Emily

Emily Sep 2013

Peace

I'm not bitter
I've got nothing to say
I've said all I can
I'm spent out of words
My mind is clear
With thoughts
On the real
The sun outside
That's something I can feel

Emily Sep 2013

Indifference

You should get over yourself
You're a tiny part in my story
Almost insignificant
Really quite boring

I have a life
Outside of the world of us
And it's rather complicated
By you, I am not crushed

I'm more lively
And realize what's important
I possess real friends
My love was just something I lent

I haven't moved on
Because there's nothing to move on from
You don't occupy my mind
Get out of your delirium

I've nothing against you
No feelings, no grudge
I'm rather indifferent
And that feeling won't budge

I live every day
With someone else
He's what I want and need
You're just someone on a shelf

I wish for you a happy life
And I'll think about you fondly
But that's as far as it'll go
Please don't take this wrongly

Emily Sep 2013

Soulmate

It's been us for a while
It's been us for years
We were just held back
But now we have no fears

There's nothing in our way
With each other, we spend our time
Hanging out all day
Not seeing each other is a crime

We have so many firsts yet to experience
I can't wait to try them all
With the one I am meant for
I have already begun to fall

Throughout my days
I am so uneasy
But when you hold my hand
Everything feels calm and breezy

It's like a light breeze
On a scorching hot day
You soothe me, and I feel calm
My lap is where you lay

I love being close to you
I wouldn't ever turn back
We were meant to be more
It was the us we always did lack

You're my everything
You're my fate
You're my joy
My soulmate

Inspired by my lover and best friend.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Sep 2013

Finally

I'm in love with you, best friend
You complete me
You're the best guy I'll ever meet
The only one I make time for
Forget all the rest
We've already passed this test
The test of time
Now you are mine
And there is nothing in the way

Emily Sep 2013

Mystery

When I think about us
I'm filled with regret
I can't believe it happened like it did
Losing you is what I fret

I learned my lesson
From my wretched mistake
It started out with good intentions
I just wanted to give you a break

I had you, but then again
I never really did
Now I live without you
All because of something I hid

The worst part about it all
Is that to you, I am not special
You're not afraid to lose me
But in my mind, you're an angel

I just want to be forgiven
And remain in your heart
It's a shame that my idiocy
Ripped us apart

We can never be normal
And this will always be our history
I guess time is on our side
Where we end up is a mystery

Emily Sep 2013

Light My Fire

I still can't believe the time has come
The time to start our story
I thought it would be years from now
That life would bring us this new glory

We've discovered each other in a new way
No longer are we just a friendly duo
Intimacy, affection, excitment
Lovers with a new flow

I've been dreaming about you
Throughout the day and night
When you're around me, I smile
Perhaps it was love at first sight

When we are separated
By life's many obligations
All I think of is when I'll see you next
I must practice patience

I never tire of having you near
It's what I die to feel
When I feel your touch
That's when I know it's real

Our love has been long awaited
And it's now our time to shine
You're so special to me
My favorite thing is calling you mine

Come on baby, light my fire
Try to set the night on fire
I want to be in love with you
The time to hesitate is through

"Come on baby, light my fire. Try to set the night on fire" & "The time to hesitate is through" are taken from 'Light My Fire' by The Doors...a song that is ours.

© Peyton 2013

Emily Sep 2013

Fix Me

When the time comes to see you
My nerves run amuck
They throw me for a loop
And I feel like I'm stuck

Stuck in a state of confusion
I can't tell if it's good or bad
But all I know is
You're the best I ever had

It's humorous and comical
How I'm most comfortable around you
Yet at the same time
That really isn't true

My anxiety makes me weak
My insecurities take me back
I do us a disservice
That is when we get off track

I end up wishing to be more
To be perfect, charming, and beautiful
I just want to please you
But instead I'm just pitiful

However,
When you grab my hands
And touch my body
It is little by little
That you fix me