Emily

Emily Jan 2014

I love the way you look
You're exactly my type
The way you are
Not even a top model
Or the most famous celebrity
Contains your authentic beauty
Your face is exquisite
Your porcelain skin
And dark eyes
You're like a doll
I'd never want one thing about you
To change
You take my breath away
You should know
Of the perfection you posses
Your desire to look
Like anything else
Hurts me a little
Because the thought of never
Knowing you as you are
Or having you as I've had you
Makes me sick
You're so beautiful
It's a wonder
How someone so gorgeous
Can still be around
In a world full of ugly
It'll always be a mystery
That's why you're so precious to me

Emily Jan 2014

Bright Spirit

My thoughts can destroy me
But my mind is also the thing
That keeps me going
It allows me to think
And have in my head
The fantasies
And the ideas
That I have of you
Without my mind
I wouldn't be able to think
About how beautiful you are to me
And how you're the only thing
That keeps me breathing
On a daily basis
You put the smile on my face
While I can only manage to
Roll my eyes
Or scoff at others
I sometimes wonder
What it is about you
That I love so much
That gives me hope
And fills me with a peace
That I can't find anywhere else
You make me laugh
And you make me think
You allow me to look at the world differently
You're so new in every way
I'm fascinated by all you ever say
I just keep wanting more
Of all that you are
You make my heart beat
When it only seems to be torn down
You nourish it
With your bright spirit
And I never want you to leave

Emily Jan 2014

Second Best

I feel second best
I know I'm not as important
As the rest
No one has ever made
A big deal out of me
I'm literally insignificant
People don't care
If I'm not around
They don't care
If they don't hear from me
I'm not worried about
Or wondered about
I'm not cared for
I'd say I need to find
Some new people
To associate with
But it's not like
Anything would ever change

Emily Jan 2014

Never Ending

Hours go by
Even days
Weeks
And I'm still thinking
The same horrible thoughts

Emily Jan 2014

Few Out There

i have always read people
like i read a book
i have always known people
like i know the palm of my hand
i can smell *******
from a mile away
it's unfortunate
because this day in age
everybody is a liar
nobody is real
and everybody seems to lie
about how they feel
they do it to either
watch their own back
and not seem like a horrible person
or because they are a coward
either way
there are very few out there
that are trustworthy
and i don't think
i know any

i'd rather someone tell me to ******* instead of pretend to want me around.

© Mela 2014

Emily Jan 2014

Hung Up On You

You're not hung up on me
You're hung up on her
Jealous of her lover
Meanwhile
I'm jealous of the measly air you breath
Much less everyone who has ever
Laid eyes on you

Emily Jan 2014

Hear My Plea

universe
hear my plea
let me die
i don't want to live
because all i can seem to do
is destroy
all that is good