Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
maybella snow Jun 2013
10 words


~
that's the amount of days until i'm 18 and can legally leave home without parental permission
Jun 2013 · 140
<.~X~.>
maybella snow Jun 2013
i've figured what
            i want to do with my
whole life
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~  ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~   live
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~  ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~
~
~ ~ ~ ~
until i die
       with you
~ ~ ~
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Jun 2013 · 615
your unpredictable moods
maybella snow Jun 2013
how can anyone
predict                    
anything                      
about what type of
mood                            
you're going to be in?

how can anyone
do                  
anything                    
about your
moods?              

no one can      
nothing will change it
Jun 2013 · 2.0k
ignoring urges
maybella snow Jun 2013
the urge  
         to be
"perfect"
      is impossible
to ignore

.|~|.
Jun 2013 · 247
define: love
maybella snow Jun 2013
.  _         .   -      x  
x   .         X      .      :  
       x    =     .    :      -   .       +    
~       .             x   .    
=      :   +       X    .    .     ~
.       ~    =        .      x      ~    
~      x      ~     .    =        
.    ~   X
x     ~   .        ~  

not possible                    
but that comes close          

because it makes                
no sense                                  
at all          

*~love~
Jun 2013 · 447
i'm slightly less shrewd
maybella snow Jun 2013
i don't understand
      how you make me feel bad
                    when i didn't do anything
           but i feel guilty anyway
               because i made you feel
    slightly less happy
slightly less loved
   slightly less needed

        and i don't want that
Jun 2013 · 311
nothing will amount to us
Jun 2013 · 976
repairing bridges
maybella snow Jun 2013
|         |                  
a bridge                  
boards spread          
firmly              
but rickety            
more holes                
than a strainer        
uneven walking        
handrails          
required                
spanning a long        
distance              
. =-=~==--=-        
sometimes the wind
or fog              
can block      
or sway            
our distance bridge
|          |            

build on love    
in our hearts      
for only            
our souls to cross

the fog is blocking me                      
from being able to see you          
our bridge needs repairs                    
at both ends                
.|. /
Jun 2013 · 540
eliminating the fog
maybella snow Jun 2013
a fog in my head
           i couldn't see past it
                   it was too think for
   any eyes to penetrate
it blocked thoughts
           and d i S t o r t E d images

            un-knowingly
                 i found that external pain
             eliminates that fog
                like a swift breeze

too bad it resulted in bruises
            and cuts

              but i now can think clearly  
       and i hope that fog
               doesn't return for a long time

//
Jun 2013 · 570
once upon a promise
maybella snow Jun 2013
once upon a time                                            
you promised never, ever                  
to hurt me                                                      

once upon a time          
you promised never, ever                    
to let anyone else hurt me            

once upon a time                                        
you hurt me                        
and let everyone else hurt me too                              

once upon a time                  
i loved you                                              
and you loved me too                        

:.:.:.:
this is just a thought, not about anyone
Jun 2013 · 269
maybella snow Jun 2013


     there is such an
amount                      
                      of faith
                 residing in that
symbol                  

there is such an
amount                      
                      of people
                  depending on that
faith                      

i'm not                                                                                                
one of                                                                                              
them                                                                                                            
.†.
i hope no one takes this the wrong way, but i don't believe in religion , and i don't want to
Jun 2013 · 272
¿?cannot compute¿?
maybella snow Jun 2013
my brain has began to not function
                       as it used to
               it's lagging, catching on old things
    it didn't use to do this
            or maybe its just not as noticeable
Jun 2013 · 289
it is said that...
maybella snow Jun 2013
mothers know when their children
       are in pain
                   or if something is wrong
     even something significant
if that
             is so true
                                            why

           ­          don't you hear, or know
                                     that i cry every. night.
                     that i'm not sleeping well
       that i feel too sick to eat
               that i'm hurting all the time
                                   that i don't want to move from bed
                that i've acquired new scars
                                            that i'm in love

                                         why don't you know?
         or
                            do you know, and not care?

                                  its said that
                          mothers know when their
                                                children are in pain
                     or if something has changed
                                                 significant or not

.... do you know?
maybella snow Jun 2013
i gave you a gift                                                    
of love and affection                                                                  
of consideration and caring                                            
                                                            my heart
                                                                        its nothing special to anyone
                                                                                          had its fair share of beatings
                                                  maybe a little more
but i gave it to you                            
it's in your care                                                
if you nourish or neglect is your
choice and responsibility                          
thankyou
Jun 2013 · 1.2k
perfect struggles
maybella snow Jun 2013
its a struggle
             a constant struggle
                              to be perfect for you
maybella snow Jun 2013
i love you                              





i cant live




without you                      

~.~.~
Jun 2013 · 283
† R.I.P †
maybella snow Jun 2013
................................
          /                                  \        
/                  †                    \
    |                 R.I.P                  |    
|                                   ­         |
|                                             |
|                a sad                   |
|                      lonely            |
|                 person                |
-----------------------------------------­--------
maybella snow Jun 2013
wanting you is:                                                                        

                                                            like I’m missing a lung
                                          yet still trying to breathe
                                no taste on my tongue
                                        taste-buds, are on leave

needing you is:          

stomach quartered in size                                              
requiring even less intake                                                        
voice-box only utters lies                                            
solely what it can make                                                        

seeing you is:                

my eyes no longer itch                                                                    
you are their soothing balm                                                                                  
feeling my wind pipe hitch                                                        
before i begin to calm                                                                                

                     having you is:

                                         giving me heart attacks
though it beats even stronger
                     my brain, thoughts it lacks
                                           everyday things take longer

hating you is:                  

my mind towered with bricks                          
all walls have gaps and holes                                        
my soul punches and kicks
till my fire is reduced to coals                                            

                                                                                                                  loving you is:

                                                                                                                  never ending ache to my being
                                                                                                                 i require you to live day-to-day
                                                                                                                  you near me is my soul freeing
                                                                                                                      so please, let me live, stay

.≈.~.≈.~.≈.
me attempting rhyme and rhythm, not something i normally do, but a change, its different
Jun 2013 · 210
its not the same at all
maybella snow Jun 2013
nothing        
is as it used to be                    
everything is
so different            


it's so much better              

~X~
Jun 2013 · 328
a different type of numb
maybella snow Jun 2013
'                                                       i feel numb
                   but its different
its the type of numb
       you feel when
                      you've been crying too long

                                       your brain
                                                     body
                                                        soul
                                                          is exhausted

              so it stops everything
                                                 feeling
                                                    thinking
                                            wanting
                                      being
                                                         just to rest
for a while, nothing matters
                      you don't care about anything
                                           you've cried all your tears away
                       along with the last problem
                                          you had struggles with

  and you feel
                               numb

                                                             that different type of
                                           numb

**∞
Jun 2013 · 233
sigh
maybella snow Jun 2013
life. . . . .                                                                                


s            i            g            h
Jun 2013 · 305
d r i f t w o o d
maybella snow Jun 2013
i feel lost                                                                                              
like a piece of
d  r  i  f  t  w  o  o  d                                    

lost                                                                                
cut off          
cast away                                

no direction                                              
no place to be
Jun 2013 · 636
runaway resolves
maybella snow Jun 2013
my resolve resembles a little like                  
a stray hair                                                                
escaped from a bun, plait, braid, pony tail      

i know i belong somewhere
but the wind is pushing me away from it      

and no one can                                          
catch me                                    
to return me there                        

though i know that's
where i belong
maybella snow Jun 2013
i dont think you understand
             how sorry
i am
                          how stupid and silly i feel
      i fell
                 am
                        f a l l i n g
but i remember

                        you fell hard a while ago
and i tried to catch you
             you were just in my fingertips
                    i'm sorry i didn't do good enough
i am
            i'm so so so so sorry
                                            i didn't know
       what its like
                to be falling
and know you're falling

            but not be able to do
  anything
                          about it
                                            i'm sorry
for not grabbing you
      for not catching you
  
            but why now
as i'm falling
             you're falling too

       a
           w
                a
                     y

                       from me


     i'm sorry
Jun 2013 · 423
just stop it. JUST STOP IT!
maybella snow Jun 2013
you                                                              ­            


                                                     hurt



                        me


STOP                    


                       IT!

you always do!                                                             ­       

                                   I  
                                                     DIDN'T

DO                                  


                    ­                                                                 ­                  ANYTHING

I                                                      ­            
DIDN'T                                                

no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no                                  

                 I DIDN'T



                                                      ­    I DIDN'T

no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no
                                             no no no no no nononononononononnon no no no no no no


I DIDN'T!!!                                                     ­                                                               

­
STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP!!!




! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !



just stop


its not me                                                               ­   
its you                      
and i know this                                                             ­                   
so please                                                          
stop hurting me                                                               ­                   
                                             ­              because i didn't do anything

just stop

*s   t   o   p
maybella snow Jun 2013
why?! why do i care about people?!                    
why do i have a helping nature?!              
why do i want to be nice?!                                
when people are horrible?!            
why do people hurt me?!                  
why do i continue to be nice when they do?!
why do i shed tears when this happens?!      
why do i find people who hurt me?!      
why do i go back to people who hurt me?!              
why do i apologize when they hurt me?!    
WHY?!                                  
WHY?!                                                    
WHY?!                      

../../../.
maybella snow Jun 2013
a twinkle                      
a spark        
a reflection          
of light
hitting my eye            
at an unknown angle        

~ ~ ~ ~
15 words...
maybella snow Jun 2013
i'm sorry mum, mom, mother, ma, mommy

                    that i'm not like you
i'm sorry
                    that i'm not perfect
i'm sorry
                    that i forget things sometimes
i'm sorry
                    that i have a different social life
i'm sorry    
                   that i'm not what you expected me to be
i'm sorry
                   that you want more than i can give
i'm sorry
                   that i'm creative in different ways
i'm sorry

i'm sorry

i'm sorry
                  that i say i'm sorry so much
i'm sorry



sorry
Jun 2013 · 468
i don't care about you
maybella snow Jun 2013
people don't understand
                   when i say
                                 "i don't care about you"
i mean
             you mean nothing to me
   i have enough issues
              i have enough people who care
                    about me, and i for them

so understand
            when i say
                                " i don't care about you"
i don't
                    but you exist
          and you have people who do care about you
so don't be offended when i say that

                  but to be honest
i don't care about you

                                             back off
                                             go away
                                             leave me alone

             because i don't care about you
and i don't want you to care about me
        because i wont return the feeling

*" i don't care about you"
maybella snow Jun 2013
i want to see all your scars                  
only because                                                
it will show me                                
that you're stronger                                      
than what you hurt yourself with                        
you're stronger than any blade        
fire, rope                                                      
and you'll be okay                    
when we cant talk              
because                                                              
you're strong            
and your scars show it                  

i want to see your scars    
*please
maybella snow Jun 2013
i'm freaking out                    
shaking                            
     crying                
not breathing                                                          
                                    no one sees this
                                                             they cant see me
dying
                                                          they don't know
                           i'm struggling

that i'm on the                                      
                                                                        edge
                                                                               :
                                                                             :
                                                                           :
                                                                         :
                                                                       :

                                                                                                                    of insanity                      
and am about to                                                              
        f
a
l      
l              

f              
a        
s
    t
                                                                hold me up
                                                                       grab me
                                                                i'm about to
                                                                           jump
                              
involuntarily                                                                  
no                                                                                                    
my mind is  p . u . s . h . i . n . g  me                               over that edge

no one can see it                                                                                                        
through my fake smile and laugh                                                

                                                                but i can't stop myself
                                  from hiding this
i can't

mind control at work                                                                  
i can't escape                                                                                                  
i ' m
f a l l i n g
. . . . . . . . . .
    . . . . . . . .
        . . . . . .
            . . . .
                . .
                 .
      d o w n

c    a    t    c    h        m    e
Jun 2013 · 605
inability to *hate* *you*
maybella snow Jun 2013
i hate
           hate
   the feeling i have
           when i know you're able
       to talk to me
                 but you're not
i love
          love
                       you
. . . .
Jun 2013 · 465
inexperienced pain
maybella snow Jun 2013
like an exited puppy
you jump excitedly around
           with not a care for the world
other than finding it all
              you're inexperienced  
   and don't realize it hurts
           when you bite me
maybella snow Jun 2013
an ache                                                                
located where my                
left ribcage holds a                                
bleeding heart                          
under the sturdy bones                                  
beneath muscle and veins                    

my heart bleeds        

i thought the other day                                
this bleeding has to stop                                      
internal organs shouldn't hurt like this                          

maybe if i cut off the blood supply to it              
there would be no blood for                        
my heart to bleed                                                    

finding veins in my wrist                
blade sharp          
heart bleeding                  

swapping internal pain                      
for external pain                      

can't hurt too much      
not compared to the ache                          
the never ending bleeding              
of my helpless heart                      

i'm stopping pain...                                                          
not causing it...                                                        
i thought that at the time

~/\/\/\/\/\/~
Jun 2013 · 352
unknown awakenings
maybella snow Jun 2013
i woke up at 4am                          
              it just happened
one minute sleeping
                            the next, my eyes opened
no matter how hard i tried      
i never returned to the safety                    
                 of my dreams
where you held me closely
snug and warm                          
                                               instead i lay awake
                                         cold and lonely
until it was        
time to rise        
and prepare        
                                  for the day
without you
Jun 2013 · 435
following set niceties
maybella snow Jun 2013
its polite to say
         "how are you?"
                  and it's presumed
that you're "okay" or "good, thanks"
     so thats what i say
for convenience
"how are you?"
         "i'm good, thank-you"

                         but
what i want to say is;
                        "alive, unfortunately"

...
maybella snow Jun 2013
you're the pale disk of floating in my sky
untouchable and unreachable                                
yet you're always there

floating, unmoving but there                                        
even in the day                                                
sitting umong the clouds
set upon a blue backdrop                      
i find you constantly during the day
searching the sky frantically to re locate you                                      
but you're always there                              

at night it becomes easier to find you            
but harder to ignore you too

your pale, distinct light is a reliable roommate
i'm always up at night                                                
i can't help it, you're at your brightest then      
i can't ignore you    
can't sleep while you're near
i wouldn't want to                                                    

maybe that's why i sleep peaceful  
on stormy nights      
when you're not keeping me up            

not that the moon can help shining
brighter at night
than in the day                      

[ ~ ]
maybella snow Jun 2013
5 words
im not sure if there is such thing as a 5 word poem, but that is my 5 word poem C:
Next page