you make me want to write about
butterfly wings
but not just the ones we've found on the grounds on the rocks beneath our feet
you make me want to sing off key because
i can't sing on key
and i don't think you really mind

I count minutes like I count light reflections
Off the window.
I count them on every finger
And every toe
And every cancer cell
Spreading like a wild fire
Burning whatever it is we have left
There is a purity in destruction
A nothingness where weakness is strength
So I watch
Count
Savor the flavor of the minute
Glenfidditch
Fifteen
A sickness rising in me
Too much spice
I count the minutes
Like I watch the wind
My tongue burned.

Whoever said kisses
taste like sugar

has
either
no experience

or no imagination.

So anxious I'm jumpy,
Internally deflated and still hoping.

So disappointed I don't want to care.
But if you came calling I'd still answer

in a heart beat.

The way you would hold me,
when I was depressed and upset.
The words that you'd whisper into my ear, speaking of sweet nothings.
But, that  was  yesterday

The way you'd kiss me,
while I told you how my day was.
The way you'd love me endlessly,
even if I didn't deserve it.
But, that  was  yesterday

You told me you'd love me forever...
And I actually thought that it was going to last...
But eventually things fade, phases change..and each day becomes anew.
I thought you loved me,
But,  That  Was  **Yesterday

It was mid-Summer night
He thought that he might
Ask for her hand
As they strolled on the sand

He said I'll love you for all of time
If you just promise you will be mine
But alas his love was blind

For when he met mother
His vision recovered
And quickly he changed his mind

I fell for a boy.

with hair long and eyes blue

And he never knew

   the hold he had on me

even when I told him this truth

I fell for a boy.

who told me my god was not real

and left me questioning

what to feel

I fell for a boy.

who left me in tears

He hurt me like hell

Sobs he would never hear

I fell for a boy.

who cut his hair later that year

But I still whisper “you’re beautiful”

soft enough he cannot hear

I fell for a boy.

who has a soul

instead of a heart

but there’s a hole,

where that heart once was

I fell for a boy.

who’s my best friend

who loses my number

and likes my female companion

I fell for a boy.

who I would give the world

but from him

I still receive scorn

I fell for a boy

who has feelings he never shows

and knows not

how much I know

I fell for a boy.

who hates poetry and deep things

and I know he doesn’t care

for that part of me

I fell for a boy.

who leaves me feeling confused

yet I have not the courage

to express to him this abuse