Your hands on my waist
So tight that your presence is left behind
Your lips to mine
So hungry, you leave them swollen and wanting more
Your body pressed against me
Leaving me trapped between you and the door
I want you to climb into my window after I've said my goodnights
Lay in my bed and hold me tight
Your hot breath lingering on my neck
While into the clouds, we ride
Our clothes strewn across the room
Because I know you'll have to leave all too soon
I need to feel your heart beating fast with mine
And hear your ragged breathing as we're lost in time
I want to remember the words we'll whisper into the night
With the gasps and scratches, never too light
And as our hearts begin to slow and our breathing calms
Wrapped in blankets, we'll intertwine our sweaty palms
Because I love all the things we say and do
That make me realize all I'll ever want is you

Choking on my breath
Drowning in the shockwaves of the difibulator pressed to my chest
At rest with no rest
My physical form of matter will sleep for eternity
While my spirit is trapped
Trapped choking on that last breath
Where I tried to say everything but nothing at all
"I'm sorry
I love you
Forgive me
Don't let me go"

I am now so still
My dark skin so ashy white
I can hear your heart breaking
And see the silent river flowing from your eyes
But I thank you for this experience
For showing me how it feels to be loved and be in love
For the time I ran when you broke me down
How you searched every corner of our little towne
Your love is one I'll never forget
Your smile one I will never lose
So, as I'm taken from your arms
I pray you will know
I can always find you
Because you've taught me where broken hearts go

I was always told to hold onto hope if nothing else
So, I hoped I would make it to hollywood
But I never got my callback
And I lost a little hope
I hoped to meet my idols
But I turned out to be another face in the crowd
And so, I lost a little hope
I hoped someone would stop and see behind my mask
But everyone kept walking
And I lost a little hope
Now, I just hope to make it through a day
But everything keeps falling apart
*And I realize I've lost hope

The mirror shows me a face
But my mind questions it

Who are you?

She wears my hair
Has my sinking, glazed over eyes
My cracked lips
But this isn't me

I have words I want to say
Tears I want to cry
A smile I haven't seen since she came along

Trapped inside my own shell
I live a synthetic life
Always under the surface
But never strong enough to break through

So, inside I will remain
Trying to decipher this struggle
While she writes my story
Hides my tears
And lives her lies

Curtis,
I'm tired of being tired because I miss you.
And laughing without you by my side
Seven months has gone like seven years
And, when you get home, you'll see my struggles
Because these wrinkles are the trails of my tears
Etched forever in my cracking skin