Emily

Emily Sep 2013

Yearning

I can hardly handle
My yearn
My want
My need
For you
You're within my reach
You're within my grasp
I want every waking moment with you
Is that too much to ask?

I can hardly handle
This love I possess
It's so strong
I feel I'm a mess
I can't get you off my mind
But I don't want to
My concentration
Is set on loving you

The disappointment I feel
When it's been just a few hours apart
Is so overwhelming
Feels like I took a dart
Straight to my heart
Thank goodness for our proximity
Without it
I'd die from insanity

I cannot stop writing about him.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Sep 2013

Once Incredible

I can't deal with your polarity of emotion
I need consistency
I always practiced that notion

I can't deal with the unknown
I need stability
I don't want your love on a loan

Learn some respect
Learn to reciprocate
I'm always there
You're always late

One day
You hate me
The next
You miss me
Pick a ******* side
This ain't easy
And I'm not sticking around
Just to watch us go down
Again
And again
And again
It's inevitable
What a shame
We were once incredible

I'm always sorry.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Sep 2013

Best Friends

I hate not being around you
I could talk with you for hours
Just lay around
And feel you near
Your breaths
They're something I feel and hear
Feel them under my hands
As your stomach moves up and down
The warmth of our bodies
Radiates heat
The tension rises
A sheet of love overcomes us
The silence is overridden
With this feeling of lust
And heavy desire
Our love is a must
It takes us higher
Spending every day with you
Is my ultimate joy
This will last forever
This can't come to an end
It'll work out
Because we started out
As best friends

My best friend and I finally get our time :)

© Peyton 2013

Emily Sep 2013

Such A Hottie

I feel like such a pest
I want to focus on you
And forget all the rest
Now that we're on this new level
Curiosity ignites in me
In your love, I want to revel
I can barely sit still
Or even think straight
Want to fulfill your will
Want to take you on a date
Holding your hand
And touching your body
My breaths flutter
You are such a hottie

Emily Sep 2013

Wow

I miss you
When we're apart
I think about you
And how you occupy my heart
Seeing you
Brightens my day
I'm so happy
Nothing gets in our way
I can't imagine my life without you
You ruin me
I ruin you
There's no turning back now
Constantly, I sigh
And breathe out a *"wow"

Emily Sep 2013

Reflection

The distant tinge of teardrops
And memories dewed with moss

Missing my best friend, Charlie, who would have turned 22 this month. May he continue to rest in peace. I love you.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Sep 2013

Evil Vision

A scalpel or incision will leave me with an evil vision
Torn from religion, anthropomorphic beast of nihilism
Kissing the devil's daughter
My raps are food for fodder and sauder
To grow the model of society run by hate and broken bottles
I don't coddle your misconceptions
Your life has no direction
Except a knife splitting your intestines
Internal infections lead me to beckon
My hate is not strong enough
I'll cut you in sections, leave you in pieces
My hatred denies Jesus
At the end of the day, your conception of reality should be aborted like a fetus
Death meets you with open eyes
Defeat you, beat you, and watch you cry
Contemplating suicide
The hatred of mind is something not easy to find

My troubled yet wonderful and deep lover of a best friend wrote this tonight. He's amazing, I love him. His poetry has the potential to move people. My heart breaks when I think of his self loathing.

© Peyton 2013