Lollies are sweet
Lemons are sour
Open your legs and give me one hour

Gasping for air, choking on tears and watered down blood. The water overcomes me and flushes out my eyes, my chests heavy.
Suffocating, everything becomes a blur.
Memories and words come back, painting pictures of everything I've tried to run from.
My mouth begins to taste like death and my ears plugged with sadness. I cannot hear a word they're saying now. Am I finally getting what I deserve?
But just like that, it snaps back. I find myself reaching out, grasping into the bit of reality I have left. There I was, this little girl wheezing and grabbing the bathtubs ledge, trying to keep herself from slipping back under.
9 months ago, I was grasping for air, choking on tears and watered down blood, only trying to drown my demons.

i think I'm addicted to the ache in my bones
the sinking feeling in my chest
the feeling of tears behind my eyes
just bursting to be released.

a dam breaking.

the salty water finding its exit
seeping through the cracks in the corner
a sudden pleasure when the water gushes
                                                          ­         down
                                                                ­          my
                                                    ­                        cheeks.
Niagara falls.

i think I'm addicted to
                                                               depression.

11.18 a.m

I didn't think it was possible
To wake up missing someone
That was until,
I dreamt of kissing you

Every touch. Every look.

So now I wake up
Missing you.