You are so sweet
Like peaches
In the summer time

I can't help
But always think of you
I can't help
But always want to know your thoughts
I can't help
But always want to tell you you're beautiful
I can't help
But always want to be a part of your every day
I can't help
But always ponder about what you're doing
I can't help
But always want to have your heart
I can't help
But always want to give you mine
I can't help
But always think maybe someday you'd give me it
I can't help
But always wonder if you ever think about me
I can't help
But always want you to see
That I love you so much
And always will
Even though it hurts

We had a good run
Thought you were my only one
But when things had to end
You still remained my closest friend
Now that it's been a while
Rarely do we ever smile
Something has come between us
Now we lack in trust
I wish I could erase
This feeling of disgrace
I have so much guilt
Over destroying what we've built
I fear the loss of you
Even though we've been through
Everything and anything
Now you are missing
From my every day
I'm hoping for a way
To somehow reconnect
And change this defect
I want us to be strong
Where nothing can go wrong
That is how we used to be
And you still mean that much to me
My love and care will never fleet
Because without it I am incomplete

I'm in a stagnant place
Stuck on autopilot
Don't even recognize my face
Always reserved, always quiet

I feel very alone
Even with family & friends
I am always prone
To feel like I'm at my end

Every day is not new
No motivation, just doubt
An endless cycle of devalue
All I ever do is space out

I get drunk and high
To try & escape this reality
But all I do is ask why
Not even drugs are enough for me

I wonder when this will leave
And when I'll feel normal
I don't think I'll ever believe
That I'll feel anything but mournful

I only wish to sleep all day
And stay hidden in my bed
That is the only way
To cope with these thoughts in my head

I'd rather have my heart broken
Than be the one to hurt another
The feelings of guilt and deception
Creep up taking over the mind
It's hard to sleep at night
When you leave someone
Because feelings went astray
There are no words
That one could possibly say
When you leave someone
You actually feel like the devil
******* the life out of someone
Stooping to the lowest level
When you leave someone
It is all so confusing
What led us to here
It leaves us refusing
Our reality
Once so in love
Now fighting with brutality
I feel so wrong
For leaving you that one day
I broke your heart
I wish I could've stayed
But it's ironic
How things unravel
Now my heart is broken
And I'm left baffled
By our awkward friendship
I hope you can forgive me
Didn't want to destroy you
Didn't think I possessed
Such a power
Didn't think I could feel
Any lower
But I do
I hope you know
How much I loved you
And always will

Nothing brings me down
I live in a hoppin' town
ATX livin'
No ***** given
Spending the weekend
With my lover
Got a whole lot of loot
To spend on each other
But mainly we'll be
Knocking boots

Tu silencio
Es mejor
Que tus mentiras
Ya me cansé
De ti
Y como tiras
Mi corazón
A la tierra
No aguanto
Nada más
De tus
Juegos de la mente
No quiero saber
Nada más
Sobre ti y la gente
Con quien
Estás
Quitate
De mi vida
Nunca quiero
Oir de ti
Por nuevo

When crisis strikes
And panic starts to arise
I turn to you
And it's no surprise
Your voice is calming
Your words comfort
I sigh a breath of relief
As my worries avert
With you in my life
It is never dark
Nothing troubles me
There's only a bright spark
Ignited in my heart
And rooted in my mind
Nothing will keep me apart
From the assurance you provide
I've never experienced
A secure love such as this
I wake up every morning
Feeling happiness and bliss
Nothing brings me down
When I see your handsome face
You are my whole world
And I long for your embrace
When you hold me close
In your loving arms
I am so at ease
You are my lucky charm
Nothing will defeat
Our infallible love
And it is because
You fit me like a glove

I forgive you
Because I am better
Than you
But I won't let you in
Because you are
Never true

As the weather changes
So does my mind state
The colder it gets
The more I feel great

Fall is upon us
Winter is soon to follow
And during these months
I feel less hollow

Bundling up
And drinking hot tea
Makes for a calming day to day
Always feeling free

Scarf around my neck
Hoodie over my head
Nothing to do
Except cuddle in bed

Weather is powerful
It can change moods
I let it work its magic
Only hope it alludes

It's the time to reflect
During this time of year
On all we've been blessed with
With that, our purpose becomes clear

Only love, laughter, and joy
Cancel out the negative
Appreciate what surrounds you
And everything is positive

I can't quite express
What weather does
But it changes something in me
And I'm filled with love

Nature is a beautiful thing
Insanely under appreciated
But it's something I cherish
Because my peace it created

I sleep soundly
With him beside me
Almost every night
We hold each other tight
There's nothing that I lack
I know he has my back
He is so generous
God has a plan for us
It's a beautiful thing
When he talks about a ring
Calls me his spouse
Wants to buy me a house
This is perfect, this is rare
He's my soulmate, this I swear
Our love is strong
It's based off our bond
A best friendship
Evolved into
A dream relationship
Thank you God
For such a blessing

Numbness
It feels nice
In comparison
To the ****
You made me feel
On purpose

I wonder where we would be
If you hadn't died

Wanting to live a different life
Is the hardest obstacle to overcome
Because it's impossible
You're stuck in the body you've been given
You're stuck in the mind that feels like a prison
There's no way out
Just pure misery
Loneliness and doubt
Not only do I hate myself
But everyone around me
Doesn't seem to give a ****
If I just disappeared
That would actually be good luck
Constantly feeling like I'm sick
Makes every day a living hell
My heart's in my stomach
That's not where it belongs
I can tell
The dissatisfaction life brings
Almost seems like a joke
Is this a ******* nightmare?
Excuse me while I choke
Tomorrow will be the same
No hope, no love
Only bitterness and shame
My want to escape
Is stronger than my want
For even the finest things
If only I could just
Disappear

Have no fear
Don't hold back
There are things
I don't want us to lack

Even though it's strange
Our relationship's our own
Unique and one of a kind
Feel the love down to my bone

You've shown me a new world
Given me wonder & excitement
Every day is a mystery
All I want is to explore it

I believe I'll never tire
Of you and all you offer
You spark interest every day
You never are a bother

Wish there wasn't distance
Physical and emotional
For you, I'll practice patience
Our love is not disposable

My heart feels something special
Just for you, my love
It'll never go away
You fit me like a glove

So I hope you're ready
To give me what you got
'Cause I'm coming after you
I like you a whole lot

All I want to do
Is be next to you

There are some people
Who wear their heart
Openly on their sleeve
Only to have it
Violently ripped off
And never cherished

There are some people
Who invest far too much care
In the world around them
And end up getting hurt
By nearly everyone
No expectations are met

There are some people
Who worry themselves sick
With the thought
That they are unloved
All because someone else
Is incompetent

There are some people
Who stay awake at night
Pondering the idea that
They are ugly and unworthy
This is a dangerous lie
Yet they still believe it

There are some people
Who wake up every morning
Fighting the urge to cry
They fail and let the tears flow
A symbol of all the emotion
They have built up

There are some people
Whose generosity
Care and affection
Go wildly unnoticed
And under appreciated
This causes them to break

There are some people
Who, after a while,
Break down tremendously
Enter a dark place
Only to return to the light
A completely different person

There are some people
Who experience so much let down
And so much heart break
That their heart is no longer
On their sleeve, it's nowhere
All at the fault of another

There are some people
Who have to learn
To give up on those
That are incapable of affection
Incapable of selflessness
And move on to what they deserve

I am one of those people
And I refuse to keep sinking
At the hands of people
Who couldn't care less
About me and my love
I am worthy of much more

Can't help but fall
More in love
With the one
Who gives me
His heart

Thank you,
Best Friend
For bringing me
Comfort
Security
Love
Generosity
You keep me sane
I love you

There are so many
Loop holes
To your love
It's hard to determine
What it's made of
Can't tell if it's
For real
Sometimes I think
You try to conceal
What we have
Or maybe just me
All I know is
Without it
I can't breathe
I wish I could look
Inside your heart
But I can't
I only hope
That this is not
A game
You're real to me
I cherish you
Don't stray from me
Can't lose you
Again...

Everyone is as fake
As a plastic face
I'm not

I hate emotional attachment
It scares me
They grab my heart and ****** it

I feel out of control
And I get sad
Without them, I don't even feel whole

This burden is too much
I can't play these games
It's confusing and I misjudge

My love's the greatest thing I give
I hand it out so freely
But then they steal it and I can't live

I must step back in my life
And regain control of my heart
On my own, I can see the light

Right now, I'm in the dark
Overshadowed by the fake emotion
Take it back, I'd rather be apart

Nothing is worse
Than giving yourself
Wholeheartedly
And getting nothing in return
I think I'll stop now
And just feel the burn
I'll get over it eventually
And then I'll start to see
Who's actually there for me

I want to kiss
Your beautiful lips
It'd be bliss

It's been a while
Since I've made you smile
And now that I can again
I am left remembering
How I love the things you do
And how I want to love on you
I remember all the feelings I got
It was my heart that you caught
You captivated me with your mind
It was something I couldn't leave behind
You stole me away with your soul
Gaining your love was my goal
Not to mention all your beauty
In and out, you're perfect to me
I want to show you that every day
I'm always trying to find a way
I love you much, better believe it
I tell you now, one day you'll see it

My feelings conflict
Feels like I'm a convict
Don't know how to go about it

We have a nice thing going
But then it gets boring
Because I am unable to give
What you want most in this
My insecurities block me
From giving you your plea
And I disappoint the both of us
Then we feel there is no trust
Truth is, I don't trust anyone
Because my body is no fun
No, we can't have *** like that
All you would see is my fat
You respect me and you're patient
And for that, I try to not relent
But I'll always be held back
It's just a cold hard *fact