you screamed at me,
told me how i'm not good enough
                           how i could be better.
          why were you so surprised
     when i fell to the ground
                     crying and whimpering
                muttering
"go away
     go away
  nothings wrong
        go away
          go away
     i'm fine leave me alone
             go away
               go away"
                                       with my head held
                    knuckles white
                              rocking back and forth
   why didn't you
*go away?

i'm not afraid of the dark as i used to be
     i welcome it as a friend
                                    lost lover
                                    only child
               baby,
      i miss you
it's killing me

the same as wanting to die?