The dark parts of my mind
Are fairly bright
Still, bring a light

We live in lies only to mask are truths.
Passionet moments cant match hours of endless
day's.

Drowning in the ***** and pills to maintain that illusion.
Ive lost the person and gained only a costume.

I never dreamed
I'd live to see the day
when the words 'I love you'
would hurt so much to say.
And I'd be lying
if I told you I could stay,
but I can't come to terms
with us being through
How did we get here?
When did things change?
I thought 'I love you'
meant we'd stay the same,
but things have been different
since I'm not sure when.
How did we get to the end?

The shower doors won't close properly,
and neither will
my eyes.
The water's getting in
The soap's getting in
The fear's
setting
in.
"He wanted her."
Past tense, I tell myself,
Let It Go.
And I have to, cause the water's
running cold.

I'm grumpy, upset, annoyed at you,
I'm in a bad mood
again.
Angry? No, not angry. Never quite
angry. Never (quite.)
He loves me, he keeps telling me.
"He tells you all the time."

I don't know why
I Need this doubt.
But it makes me need to
Try.

Reality hits you like a ton of bricks,
When you’ve been dreaming for so long.
Never thought it’d come to this,
I never thought I’d be so wrong.
But when the walls came down,
And the truth came out, I learned to justify,
And the space between right and wrong, turned into a fragile line.

So go ahead, and take her hand,
Whisper in her ear, pretend I’m not sitting there, and get lost in her eyes.
I’m just a naïve girl, who couldn’t figure out the truth from the lies,
And you’re the boy who ******* me over too many times.

You’ve always had your way with words, you had me figured out.
You knew how to keep me hanging on until she’d come back around.
I spent so much wasted time, sitting around and wondering why, I wasn’t good enough.
Said you knew I’d get attached, but you thought I’d be okay. And now all you have to say is I’m sorry?

I played with fire and I got burned,
After five years you’d think I’d learn, but I kissed you back.
I bet you were thinking of her.

Tiny sparks flicker and glint,
on soft currents of salty air,
standing ankle-deep in the luke-warm tide.
Sunshine across your face,
turning your smile into nothing but
a light too bright to hold in ones eyes.
You were beautiful,
You were careless,
You were free.

How difficult
is
to
log in
here

(?)

I sit here and wonder if I'm gonna hear from you today
It's been about a year now. I don't think you're about to change, today.
And if it's okay, I'm gonna go on about my day.
'Cause you were never here anyway.
Yeah, I hope that's okay. Better be okay.

It was my birthday, today.
No messages from you I'm only a phone call away.
You're too involved with your new life just like back in the day.
You're still the same, today.

You tried to ruin our lives but here's what you didn't know
Yeah we're still doin' okay today.
Sometimes I sit here and wonder about you
But not today, no not today.

I'm sick of all these tears, dad. Why did you have to be that way, those days?
But look at who I am now look at what I've learned from all those days.
I've graduated high school and you weren't here today.
Because you don't care about anyone except you, these days.

You tried to ruin our lives but here's what you didn't know
Yeah we're still doin' okay today.
Sometimes I sit here and wonder about you
But not today, no not today.

I'm grown up now, dad, where were you that day?
I fell in love and you didn't even get to come that day.
I was walkin' down the aisle with the man who replaced you.
Cause you weren't there all those days.

Lookin' back now dad, if you were there all those days
I wouldn't be the woman I have become today
You taught me a lesson, dad, that I never thought was possible.
You live for who are and you make of what comes your way

Thanks for not bein' there those days.