My soul is quiet today.

I keep my money pursed, and my lips locked.

I dig you out of the cracks and patches of my life, like long hallways in the dark,

I use to sit ontop the roof, & dare myself to jump, I never jumped, one time I fell.

Dad...I need you.
I don't know what to expect from men.
Dad...I want you to be proud of me.
I wish you would to tell me I'm beautiful.
Dad...my heart is broken.
I want a father.

Talking to God falls heavy on my lips,
Because I'll never seen Him as more than a bestfriend. I see myself, forever shaken. That sick feeling in my stomach, knowing I'm bending till im about to break.

I don't want to be scared of love.

you make me want to write, you make me want to fight, to wake up in the morning with clean wrists.

Heavens mercy seat,
Is pretty far from me,
I'm breaking down,
I'm defeated

Struggling to stay

He says my eyes are hellos,
The way my smile beckons him,
He repeats the word beautiful three times,
As if it wasn't enough the first time,
I smirk softly, hoping he knows I only have,
Good intent,


Compliments don't take me anywhere,
Then to wishing I was in his arms,
Not yours,
Flattery doesn't work on a gal like me,
Poetry does, Poetry Does

she said she can't count on her fingers,
Cause she doesn't have none,
My music teacher fed them to the alligator,
The second note was off key,
She looked at me & for once I saw nothing,
Empty reflection, of the reflectation of nothing,

Fairytales are real, only after death.

Id write about rocks trembling, but I can't get past your face..

What is it
That noise you make
That soft hum so distinct
So full of distain
Disgust

Prayer

Don't be a loser, don't be a loser dad.

Something spiritual how a rain coat keeps you warmer than last years winter jacket.

My soul is quiet today, winds above the sea.
Calm, no will to fight back. Knees to my chest, I wonder what you're doing without me, I wish I could reach inside the photograph, take me to another time when you were sprawled across my lap. Today was a day you'd like, I still have your blue ribbon tied against my lamp. I miss you, I miss you.

Open says me,
Open says I,
Open says heart

Faith is a misty breeze.
The ship travels like a cold captain.
Why does the reef die?

I can't give you much, but I can give you the notes on the back of my folder. The blood on my newest blade. And all the stories, my grandfather told me. Nazis & Guns & Death. About love and conquest. Sacrifice yourself, for someone elses ornaments. Hang the lights, horizontal.

One of my biggest dreams, is to jump onto a moving train.

"You're a female dog" he said.
With a smirk, "woof" she said.

Running feels great...
Especially when it's 2:00 in the morning,
And you know the foot steps behind you,
Don't belong to a friend.

If I sing louder than, the barking at my heels, I'll make it.

I wish I could **** my sadness in through my eyelids.

Universe
Uni, one
Verse, spoken statement
And God said,"Let there be"
And there was.

Hope found its home on my lips, you can find rest on my chest after you're done sleep walking...

I don’t feel beautiful. But when he holds me I do.

Dearest Darling, I am sorry for my wrong doings. You will make it, after all.

I threw you off a seven story balcony, I watched you slam into the roof of the car below. Last time someone eats my cheese its ;)

Barely lifting your sad caliused feet,
Off the polished marble floors,
Leaning into the glass windows,
Like it was your only support,
I watched as you rubbed away your
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Trying to smear away any remains,
Of what use to be,
I wanted to scream the view is almost,
As beautiful as you,
Just look a little harder darling,
I know all you can hear is her constant
SCREAMING
I know that you want to live,
You're a torch in this abyss,
But you're fading,
I can see you ripping band aids off all your problems,
Letting the sorrow come pouring out,
I can see you crying on the bathroom floor,
Dear sad ghost, why'd you put your heart on a shelf.

If you say the word "fair" you're going back to belief.

I’ve tripped over every accessible hallway, trying to stop myself from falling in love with you.

How much of me do you not need?

Because when I offered you accepted everything willingly.

You stuffed your face with frivolity.

Selfishly gulped down my heart and with it my insecurities.

When you were finished, you gave your compliments to the chef and told me you never wanted any of it.

Your łïpš pour chocolate to mine,
And when you're on top,
There's nothing like the world below,
I crane my neck to see the stars in your eyes.

Growing hurts, but we only focus on the hurt, & not the growing.

Mom, such a foreign word
I have one, I know one, I am one
And yet I haven’t begun to understand the meaning

Yes, let's romanticize,
Black eyes,
Red wrists,
Broken bones,
And scarred minds,
Because it wasn't enough,
That suicide letter,
Or the puke in the toilet,
Or the long sleeves in 90 degrees,
The way the kids can't meet your eyes,
Drugs,
Permfume to cover up it all,
While the body rots underneath,
I remember it all,
But romance is dead.

I am so depressed, there is no other poetic way to be beautifully honest about the crumbling ruins of your insides

Mr keatings veiw on the world.

In your presence, I wanna thrive.
Like bees amongst the flowers.
I want to soak in your love like a fish to water.
I want to sing to you my king, can you hear me?
I'll lay here, in your presence lord, and tell you how much I love you, no matter how badly im scared. Lord, this isn't a poem or a prayer. I just love you. I just love you. You filled this void.

Sugar tone the after thought,
Get rid what is yours,
Drink the poison,
Guess again.

the acoustics in this shower mmmm,
It echoes.
The reflection of your body behind mine,
In this tile cracked..

If I could've died that night, I would've to avoid contact. Failing to find out how fractured your heart has always been.

He asked me what I'm doing,
I told him I was changing.

He said," I'll watch."

The instrumental to Secrets, done by the Dallas String Quarlet makes me turn off the world

Maybe they'll both die.

Iced coffee & five hour drive in the rain,
To an empty beach,
Is where I want to be,
Lord help me now

Follow the cracks in the clouds,
Right to my breaking heart,
Wake up,
Fall asleep,
One day I'll wake up & all I'll hear is singing.

Your face fell between my thighs, cradled, rock-a-bye, never eat more than you can handle. Always use your forks and knives.

One dollar off my heart, expires never.