sometimes I think to myself

maybe he would like me more if…

my thighs didn’t rumble like thunder with each stride

maybe he would like me more if…

I decided to swallow my pride

maybe he would like me more if…

I didn’t speak my mind

maybe he would like me more if…

my tummy was tight and my hips were wide

maybe he would like me more if…

instead of wearing sweatpants and sweaters in winter I wore jeans and cardigans

maybe he would like me more if…

instead of last years shorts and a baggy tee in summer I wore a flowing dress

maybe he would like me more if…

my voice was high and smooth

maybe he would like me more if…

I held my tongue once in a while

maybe he would like me more if…

my grin wasn’t such a toothy smile

maybe he would like me more if…

I was tall enough to reach the cupboard above the kitchen sink

maybe he would like me more if…

I didn’t take so long to think

maybe he would like me more if…

I listened to the popular type of music

maybe he would like me more if…

my dark brown hair was blonde

maybe he would like me more if…

my legs and arms didn’t have any hair

maybe he would like me more if…

I lived my life without a care

maybe he would like me more if…

my skin was perfectly tan or perfectly fair

maybe he would like me more if…

sarcasm easily flowed off my tongue

maybe he would like me more if…

he was actually the one



but as I remember this all and reflect
I look over this list
and it's all the things she loves me for
I now know that she will love me more

White walls I'm drowning

White walls frowning

White halls never end

White halls a corner, a bend

White sheets slept in again

White sheets for women and men

White faces as pale as can be

White faces belong to you and me

White places all around

White places no sound

White light I'm stepping into

White light I should have been to

White walls, white halls, white sheets, white faces, white places, white light and forever a part of it I will be.