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Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2016
Home isn't a place

More often than not

It's a person

And I have to say

I don't know where home is anymore
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2016
It always seems to help
A kind of self...self-help
To diagnose this

It always seems better
Released from the fetters
Of my emotions

I can smile
Marisa Lu Makil Feb 2016
You lied to me
Again

I knew you would
But then

I never thought
It would

Be something like
Like this

Now what do I
I do?

I decided
To move

To move on and
Forward

To forgive and
Forget
To someone who means the world to me: I have never been able to really hate you or resent you even though you have hurt me so many times, and I hate that I love you that much.
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2016
While the rest of you
Are trying to impress everyone
And live
On
The
Wild side
Some of us
Are just trying to have
A normal
Ordinary
Life
Just want to fit in.
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2016
Her face and her lips speak deceit
Even her actions are lies.
She is a walking falsehood with fiction in her wake.
To someone we all know.
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2016
It's not as easy
As drugs
Or *****

It's not something
You pick
Or choose

It's not a thing
You can
Control

It blackens you
Like soot
Or coal

I wish it were
Simple
Easy

But it's not
Something you fix
Marisa Lu Makil Jan 2016
I wish there was a manual
Telling me what to say
A speech to give to someone
To not push them away

I wish someone wanted me
The way I wanted them
Someone to fall in love with
My loneliness to stem

"You'll find someone" they tell me
But I don't want to wait
I want to find someone now
But no, I'll have to stay

The search is never over
I'll look for all my days
Who knows if I will find someone
To be my hope and stay?

It's easy for everyone
Else, they've all found they're love
A perfect match for perfect ones
A match made up above

They don't get to say that
I'll "find someone someday"
It's easy to look out on me
And with confidence say:

"You'll find your special someone
He's out there somewhere, dear"
I don't want him to be "out there"




I want him to be here.
I have never in my life been in a romantic relationship. I have only had one guy ever ask me out, and I've been told I was "not bad  looking" by someone else. Is there something wrong with me?
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