the first tear
took him by surprise

the last tear
blew him over

the rain
washed away
what was left of his thoughts

© Marialenn July 2014

no answer, just a painful smile
and without a warning you left
seeking refuge in a quiet place
I was told

I felt your hesitation
in embracing
and wondered
why heaven took flight

so quietly
but there’s no peace left

© Marialenn 2014 06/10/2014

and so….
deep in my heart
there is always that search
to reach that existing inaccessible place
oh, that sweet pain of knowing and missing

yes, I am satisfied
but I also have my dreams
of heavenly freedom in this earthly existence

who can lend me wings
to fly gracefully through clouds,
to be transparent …………………….
to be only light
to be just the one I am meant to be
in a limitless world

© Marialenn 2013

Along the edges of visible light
I walk the path of oblivion
balancing on the edge of existence
the wind flows the ink together
and on sheets of blank water
I draw the images of my long journey.

A desire that I only now understand
appears to be a regained life
and then I see how slowly
the red hues of the sun merge with
an immense cooled sea at the horizon
it’s the place where light merges with darkness
and finally will radiate again
and where shadows rise a new.

© Marialenn 9-07-2013

Along the edges of visible light
I walk the path of oblivion
balancing the edge of existence
wind flows ink together
on sheets of blank water
I draw the images of my long journey.

A desire that I only now understand
appears to be a life regained
and then I see how slowly
the red hues of the sun merge with
an immense cooled sea at the horizon
it’s the place where light merges with darkness
and finally will radiate again
where shadows rise a new.

you enwrapped me
with your big smile

breathless I am
a defeated witch

why oh why
did God make you so beautiful

© Marialenn 2014  31/05/2014

butterflies

these tiny pieces of heaven
in my stomach
electrifying

heartwingedbutterflydance
soundinggurglebells
girlscutylittlecuddlecurls
dancingdropletsteps

kisskisskiss

© Marialenn 2014

the love for yourself
heals everything

prompt (white cliffs / seaside memories)


the sound of the waves
the cliffs
year after year
you, me,
crumbling

seeing you
through my eyes
waves of moods
change your picture
distort the image
of your true self

you
you reflecting me
my respons ability

I see
and what I see
is what I need

I’ll grow by you
when I truly
connect

© Marialenn 2013

I hate to say
that I miss you
come on
come home baby
my tears are pearls sinking
into the deep
while washing away your sins.

© Marialenn 2014

prompt (dahlia / bud)

a myriad of petals
waiting to rise
to the last summer sun

my lips unused
start whispering wishes

L’aube

I woke up
in a purper glow
my lashes full of tears
or was it dew
gently caressing my eyes
to give me vision

you are here
but only in my dreams
when I wake up
your shadow  is frightening me
that reminiscences of the past
brings shivers in the morning light

© Marialenn 06/13/2014

your caresses
by touch

your heat
as the summer wind

your mirroring
un unheard
intense experience

this resonance
received
heartfelt

breathtaking
until
it’s written down
and start gradually
changing again

© Marialenn 2014

cheerful and showing beauty
until time showed us
you lost your scent and color  
memory remains

I’m wearing veils of silk and lace
while dancing on a tapestry of stars
my tender fingertips, full of love,
caress your cheeks while I lean over
to your waiting arms
and then you hold me

I whisper vows
and words of grace
we're balancing on the shoreline of infinity

or is this just my projection on the past……

© Marialenn 06/11/2014

your lips
your lies
double trouble
your hips
your eyes
you are
double trouble
so I beg you
no trips
no ties

I dream flowers
odor
color
and especially
tenderness
all over

I paint them
on today
until the wind takes them

and tomorrow ....
tomorrow is another day….

© Marialenn 2014

last night
I wrote a fairytale
the perceiving of you

it’s really autumn now,
still early though and in addition to a heavy rain
a fall of leaves is falling carefully too,
well, letting go. sometimes takes time

my thoughts, also wandering
some of them fall into the soft bed of my heart
gently, lovingly received
and bring a smile to my face

they are transformed, I know,
what a wealth,
all colours showing their beauty
and radiant in the light

Is there anything more that I want
nothing,
I let myself be nourished with that what is
because sun shines on my shoulders

© Marialenn Langendoen  09/12/2024

layers of dark
cold sadness

a sacred and profound
inner experience

emptiness
shows the strength
to be filled again the

a day after the heat
a few licking flames
tormenting my body

I pray for cooling
desperate
but my tears just feed those flames

the pain is unbearable
I just want to dissolve
like water evaporates by the fire

what
repels or attracts

the abstract world of concepts
impenetrable darkness

light on
a former life on earth
in our earth-life

focus
no burnsmarks

brilliant
like
a diamond

until
I could
see through you

that indefinable feeling
as if...................

today........

who knows........

let’s wait..........


© 14-06-2015

you are laughing
I can see it in your eyes

oh, you try to prevent
while I still keep looking

and then

on that deep sigh
a clattering sound

the liberation
for you and me

finally

you stretched your arms
a flash of lightning
and I could fly

For a moment,
just a moment
there was a belch
of unwanted tenderness
on which my body responded
my thoughts were
still adherent to the dream
desire, floating
as in the morning
beyond brightness.

© 2014 Marialenn

I stop thinking
before I forget to live this incredible beautiful life

Tomorrow is another day

I think….

my open arms
smaller than my heart

all those sparkling tears
make way for a new love

like a river they flow
searching their way
to another heart

gently, gently
the storm has calmed down

in this light
I can be anything less
then a colorless silver mirror
reflecting you
as a child
as a mother
as a woman
I’m your sister
I’m your lover
singing ageless melodies
of the Mother
and soaring
as clouds pass by……………….

© Marialenn 13 juni 2014

fullness
of the everyday
stripped of the core
the skin remains
empty
and so extremely light
it disappears
by the wind
without you noticing it

© Marialenn 2013

Let me hold you
hold you in my arms
so very close to my heart
hear
the soft beat is telling you of
the love
I carry inside
feel
the mesmerizing rhythm
will put you asleep
and take you beyond
every day’s sorrow
come my love
surrender
simply surrender
I kiss you goodnight
and watch over you
as
always

© Marialenn 2014

her eyes closed
tears in every angle
face still smiling

© Marialenn 07/02/2014

Heaven on fire
Copper-colored blanket
Over a dark land

© Marialenn 2013

I pray for heaven
and there you enter

I wonder
does it rain in Paradise

seems to me a shower starts
at this moment

my shadow is chasing light
along banks of the night
I just surrender to the clouds
and kiss yesterday goodbye
climbing the rays
up I go
until
I'm safe
in hands of tomorrow
andfeel how my radiating soul
that has found its source

I'm at home

As long as Ego hungers
it will be fed
even the flowers of the field
can’t escape.

I burned my fingers
when I tried to shut your
firespitting mouth

I should have done it with a kiss

now it hurts
when I want to touch you…

I know you would mind if I……

that thought will keep me imprisoned

if I should surrender to…..

the mind

so I mind my own mind

and break free

from the mind games

only if it is

just for a moment

dawn has almost gone
taking the mystic of the night
sun shines faintly through the trees
my senses are excited

a new tomorrow is colored
in indefinable shades
a breaking out
from an invisible slumber

when I wake up I know

Knew you were poison…….

The genie is out of the bottle
not entirely unexpected
oh, what a smell....

when I think of you I see you  smile
stay in my dreams just for a while
I need you

the day you asked me to be your wife
you’ve  given me a blush of life
I’m getting sentimental

you were there when I had to cry
to brush away my tears goodbye
you made me happy

you were there through dawn & dusk
yes, sometimes it was the smell of musk
I’m getting sentimental

and every time you went you said,
you never have to be afraid
I’m always with you

I think of you in those lonely nights
miss your caresses and your light
my heart is heavy

my love, you were so pure, so true
in my dreams I will always be with you
where ever you are

I’m sowing tears of joy and cheer…
and right now you’re near, so very near

yes I’m getting sentimental

© Marialenn 2013

I shaped flesh
around the structures of my bones

how lucky I was for that moment
when I loved my imperfection

© Marialenn 07/14/ 2013

they eat
light
and emptiness
wrath weighted
on butterfly wings
was blown away
fear evaporates
into choice
of coincidence
the life meaningful
is born renewed
virginal white
warmly flows
into blushing rose red

© 2014 Marialenn