i need you
right now
here
cradled in my arms
or you holding me
i don't know
i don't care
but i know
i need you
you understand
mostly

just hold me
tonight when
blades come out
from their special
hiding places
to let loose
the pain
hold me in the                          
light of morning                      
when scabs have formed        
tears have dried                      
and the emptiness                  
has leaked into                        
my mind                                  
this isn't killing me
slowly,                            
half of my issues
are self provoked
by my twisted mind
as it fights                              
the light of others
don't let me burn you out
with my empty darkness

please
it's okay
if you
leave

loneliness presses
to fill the emptiness
of a broken heart
as anger fills the gaps
only to remind oneself
that they're alone
tears slip down the
face of an "angel"
as they beg
for their place
in heaven