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 Jan 2013 Marigold
John
Karma Love
 Jan 2013 Marigold
John
I'm shaking
And doubting what I once knew
My hearts breaking
Because all I think of is you
I know I should be
As happy as I've ever been
But what you don't see
Is that the Universe owes me something

For some odd reason
This grave aura has consumed me
And I'm wheezing
All I'm trying  to do is breathe
I'm convinced that what's in store for me
Is a lifetime of regret
An eternal heartbreaking
My hands just won't stop shaking
and i'll make it up to you
by buying all the ****** of Amsterdam.
not just rent, but buy.
and i keep walking in circles
as my thoughts do the same.
and i am waiting for
the break, the peak.
and my pack looses cigarettes
with every circle drawn.
and hey hey, my my.
and i skip a step.
we went to Little Blue
that summer in a ***'d car.
riding in extravagance
we couldn't afford.
camping in the Oklahoma ozarks,
we brought liquor. the two of us
drank a half-litre honey whiskey
and twenty-eight of thirty Pabsts.
your chick only nab'd two.
we were sunk from that point on.
i *****'d behind the car, and
there were left retched handprints.
left were a phantom's handprints,
having been drown'd by their hedonism.
the bikers partied along
with us apart from us.
they ask'd to use our hatchet,
that's the way we met.
men share tools, and that was
the only instance of civility
for two days. we ran feral.
rip'd shirt to ribbons,
wrap'd them 'round a stick,
soak'd citronella,
commenced adventure.
returning,
   two hours time gone;
returning,
   scratch'd and bleeding;
returning,
   we lit their paths with
   torch burning a primal fire;
sleep,
pass'd out by fire in lounge chair.
been in this spot before,
knew to bring a quilt
and mine was the only one.
startled awake,
fire nothing more than nightlight embers.
raccoon, sitting upright,
stared from his high perch of a picnic table.
apple in paws, nibbling,
he mock'd and monitor'd.
i swiped at it with a stick,
missed. said **** it.
slept in the car that night.
I stand above my bed
And examine the damage.
Blankets this way and that
Pillows all over
Sheets tangled up around themselves.
Proof of something that
Only hours ago
Left this place empty.
I take in the rubble
And breathe deeply.
I lower myself down to those
Tangled sheets
And backwards bedspreads
And fill my lungs with you.
I pull them up around me
And close my eyes
And wish for this place to be
The same kind of battleground
Again tomorrow.
 Jan 2013 Marigold
JL
Axis
 Jan 2013 Marigold
JL
Somewhere the wiring is crossed
Neurons fire haplessly
Patterns emerge in the chaos
The strongest survive
Again I search for sleep but
The thoughts descend on me like a pack of wolves
**** yourself
Put your hand in the fire and don't pull it out
Concentrate on the pain and you will feel it blossom
It would be so easy
To slip into the endless chain of reincarnation
It seems simple almost childish
To exit this shell
No longer fighting against the current of the river
I gaze at my own face in the mirror
Blind rage and a tear falls from my eye
The monsters gaze back at me
I am a ***** for your acceptance
As if any strangers positive opinion would validate my life
Tonight one last dream
Of your hands white in the moonlight
Soft upon my face
The caress of your voice will keep me from blood
The smell of rain soaked pine needles
I would live here forever with you
No longer sickened by the constant spin of the universe
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