Venturing into the heart of insanity,
(my mind)
I fear that i will lose myself.
I hear the blood rushing in my head
(Will it ever drown me?)
As its the only sound i hear apart from myself.
Alone with my thoughts,
(Wish me well..)
Maybe this is what i want.
Insanity. Chaos. Something.

I still find you, trapped within the scent
threaded into my blankets.
I still taste you on the exhales of my morning's first cigarette.
I still feel your five o'clock shadow tickling my shoulders when I type at my computer.
I still feel your eyes across the room when part of a crowd.
I still linger in the music we shared.
I still hear your voice amongst the songs of birds. And when I listen hard enough,
I still hear you whisper those
three
solitary
words.

I fear
others falling asleep when I need their attention,
loving those who are not
conscious enough to accept it. When
he was all eyelids and we were not eyes to lips
my heart rate increased. It whispered a
secret to me,
so I could tell him.

So he would wake up and kiss me.

we're just two stars in the sky
two souls that will not meet
our paths will not cross
you could be living down the street
although i'll never know you
i want to wish you luck
the world can be so cruel
but please do not give up

~S.E

Inside I feel like I'm just a quiet little girl
Who is afraid of the world,
Who is afraid to let anyone get close to her,
Who is afraid to put herself out there.
I try to be brave,
Put on a strong face,
And act like the world is mine for the taking.
But that's not who I am.
I try to mature, and learn to open up,
I do wreckless things:
I drink, I party, I have ***,
But no matter what I do
Something inside of me
Won't let me grow up.
Something inside of me
Won't allow me
To let the world in.

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