A kind man
A man of the hungry
and of the poor
Just the man to mend this world
His teachings of kindness
With no blindness
Very aware of the madness
He is certainly not mindless
to this world lesser of kindness
He is a man that has an open mind
Regardless of mankind
The people he will always be intertwined
for all generations
of different combinations
With much patients he will rebuild nations
" LOVE" will be his donation
His vocation
easily, with no inpatients  
Which he does and will show through demonstrations
Sharing his information
he has no limitations
People are his motivation
All of civilization
of different denominations
regardless of the ramifications
He will lift  this world to new elevations
of kindness  
!!

hope
so hard
knowing it

i lost
my smile
it has been a long while
so hard
knowing it

i lost
love
it cost
so hard
knowing it

i lost
memories
(traces)
so hard
knowing it

i lost
time
i cannot  hear the clock chime
so hard
knowing it

i lost
my many faces
seeing the changes in places
so hard
knowing it

i lost
my blood
tears flood
so hard
knowing it

i lost
my thoughts
always untying the knots
so hard
knowing it

i lost
being aware
how could have i been prepared
so hard
knowing it

i lost
feeling your embraces
sharing spaces
so hard
knowing it

i lost
you
so hard
knowing it

yes
i
lost

we did not have a clue
what we would be up too
what we would do
fools
peoples voice
was the most damaging tool
letting it rule
fools
there was way too much pride
even in our lies
just letting them ride
it showed in both our eyes
later our demise
the love dies ?
surprised
how hard we denied
ten years went by
with us side by side
cried
cried
we no longer could hide
we tried
the other side
we had to decide
it could no longer be denied
no more divide
we said goodbye
twenty years has gone by
neither of us was ever satisfied
fools
thinking
that real love dies

"Hello"
That is all it takes
To cause a smile
Going the extra mile
Every once in awhile
Nice to hear
"A Thank you"
"How are ya"?
Up lifting it's the way we all should be  
It starts with you and me
After years of it's me, it's me all about me
It's time to be
"Kinder"
Taking off the blinders
"People" this is a simple reminder
To make a strangers day finer
Something so simple so miner
Just to be a little "Kinder"
No one should ever be treated as an outsider
We need to be the provider
Of all words "Kinder"
Close the gap of this world being wider
It's starts with you and me
To be "Kinder"
Drop the dividers
Our minds we need to reconfigure
After all these years
"Go figure"!!
All it takes is us to be "Kinder"
"Change"
Wait' a minute
This reminder of being "Kinder"
It starts with me
!!

You call
I can't pick up the phone
I start to tremble inside
Maybe I should just let it ring and brush it aside
Out of sure pride
I am thinking why
I am about to die
The memories rush back in
Of how they lied
I reach down to answer
I stop and pause, right before I decide
Still my feelings cannot be denied
I fold

I pick up

"Hello"

"Hello

Right off the bat
I hear  
I am so sorry I lied
and
Leaving you in the cold
and
Leaving you just standing
Without you understanding

Are you listening
She said
I have something to say

"Yes"

I have cancer
I am about to die

"Pause'
Deafening  
Silence  
Then we both start to cry
I said
I don't care that you lied
That you left me standing
Without any understanding

I will be at your side  
!!

WHAT HAPPENED TO
HUMANITY
THE INSANITY
ALL THE PROFANITY
SO MUCH VANITY
WHAT HAPPENED AFTER
GOD'S RISE
ON A SLIDE  
ALL THE GOODNESS HAS
DIED  
HATE
YOU CAN SEE IT
IN SO
MANY EYES
NO AGNOY
NO APATHY
NO AMNESTY
HATE
IN EVERY ACTIVITY
COMES NATURALLY
ANGRILY
WHAT A CALAMITY
A CATASTROPHE
THE DEVIL IS ON THE RISE
THE REASON WHY
HATE
OH IT'S TO LATE
HUMANITY TOOK
THE BAIT
THERE IS
A DATE
WHEN HELL WILL OPEN
IT'S GATE
BECAUSE OF THIS COMMON
TRAIT

"HATE"
!!

Lots, A Ton  
Having a taste of a sweet bun
Don't know the meaning of none
Can't stop once it has begun
I am never done
With having fun
I am not to old
I have no grandsons
You will not see me with a shotgun
I will always have a water gun
How fun !!
I am free
You should come hang with me
The fun will proceed
Trust me !!
You see!!
I do not give a **** !!
Always doing what I want
Fun, I flaunt
***
My house on the lake front
Lets just say I do not  bunt
But sure the hell can grunt...WINK
Not over with, at a blink
I will bring you to the brink
**** straight I am the missing link
Drink !
Drink !
Drink !
While those champagne glasses clink  
Oh yes it is exactly what you think
Believe me you will not rethink

LIFE DOES NOT STINK
HAVE SOME FUN
!!!

Busted by a bunch of schemes
Makes you want to pull your hair and scream
People will go to any extreme
to take advantage of your dreams
Does not matter of what theme
****!! it's just so mean
to shatter someone's dreams
Is there anyone out there with some honesty and
modesty
That want leave you hanging  
to dream of other dreams
And not looking for something  to gain
or
redeem off of your dreams
That is truly on your team
and will help you achieve your dreams  
That will not hold you down
And look at you like your some kind of clown
Not out to beat you down or
cause your dreams to drown

You ware the crown
and
you need to  
protect
the   
Dreams
!!

What it would be like
If you were not standing by me
What it would be like
If you, I could not see
Sunday to Sunday
What it would be like
Not loving  you at the greatest degree
Or
Relaxing under our favorite tree
What it would be like
If we could not celebrate thirty
Or
Start our family tree
What it would be like
If I was not surrounded by your presence
Or
Living without the memories of our
adolescence
What it would be like
If my heart could not feel
A life we were not able to build
What it would be like
If  this was not  forever
If there was no love whatsoever
What it would be like
If we did not have our first dance
If we had not taken a chance
What it would be like
If we could not take long walks in the sun
Tease each other just for fun
What it would be like
Not to hear those three words
That I often heard
What it would be like
If I could not imagine
You

Church
Where you should go to confess your sins
A place I have hardly been
I have had no real cause
It has been hard for me to follow those good laws
Yes, I guess a real dog
Of why, I do not have a long monologue
With the preacher I have never had a dialogue
God knows !!
Something that I chose
Living within the Devil's shadow
That was then
This is now
It's Sunday
Oh Lord my God when I in awesome wonder
Consider all the worlds thy hands have made
I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder
Thy power throughout the universe displayed
When Christ shall come
With a shout of acclaimation
To take me home what joy shall fill my heart
Then I shall bow in humble adoration
And there proclaim my God how great thou art
Then sings my soul my savior God to thee
How great thou art
It's Sunday
!!

we will fight for our last breath
but
then concede to death

!!

If I had it, where would I go??
More then likely I would spend it on more blow
Hey, bro
you got a penny that you could let go ??
That I could turn into some money and gold
Really, to me it's just dough
I am not like other people that use it for show
I want my life slow
I really don't care
Some people would ask why would you dare
not care
I would say
Not having it makes me very aware
That's very fair
I am not about flair
I am not into what I ware
Does not bother me If my shirt has a tare
What I want??
What I need??
For me it's just about meeting my needs
Well!!
Maybe having enough to buy a little ****
Yep, without seed
To many people take and take
What a mistake
They are nothing but a bunch of flakes
Wasting  their money and gold on steak
It's all about what they make
Shallow
These people with money and gold
Thank God I will never be one of those
!!  
"Living life slow"
"Without money or gold"
I am just a wanna be Poet !!

When you give up on everyone of your dreams
Letting them go
How will you  know
How would you have known
Can I ask, how do you think you are going to grow
If you let them go
Then you start wondering
And
You start  pondering
About your direction
And
You have no connection

With out them  
The mountains will not move for you

With out them
You will ask what will  tomorrow  bring
Could I  have been a King
Could I  have been a Queen
In your dreams you could have seen

With out them
You are settling for less
You start to guess
Your dreams why would you ever suppress

Believe in your
Dreams
!!

I have experienced it in so many different places
I have been broke into a  million pieces
My trust decreases
When the pain slowly increases
When it grabs hold it never releases  
Hanging on until it ceases

I thought my heart was made of gold
Then why want it let the pain go
The pain  
Took it's golden glow
Hidden by the pains shadows  
It happened a very long time ago
Something pain bestows

Pain
It overflows
It is so **** strong
and it is hard to overthrow
Sad to say
It will still be with me
the day after tomorrow

Pain
I will continue to fight through it
Until I get strong enough
To say "O.K"
Enough is a enough
And I get my life back
the way it was before

And my heart is restored
to
Gold

!!

With our families and our friends
Never Enough Time To Spend
Just letting our lives blend
Never Enough Time To Spend
Seems to be a normal trend
Never Enough Time To Spend
The words, I intend
Maybe this weekend
Regret, we will in the end

Time is of the essence
Family and friends
Becoming more of a quintessence's

Here today and gone tomorrow
Then feeling so much sorrow
Time, you cannot borrow

!!

Hello Darlin

It's been a long time
I hope you are fine

I thought a letter
Would be better than the phone
By the way how is home

I heard through the grapevine
You had a new love
I hope he is kind
And
He is not like me
Stupid and blind

I guess your thinking
Why
The letter

I would like to say that I am fine
But that would be a lie
I am about
to die
That is why
The letter is better
I do not want you to hear me cry

While I am trying to say
I am sorry
Because I did not try
And
For being such a bad guy
And
Causing you to worry
Night after night
Finding me  passed out in alleys
Coming home with black eyes
And
For telling so many lies

I never learned my lesson
I have been alone
Since you
I thought about coming home
But
I still would die alone

Forgive me
Please
!!

it is where
we will be there-there is no time to spare
to find this place
then
in its space
we will stand face to face
we will finally embrace
then all time will erase
not leaving a trace

somewhere
it is where
we dare
to start to care
where we become very aware
that we will become a pair

somewhere
it is where
there is no past
at last

somewhere
it is where
anywhere
there
where love last

For ratings!!

Dramatize??
I have to wonder if there is not some lies
Where no rules apply
Stories revised
Acts like all is a surprise
Ah!! How they can justify  
All the stories or some they customize
Bad people they glorify
and romanticize  
Some restraint they need to exercise
How could they not realize
I don't want to see bodies that are not alive

Constantly telling stories that terrifies
This world, they need to help stabilize
Minds they help to vandalize

BREAKING NEWS!!!
What qualifies??

I don't need to be reminded
how the world is becoming demoralized


WHY??

No other place near

No other place so dear

Year after year

Somewhere we both appear

Here

In it's atmosphere

We stay

Not based on fear'

and  

without tears

Right here

Nothing disappears

Here

Where our love premiered

Born the love affair  

One life we share

Not making it on a prayer

Somewhere
Where ever
Is

HERE
!!

waking
thinking of how
i breathe in
i sigh

how will it end
how does sunlight bend
how does the heart break
then mend

i suppose
i cannot dose
how do doors open
then close
how do we love
then feel pain to our bones
how do we only hear certain tones

waking
thinking why
i breathe in
i sigh

why the lies
why blue eyes
why do we die
to make us feel alive

waking
i take a breath in
i sigh

i have aged
a new age
a new page

i am breathing in
i sigh

another july
am i the same guy
i cannot identify
can i rectify
did i satisfy
can i justify

i am sleeping now
how
.........................

As you walked away
I should have said

"I love you"

"Stay with me"

"Please don't leave"

"I am sorry I was so naïve"

I wish I would have said

"I don't want to be lonely"

"I want you to be my one and only"

"I want you to forgive me"

"It's you and me for eternity"

"I will loose my sanity"

These things
I should have said
"Humbly"
As you walked away
staring  straight ahead
Leaving me hungry
!!

at the start
childhood sweethearts
never were we apart
saving ourselves
playing it smart

now all grown up
saying our vows

it was great
at the start
now nothing but fights
cannot stand the other in our sight
doing things out of spite
sleeping apart at night
in public acting like everything was alright
while thinking of our legal rights

it was great
at the start
we both said
i was yours
you were mine
it was not just a line
now so many signs
we are not fine
through all this time
how could have we been so blind

it was great
at the start
now alone
how could have we known

it was great
at the start

"LORD"
I understand why you would be so done
With  
the things your Sons and Daughters  
has done!!
No one asking for forgiveness and turning their backs
and you they shun
War after war with this your world we have destroyed
Young men constantly being deployed
Because someone with power is being paranoid
Guns
Replaced the stones that we use to throw
Killing one another
Thaw shall not ****
Now people killing for the thrill
Over a drug deal
or because
of
greed
There is only so much a man needs
Money taken from people that they mislead
Scheme after Scheme
''We can make you money guaranteed"
You placed us in a "Garden of Eden"
Now where pollution is a breeden  
You gave us ten things that we needed to do
This is all we needed to do
To honor you
To repay you
For you giving your life
and hanging on the cross
beaten and bleeding
For the gift of life you gave to all of us  
Those ten things are a must
It is time for us
to show our love
While we wait for the new world
we will have to endure
all of the storms
as we wait for you to return
I am sorry, I cannot give you a reason
of why, or for
What we have done
!!





What have we done ?

After the nights dark, come the days
The days becoming more often gray
Hiding the suns rays
No more light
Becoming the norm, an everyday way
It's showing on my face
Inside nothing but rain
Curled up in bed and staying away
Phone off, T.V. off I don't want to hear
what anyone has to say
No desire to play
I myself ,I betray
Laying full my ashtray
Fighting to live and stay
One day after the other, then they become days
All of a sudden it's May
None I remember or did I save
Consumed only by the pain of those days
When my love strayed
Nothing familiar because it is not the same
Depression I have become it's prey
As the days go by my heart becoming hard as clay
Day after day of not so good days
To trust and to love, who said it pays
Vivid are those last days
Before my love decided to stay away
Those days when we were called they
Twenty years ago of days

Without my love there were no more
Days
!!

If I lost you
I have no clue
I know the sky would be dark and no longer blue
When I shut my eyes and I can't see you
I get a preview
of me without you

What would I do
If I lost you
I hope this question you would ask to
I know my days would not start new
From the beginning I knew
I did not want to be without you

What would I do
If I lost you
My life would be *******
Since my life is about tending to you
It is so easy for me to do

What would I do
If I lost you
There would be nothing to look forward to
Something I could not work through
And
I would not want to

What would I do
If I lost you
I would loose my mind
Since our minds are so  intertwined
I could not handle you leaving me behind

What would I do
If I lost you
The thoughts of and what I would do
Lets just say they would have to bury me next to you
Then my angel I could be with you

What would I do?
If I lost you
I do have a clue
I would continue  loving you
!!

Looking to the left
Looking to the right  
As I walk out the door
I have been each way before
Lord knows, I have seen it all before
Sadly so much I have ignored
My m.o. has been to run away
I never stay
So much strength it took for me to say
Risk, I never take at all
Time and time again, I fall
Consistently hitting my head against the wall
I have never learned with life and love you need to crawl
I am never in it for the long haul
Love should be above it all
I am so far apart from my heart  
It ends before it starts
My mind, my heart, it outsmarts
I never look back
Is it compassion that I lack?
The reason all my loves I highjack
and attack to keep me on the fast track  
Now that another ends
and fades away
I find myself
Again
Looking to the left
Looking to the right

Love nowhere near  
Here

                    !!

God's Power
Comes from our prayer
As we speak his words into the air
and we share
As we care
When we ask him to take care of our despair
To take care of our burdens
To ease our hurting's
And we listen to his sermons
and we
continue our leanings
From us preparing for his Son's return
From his Son's love that we yearn
Stopping our sin and to him we turn
From showing others our concern
Showing him all that we have learned
From us quenching someone's thirst
From us following  his laws
That we have never cursed
From us putting him first
Even when we are at our worst
From us believing that he sent his only son to us
And ask him to die for us
From the love from us
and from us knowing
that he
believes in
"US"
!!

I will have no more fears
My God will be near
There will be no more tears
There will be no more pain
Where there will be so much to gain  
No more of my blood will be drained
My body will not be in any more strain
Where I will not have to complain  
I am going home
Where I will never have to be alone
At the moment, I will own
Where time stands still
Where I will be given back my strong will
Where there will be no more pills
To think about it gives me the chills
Where  I will be running barefoot through the hills
Where I will not die
Where everyone will be my ally
The place where never again will I  have to say bye  
When you look up to the sky
you may see me fly
I am going home
Please do not sigh
Do not cry
Will you please try
I am going home
Where there will be no doctors
that I have to abide by
Where I will not feel terrified
I am going home
I will be there at the blink of an eye

Only my body died

All of this was just  stepping stones
on my way home
!!

to see another day
is it the price that I must pay
for when I strayed
a thought, but not denied
i cried
i tried
is it because of to much pride
that i have not died
i was petrified
what a ride
what will god decide
as he sets at my bedside
maybe an assisted suicide
cover my head and hide
until i die
why lie
no more time to buy

life's victim
??

Setting here thinking/wondering

Thinking of when we were younger
"Youngsters"
You were such a stunner
And I was your boy wonder
Us together all summer
"Free"
Our first kiss under our favorite tree
"Together"
Just a little naïve
"All would be"
Side by side
I just knew someday you would be my bride
Then out of the clear blue sky
There you stood with another guy
"Sighed"
Years went by

Setting here wondering
How are you
Are you happy
Do you ever think of the day you broke my heart
"Tears apart"
Is there a lot of distance between us
The past, would you like to discuss
Like our talks on the school bus
"Both of us"
Have you thought of me more then a thousand times
Hearing the clock chime
I have run out of time

Years of
Thinking/Wondering
Still loving ?
!!

My lonely days are no more
My heart no longer torn or worn

At last

No longer am I feeling blue
The sun now shinning through

At last

I have someone that looks like you
You, I will call my boo

At last

My wait is now over
My life is not over

At last

My dreams
They are now things of the past  
Knowing this love will last
No more being the outcast

So the Doc's all say
Soon it will just stop
and
I will drop

Feeling fear knowing that my death is near
They could not have made it anymore clear
That it will happen
I may not see the next year
So living to make this year
A great year
I will for sure persevere

My real fear
Is not having my family near

Every time the pain hits
I think " Well this is it"
This time it will quit

Some will question
Why are you writing this
Just trying to keep my wit

With the thoughts of my impending death
Knowing that I will soon take my last breath
Scares me to death

So they say only the good die young
My saving grace
And
My heart does embrace

!!