It's back, when you finally
believed it was gone.
A pounding, a stabbing
pain so sharp
it takes your breath away.
It leaves you in tears
tearing you apart inside
leaving you in pieces
tattered and shredded
Broken and Alone

Can you see through my false smile?
Can you see the pain
        hidden beneath my fake happiness?
Do you see that I'm hurting inside?
       But I can't, I won't let it show.
If I do, it makes everything real.
It means that I can't pretend
      that it never happened,
I refuse to let it show.
To let anyone see that I'm hurting

It's so hard to find truth
in all these lies
It's so hard to trust
when everyone I trusted let me down.
It's so hard to find peace in all this chaos.
It's so easy to want,
but not to get it.

I've had a lot of time to think
I've really thought about it
I may change my mind but,
for now,
my answer is no.
The main reason?
I think that's all your looking for.
Me? I want more then that!
Honestly, if you think I'm that type of person,
well, then you really don't know me.
There is so much we don't know about each other
and that doesn't seem to bother you.
If you knew me at all,
you would know that's just not me.
Besides I want more than that.
I want someone that
no matter what will stay by side.
Someone that understands my moods.
Someone I can tell anything to
and know that they won't judge me
Someone that will hold me when I cry,
but never be the reason I'm crying
I want someone that will always make me feel special
Someone that will hold my hand
and not care who sees.
Is that you?
Are you that guy?
Are you my someone?
Will you do those things and more?
But maybe that's a lot to ask.
Maybe there isn't someone like that.
Maybe I'm asking to much,
but I can always hope.

Is it the sudden pounding of your heart
when you see them
Is it when everything  fades away
and all you see is them
All you can see is the way the wind plays with their hair
the shadows cast on their cheeks from their lashes
Is it the way their smile can suddenly lift your spirits
when nothing else can
Is it they way their voice makes you smile
for no reason at all
Is it how with one look your
whole world seems to shine
Is it when a simple hi
sends you into a fit of laughter
Is that what it is
is that what makes everyone try anything
to make it theirs
To make that their whole world
Is that what love is?

Is it enough
to give love, kindness, friendship
Is it enough to give my everything
but never except it in return
An unrequited love
A hopeless friendship
Is it enough to give smiles, laughter, hope, love
but never have it for myself
It's all I can give, but it's never enough