His texts were like a zipper,
an opening to an old wound
where the worm ate sunrays in his guts

he made fire
underwater,
again and again,

until all extinguished
with one bang

©Marialenn 04/21/2018

Put down your veil so I can recognize you
show me your light,

your changing colors
without paint

I remember that white dress
like wings it was

you went a different way
there at the crossroads

you came, silently
returning not blurred
but immensely present

© Marialenn 11/07/2017

hold me, she said
against all knowledge
a rhetorical question

let me go, she said
against all knowledge
a rhetorical question

inseparable
the force of connected souls
eternity

the sky
she touched
the earth
he moved
it was
completed

© Marialenn Langendoen 11/04/2017

You!

butterflies

these tiny pieces of heaven
in my stomach
electrifying

I am the sediment of various layers
formed by nature’s forces
my dna, an open vessel
in which my soul receives and retains,
like a cocoon opens and renews,
over and over again
not to be forgotten,

between light and shadow
a construction of the true self,
polished by erosion
until that what remains
has blurred the illusions
and the core,
only a grain of sand,
is left

© Marialenn 28/06/2015

too young to remember
she is
that fairytale

that indefinable feeling
as if...................

today........

who knows........

let’s wait..........


© 14-06-2015

prompt (white cliffs / seaside memories)


the sound of the waves
the cliffs
year after year
you, me,
crumbling

prompt (dahlia / bud)

a myriad of petals
waiting to rise
to the last summer sun

you,
who can weight your sorrows on butterfly wings
you,
who dances through life with cosmic kings
I suspect that you,
and forgive me when I’m wrong,
are trying to make me happy…………
happy, just by singing your song…….:

see the world in all it’s glory
just listen to it’s ancient story
and you will know
all the secrets that lie deep within you,
hidden but eagerly waiting for your light
and yes you touched me,
while holding me tight and comforting my soul,

and I
I say thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you for just being you

© Marialenn 01/31/2015

When
I think of you
my heart opens
like the wings of the white dove
spreading light
in its flight
blessing me

when I think of you
my heart jumps
on the rhythm of nature’s song
a hymn of true wisdom
inviting me
to life’s dance

when I think of you
I am small in your greatness
great in your simplicity
and complete
in how I am designed
I bow in grace

© Marialenn 06/19/2014

he catched mortality
without framing it
left it as a gateway,
an open door to Light
until the end
entering his real world
he knew the way
not by death
but real life
marked it
gently
when taking off

© Marialenn 12/12/2014

the smile on your face
laced
by shadows and dusk

morning fog keeps her secrets
while night is softly slipping
a sigh creates shreds of light

filtered from mud
life is
a liquid diamond
transparent
colorful

controlling
fate
sand in my hands

carried on the wind
though all seasons
life erodes

glad to be back!!!!

finally
when I held you
I realized
love is tangible

without masks
we are a creation
from unconditional love

a tear
rolls gently down
to die on my lips

moist,
when I kiss you
goodbye

I feel you
and everything that is yours
when I hold you in my arms
and gently rock you
we are more than one

© 08/26/2014

the wall

I feel it
immediately
crying,  pulling
and not simply the stones
but rather it’s life
signed
by each element

there it is
still standing throughout ages
as if it acknowledges:
this is the right place

I tear it down
brick by brick
but let
life
and as it seems to be

that part, weathered
deep inside
is digested
very slowly

the sun
a radiance
al-light
will explain the dark

and I?

I’m  listening
hearing
what is said
searching
and
the impression so strong
is translated in color,
and arises as this painting

again
I build the wall
brick by brick
and even deeper lived through
I feel it over and over again
close
around me


© Marialenn 2014  

08-23-2014

the first tear
took him by surprise

the last tear
blew him over

the rain
washed away
what was left of his thoughts

© Marialenn July 2014

black velvet
high heels
red nails

your smile
even makes the new moon blush

© Marialenn 07/11 2014

my light and darkness
my  inspiration and my engine
my silence and sound
my perfect and infinite love

my soul
the essence of I am
knows my destination

© Marialenn 2014

I was tempted
to bear your pain
once

my fire dried tears
that were mine…….
after your betrayal

© Marialenn 2014

frozen lips
warm tears
defrosted kiss

Nothing to explain
I love you
that’s a fact

For a moment,
just a moment
there was a belch
of unwanted tenderness
on which my body responded
my thoughts were
still adherent to the dream
desire, floating
as in the morning
beyond brightness.

© 2014 Marialenn

I am an adept
experiencing love
until death arrives

© Marialenn 07/02/2014

you haunt me
as a enchanted ghost
shivers

© Marialenn 07/02/2014

just that deep smelling rose
just that little stolen kiss
just the holding hands
just you being here

and

thank you for the red balloon

her eyes closed
tears in every angle
face still smiling

© Marialenn 07/02/2014

I stole a glance

you stole my heart

No, it was not love at first sight
but I don’t blame you
it was my unpredictable heart
beating different rhythms of youth

© Marialenn 2014 06/29/2014

age
did shrink the fullness of your lips
but not the fieriness of your kiss
passion is still dancing
a slow fox now
sophisticated, loving and tender

you are laughing
I can see it in your eyes

oh, you try to prevent
while I still keep looking

and then

on that deep sigh
a clattering sound

the liberation
for you and me

finally

My dreams, my aspirations
spiraling beyond
some fell down
and changed their form

oh wonderful youth
and everlasting energy

now, only for a moment
and remembering this
a little nostalgia
is disturbing my peace

a wake up call
to be grateful

I gathered
knowledge
and the tremendous gift
of being thankful
for life
as it is
still heaving dreams


© Marialenn 2014 06/22/2014

Let me hold you
hold you in my arms
so very close to my heart
hear
the soft beat is telling you of
the love
I carry inside
feel
the mesmerizing rhythm
will put you asleep
and take you beyond
every day’s sorrow
come my love
surrender
simply surrender
I kiss you goodnight
and watch over you
as
always

© Marialenn 2014

I forgot your lies
completely mesmerized
by your eyes

I never before felt this
total bliss
caused by your kiss

but short after the start
I fell apart
with a broken heart

© Marialenn 2014

when I think of you
my heart opens
like the wings of the white dove
spreading light
in its flight
blessing me

when I think of you
my heart jumps
on the rhythm of nature’s song
a hymn of true wisdom
inviting me
to life’s dance

when I think of you
I am small in your greatness
great in your simplicity
and feel complete
in how I am designed
I bow in grace

© Marialenn 06/19/2014

growing old
I and Self
in loneliness and Oneness
together
happy and sad
and between all that
just a human
balancing on the cord of life

© Marialenn 2014 06/16/2014

you are here
but only in my dreams
when I wake up
your shadow  is frightening me
that reminiscences of the past
brings shivers in the morning light

© Marialenn 06/13/2014

in this light
I can be anything less
then a colorless silver mirror
reflecting you
as a child
as a mother
as a woman
I’m your sister
I’m your lover
singing ageless melodies
of the Mother
and soaring
as clouds pass by……………….

© Marialenn 13 juni 2014

the beating of my heart
like a sound of thunder
reflects the emptiness
in this world
without you

Forever,
chiseled with desire
now shattered to pieces
was lying  in our hands

the sun has crashed
and crushed all flowers
and me
I’m praying like a desperate butterfly
I’m fragile, so fragile
and I hate it
oh my God
I hate it

© Marialenn 2014 06/12

I’m wearing veils of silk and lace
while dancing on a tapestry of stars
my tender fingertips, full of love,
caress your cheeks while I lean over
to your waiting arms
and then you hold me

I whisper vows
and words of grace
we're balancing on the shoreline of infinity

or is this just my projection on the past……

© Marialenn 06/11/2014

no answer, just a painful smile
and without a warning you left
seeking refuge in a quiet place
I was told

I felt your hesitation
in embracing
and wondered
why heaven took flight

so quietly
but there’s no peace left

© Marialenn 2014 06/10/2014