the cord I tied around my neck
wasn't tight enough to ****
I passed out, notebook
in hand asleep

dying alone isn't as scary as I thought it would be
bye x

I'm sorry

i was in one of my horrible ******
suicidal moods, that I seem to
have more often than not
and although I took all my anger
and pain, out on him, he wasn't
angry or upset. he simply said
"I love you, it's all okay,
I need to sleep, I'm not upset,
I'll talk to you in the
morning love."

and I wonder
how he can
love me
and how I
don't deserve it