Not solely your beauty
Strength and wisdom
Compel me to love you
But your darkness
Sorrow and despair
Make me delve deeper
Onto a different layer

The layers to your mind
And the levels of depth
To your broken soul
Strike something in me
And I just have to know
Everything about you
And all of your thoughts
I only wish to help you through
And untangle your mind's knots

You are the victim
Of a unique circumstance
It's brought awful symptoms
But I'm hoping I get the chance
To bring you comfort
And allow you to feel secure
Then maybe I could convert
Your tarnished heart to pure

I want to help pull you
Out of this despondency
Expose to you the truth
And be with you constantly
I wish you could see
All that you are to me
You're everything and more
The one I truly adore
Realize your worth
And don't ever leave this earth

I don't like how
I can't tell you I love you
As freely
Like I used to

I don't like how
We no longer share
Intimate and close moments
Like before

I don't like how
We're always stuck
In between
When previously, we were one

I don't like how
I can't show you
How much I want you
Or even need you

I don't like how
I'm always scared
Of losing you
As I have in the past

I don't like how
Things have changed
I want you to accept us
Once more

I don't like how
You aren't mine
And how you're not
Exclusive to me

I hate how I can't
Express my love for you
In many ways
Like you used
To appreciate

I think about you at night
And wonder what you're doing
Do you think of me?
Am I the one you're pursuing?

Sometimes I feel it's real
Sometimes I think it's not
Although my heart's all in
I feel yours can't be bought

Not with my tenderness
Not with my affection
It's not supposed to be bought
I'm just dying for your attention

Maybe I mean something
Maybe I don't at all
But you are something special
And it's hard not to fall

I fall for your soul
And your perfect heart
I feel the need for you
And I never want to part

You've got me on lock
I am under your spell
My love travels deep
And with that I'm compelled

Compelled to adore you
Forced to want you
And until I can have you
I'll continue to chase you

I feel like such a pest
I want to focus on you
And forget all the rest
Now that we're on this new level
Curiosity ignites in me
In your love, I want to revel
I can barely sit still
Or even think straight
Want to fulfill your will
Want to take you on a date
Holding your hand
And touching your body
My breaths flutter
You are such a hottie

His mouth is so flawless
The way he speaks
And the way it moves
With every word
When we kiss
It's magic
Our lips were designed
To fit and belong with one another
They're perfectly entwined

As the seconds pass
Our need for each other arises
It heats up
With passionate feelings
Abrupt movements
It's almost as though we are in our own movie
A love scene
Scripted by us
The perfect love story

Desires keep expanding
As our fulfillment deepens
We are loving each other
Not only mentally and emotionally
But physically
Infatuated with one another
The perfect blissful time
Relishing in thoughts of forever
The curtains never close
And the chapters never end
In our love story

I wonder if people make nice
Just for their own personal gain
Why don't you talk?
Why won't you break the ice?
It's not always my decision
To put a stop to this friction
There must be a way around
The things that have kept us bound
Bound away
I feel insecure
Kind of like a prisoner
Stuck in between
Being nice and being mean
I guess only time will tell
Whether this will end well

Every day, we grow closer
We make the perfect pair, her and I
Of the music in my ears, she's the composer
She gives me wings and I can fly

I fly to see her every night in our dreams
We make love each time like it's the last
I can't get enough of her, it seems
Don't know how I lived without her in my past

She's the most beautiful creature on this planet
I have never encountered someone so ethereal
Her lips are red like pomegranate
Her heart is not made of muscle material

Rather, it is made from gold
Gold that breeds love and care
Seeping into my system, to her I always fold
At her, I can't help but stare

I am in love, certainly
Just to breathe the air she breathes
Is my biggest blessing, surely
And if she were to ever leave
There would never be another
Because if I'm speaking honestly
She is my greatest lover

When the time comes to see you
My nerves run amuck
They throw me for a loop
And I feel like I'm stuck

Stuck in a state of confusion
I can't tell if it's good or bad
But all I know is
You're the best I ever had

It's humorous and comical
How I'm most comfortable around you
Yet at the same time
That really isn't true

My anxiety makes me weak
My insecurities take me back
I do us a disservice
That is when we get off track

I end up wishing to be more
To be perfect, charming, and beautiful
I just want to please you
But instead I'm just pitiful

However,
When you grab my hands
And touch my body
It is little by little
That you fix me

You take over my heart
Just like you take over my mind
I almost forgot
The feelings you gave me
Such a longing
To make you happy
I just want you to see
That you're the one for me
I will never seize
To want your affection
And need your love
You're what I live and breathe for
There's no one else above
You're my number one
My eyes are set on you
Be my baby for always
And make my dreams come true

I found the love of my life
And nothing could be better between us
But I started off by telling this one tiny lie
And can't help but wonder if our love will get hit by a giant bus

I don't know how to rectify the situation
What we have is so heavenly
I don't want to further complicate the equation
We express our love so sensually

My adoration for her fills my heart
She is my only purpose
But it feels like I'm pushing a very heavy cart
And it's causing me a disservice

A cart, heavy with this burden
The burden of a tiny mistruth
With the impact of a canon
And the ability to destroy youth

But I am what keeps her sanity in check
I show her just how worthy she truly is
Without me, she'd be a wreck
Is this a test, or just a quiz

Probably a test, a test of true love
If what we have is real
Then we can get past the rough
Because what we have is stronger than steel

I can show her my true self
Without having to hide this one small detail
We can demonstrate our relationship's health
And continue living this fairytale

Liking you is so painful
Because of my love, you are not mindful
I let it be known that I care
I let it be known that my love is rare
You act as though we’re so close
“Best buddies” is what you call us
I guess that’s all we’ll ever be,
I suppose

You are so unsociable
Yet, you tell me how you love me
And how I’m the only one
You can spend time with for hours
And have the most fun

It makes no sense
How you only see me in this light
The light of close friendship
The light of tight kinship
You can’t stand women
Yet you’re in love with my company
But not me?

I think you are confused
Since you’ve never known a love like this before
All I can do is hope and pray
That time will show you
To come my way

Can’t you see, lover?
That the best relationships
Start with close friendship
Start with tight kinship
When will you realize
That you are blind
And that your heart
Resides in mine

The hardest thing to do
I've discovered
Is try and cover up
A sad face
An exhausted face
For the past 5 or so months
I've been walking aimlessly
Carrying around a heavy weight
That has emotionally ruined me
I'm out of whack
I'll never be the same
Parents and friends
They've noticed a difference
And not a small one
I've grown more disrespectful
And less patient
As if I wasn't a hermit before
Now all one can find me doing
Is sleeping
In my bedroom
I try and tell those close to me
That I'm fine
Nothing is wrong
I'm just tired
Only one of those is true
I'm tired
And I'm sick
Of feeling like this

My heart feels on fire
I lay in bed and think of you
Tears slowly roll out of my eyes
One by one
Just like it does right before
A thunder storm is about to take place
My tear droplets analogous with rain drops
My thoughts replacing the sound of thunder
How you reeled me in so perfectly
With the way you'd tell me things
The way you'd lie
I always still wonder why
What was the point of making me weak
So weak I'd do anything for you
Making it impossible for me to give you up
You lifted me up so high
Only to throw me back down
So far down that an indention
Formed in my soul
I loved you so sweetly
So genuinely
Isn't that what you want?
I'll never have you
My heart is truly on fire
Burning for the one
I can't have

I always feel so alone
Laying in my bedroom
Everyone I desire is out of sight
Everything I want doesn't seem worth the fight
It's hard for me to ignore
The heavy weight on my shoulders
Pressure from my family
To do a certain thing
And be a certain way
Pressure from outsiders
To feel things I can't feel
And do things I've never done before
I don't know who I am anymore
I've lost myself in my sorrow
It cannot be found
I've been searching long and hard
But I think the changes are permanent
I am no longer the same
I wish I could start over
And get another name
I want to go away
And forget about everyone I know
Just like they forget about me
Maybe I'll find someone new
Perhaps I'll develop a new passion
I'm tired of this life of mine
I'm too cowardly to end it
So I'll just sit here
Continuing to fail
From digging myself out of this hole
Maybe one day I'll get the courage
To go somewhere new
And start over

The unexpected happened tonight
I had to open up
And come out with the truth

I told you
And we were both flustered
But we remained
For the most part
Calm

Although I shed some tears
I was reminded of the greatness
That we once were
That we still are

You were my first everything
My first love
My first constant
My first pillar of strength
Someone I could rely on
For anything

But, things happen
And people change
And we didn't last
Romantically
But we did last
As best friends

However
Along the way
I fell in love with someone else
But he was the person
That was off limits
Because of the relationship that you two have
Brothers

How awful of he and I
To, in a way, betray you
But we can't help our feelings
And where things have led
It just happened
There's nothing more to be said

You and I
We are always mature
We are getting through this
That is for sure
I never want to lose you
You'll always be important to me
You'll always be my first
If I lost you
That would be the worst

So thank you
For being so understanding
And for letting us explore
This new love
Us three have always been a team
We will continue to be a team
Together through thick and thin
That way, we always win

Give me your mind
Give me your body
Give me your soul
I promise to keep you
Safe and whole

You're everything
I want and need
But I don't want half of you
I want all, indeed
Your thoughts
Your love
Your care
Your ***
These things I yearn for
These things I'll respect

When I think of you
Nothing comes to mind
Other than
Beauty & grace
Strength & intelligence
Nothing negative
Combine these elements
They're what make me
Fall deep in love with you
Can't help but feel in my heart
That this is true

You're some kind of special
A type I've never experienced
I hope it never ends
Cuz about you, I'm serious
Thoughts of you take over me
They will never let me be
Your love lights my life
Maybe one day you'll be my wife