · Dec 2013
Terrible And Sick
Emily Dec 2013
I feel terrible and sick
To know that you wouldn't care
If I simply disappeared
Into thin air
© Peyton 2013
383 · Nov 2013
Number One
Emily Nov 2013
I'm doomed
I'm so whipped
I want you attached
Right to my hip

These thoughts of you
Never dissipate
Your *** is
All I anticipate

Every time I think of you
It really turns me on
It feels so good
It feels so wrong

I've never felt
Such a strong
Urge
Want
Need
I go
Wherever
You lead

This is so deeply rooted
In my mind
In my heart
In my body
That's how I know it's real
It's why I want you
Beside me

It would be torture
To live without you
So I'm really hoping
I don't have to
I wrote this like, a week ago.

© Peyton 2013
382 · Sep 2013
Gross
Emily Sep 2013
I mean nothing to you
And that's what hurts the most
I'm something you're not afraid to lose
Now my stomach just feels gross
All the time
© Peyton 2013
381 · Nov 2013
You Got What I Need
Emily Nov 2013
My wildest dream
My deadliest fantasy
Both belong to you
10 words.

© Peyton 2013
378 · Oct 2013
History
Emily Oct 2013
We got a lot of history
You're the only thing I see
Talking is a must for me
However often it may be
Being together is a fantasy
And even though it's hard to see
I wish you'd take a chance on me
Because loving you is what I need
My love for you is guaranteed
And if you were to ever flee
I'd get you back without a plea
We make the perfect harmony
You're my type, don't disagree
It's that way 'cuz of our **history
© Peyton 2013
375 · Nov 2013
Best
Emily Nov 2013
I know
I am the best lover
You've never had
10 words.

© Peyton 2013
373 · Jul 2013
Silent Treatment
Emily Jul 2013
People think that it's okay
To ignore someone
Just when things don't go their way
And not only then
Do people have a chip on their shoulder
Barely anything has to happen
In order for someone to turn colder
People get jealous
Of something that is harmless
Then they ruin what they had
All because they thought a little something was bad
© Peyton 2013
373 · Oct 2013
Dearest You
Emily Oct 2013
Dearest you,
It's hard to put into words
The feelings I get
They make my stomach turn
Sometimes good, sometimes bad
At the end of the day
You're the best I'll ever have
We talk about forever
We both think
We'll end up leaving each other
But let's not get ahead of ourselves
Let's live for this moment
However,
When we think about our long lives ahead
There's only one image that comes to mind
Only one way in which we'll spend our time
Only one we can imagine marrying
Only one we can imagine loving
And that's us
You're my best friend
That'll never change
From here, we'll only grow
And we will continue to exchange
Love
Kisses
Laughs
Smiles
We have it all
Every day, I continue to fall
Thank you for being you
My dearest
I love you
That is all
For my B.

© Peyton 2013
373 · Dec 2013
Why?
Emily Dec 2013
You lied
You said it was me
Despite it all
I was myself
You assured me of that
All logic went away from me
Because I kept doing something
I knew was wrong
I was simply overtaken
By my raw emotion
And my unbearable need
To make you feel loved
They say the road to hell
Is paved with good intentions
I know I meant well
Now look where I am
More without you than I've ever been
Regretting that horrible decision
I just want to know one thing
Why don't you love me?
© Peyton 2013
370 · Nov 2013
Stop Pretending
Emily Nov 2013
I know you don't care
So stop pretending you do
10 words.

© Peyton 2013
370 · Dec 2013
Think Again
Emily Dec 2013
If you try to hurt me with your words
You fail
Because I've completely eliminated you
From my heart
From my mind
If you think I care about someone
Who doesn't care about me
Think again
You couldn't be more wrong
I have nothing left for you
Nothing
Except for regret
I regret you
But I got over that regret
The second I got rid of you
The second my eyes were opened
By someone who's actually worthy of my love
© Peyton 2013
368 · Dec 2013
Dreaming
Emily Dec 2013
My favorite activity is dreaming
Because that's when you're mine
10 words.

© Peyton 2013
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