I bought a lot of fish today, and put them into one tank. All different colors, and all different kinds. Some mean, some nice, some big some small. But it didn't make me happy. I keep finding things to distract myself from the pain. My mom things I'm bored, and just good at spending money. I'm just Tryna replace ya pops

It was simple, so it was right.

Jesus put me in a choke hold, it's okay if you only stand on tip toes.

Making love to rhythms & chords. Hallowed out heavens, between my shaking finger tips. Gentle chattering, strumming. As the next verse comes around.

Hello, hello, hello beautiful.
Boy, who hides his face,
Behind the ******* of young lovers,
Because that's what life has given him a taste,
Of,
Of lust.

He only knew her by the broken glass in her hands.  They ate of the plain bread. Drank of the new wine. Yet still felt empty. Thirsty with an over flowing cup. We find ourself at the dinner table ample opportunity. Not blinking as they're realizing they're missing a guest. Eyes over the toilet bowl, bending over it's depths. Nothing can drown out the sound of a holy communism. Blade meets flesh, young girl at best. Her true colors vibrant in her lubrucated eyes. God where are you. But everywhere. Tunnels flocked with paper cats, no stones here.

you've never seen me in color, only black and white. my features hidden, only brought to life by light.

I AM MORE THAN YOUR HALF DRUNK UNSPOKEN APOLOGIES I AM WORTH LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS DONT YOU DARE SAY ID LOOK STUNNING IF I LOST SOME WEIGHT I AM MORE THAN YOULL EVER WISH TO HOLD IN THE PALM OF YOUR HANDS I AM MORE THAN THE POWER TO WALK AWAY FROM UNWANTED SELF HURT I AM MORE I AM MORE THAN.

Curl back into your turtle shell, solitude suits you well. Voice cracking, like a prepubescent teen. Love you more

The drugs I do tonight, will be good enough.
The graphics are fantastic, I broke the 3D glasses in half. Mortal combat, combining souls. I want to make love on lsd, paint a picture, & die happily .

No matter how many, new blankets, pillows and sheets. You pile high.
Like the princess & the pea, I'll never sleep. Shoved down in the bottom layer, under the comfiest cover. Is all the thoughts, that come out at night. Someone knock me out please

Side patters, puttering along a empty road.
An old ford, with no seats. Crates for a home,
Nothing is delusional, you'll make it into that school. Even if all your friends hate you.

I do not fear men, I fear the intentions of them.

I'll keep you waiting...waiting...waiting...WAITING...WAITING FOR SOMEONE TO CARE!! ITS HARD TO LIVE UP TO ALL THE STRIFE YOU PUT ME THROUGH. I wish...wish...wish....WISH...WISH...MY MOTHER WOUDLNT HAVE HAD *** WITH A NONCOMMITING ******* WHO DOESNT GIVE A **** ABOUT ANYONE BUT HIMSELF....and I'll keep waiting...waiting...waiting...for someone to give a **** about me.

Bright pink, satin red sunset.
Hallow wind,
Black silouettes,
Waves crashing,
More like gliding,
Folding over and under each other,
Just me and you,
Wet sand under our toes,
I always see the outline of your favorite hat,
But never a trace of your face,
Maybe I don't have to,
I know every line,
Every crease,
Because you gave them to me,
Like you gave me this yearning,
To be there with you,
An abundance of love and wanting,
Your presence more full,
Than the rising ocean,
I open my eyes,
Slowly,
Throw my feet over the side of the bed,
I rub away the dream with the back of my hands,
I can still hear the crashing sea,
But all I feel is empty,
I want to know your love,
I want these dreams to be real,
We're only a couple hundred miles away,
Why does it feel like more like light years away,
Why dont you want me dad?

And if I tied you down, would you stay?

Cancers got her ***, they said

He said you have that talent and that baby and you wear it so beautifully. Eloquently, like none of their harsh words ever mattered, like you didn’t scrub away your finger prints wiping off the excess opinions.
Like you weren’t ever crucified for your weight and how you chose to carry it or sit it down when you got weary. Like loneliness was never a cloak you cradled with you. Like quiet was your nature and loud was your opening act. Like people weren’t diving in to receive more and leave you less. Girl, you have that talent and that baby and you wear it so beautifully.

You're my favorite six foot eight,
Russian,
Chocolate milk,
Breakfast,
Lunch,
Dinner!

Love ya granddad :)

The match that lit the spark that burned between us, blew out. Extinguished agony, and bittersweet goodbyes. I choke on the smoke that was your essence every night.

Thanks I got it from goodwill...

Your love,
       Like the Holy Grail,
                         I've got to find it.

I hope it makes you crinkle your forehead in a meaningful glare, when you read my words.

The breath of an animal, hot on the palms of your hands, life being expelled out of them,
The passion driven behind the breathing is unmistakably right, God would have it no other way. It feels the same when your ontop, life from your mouth on my neck. Making me tremble, untamable life form.

No goodmornings, goodbyes for yesterday.
Thanks mom & dad, hope you enjoy your day.

And if I roll over, I know you'll be there,
With sad broken eyes, you'll convince me to throw away all my knives, the pang in my chest won't go away, you'll pull me close, not bothering to tell me it's okay, because you know the kind of girl I am, & your presence is like daggers, mixed with guilt & relief, I cry because im just a daughter trying to find my way in life.

10 seconds of insane courage.

If I die before I wake, I accept my fate.
Hell Yeah!!!!!

Okay okay okay okay okay okay okay okay
Yup yup yup yup yup yup yup yup yup
K k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k k
Fine fine fine fine fine fine fine fine fine
           I see you emptiness, I notice you
   Beloved mistress, come flood my heart,
Internal organs, rushing in like the tide,
Earth crumbling beneath me,
Swept in, for the ride,

Your sweet green eyes, pink tongue,
Soft coat, loud voice, little bean.

Jesus Christ wipe the sadness from my cheeks.

It's crazy, how no one understands death,
But the way those white tulips lean up,
Reaching,
To the sun,
Away from the ceider casket,
That contrast is beautiful,
And death makes sense

Laugh until you cry, you stupid stupid little girl

Soooooooooo you tryna, **** me or nah?

Bold clasped hands greet cold bodies.

and if my finger tips touched my lips, would it kiss away the sadness on my skin

Waiting for the poison to poison me. Liquid vampires in ship stares at the moonlight.

Back hurts,
But my mind hurts worse,
We moved again today,
3 bedroom, 2 bathroom apartment,
On the other side of the world I use to know,
Moving is easy,
Moving on is worse.
It ***** so much,
To lie to everyone,
Tell them you're okay,
When horrors go on past those four walls,
Your eyes will never catch a glimpse,
But it's gonna be alright,
It's gonna be okayyyyy,
I didn't like my old life anyway,
It ***** so much,
Cause I'll never trust again,
You'll never know,
How much it cost,

Rapture capture, you don't understand how my body responds to meds. How handfuls have no affect. Please understand I have no regret, for all the empty pill bottles under my bed. Mom

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Jesus, you haven't sent a messiah through messages in ages.

every day is grief, every night is I’m sorry

The bully's in 7th grade were right, I'm too fat to be beautiful, too ugly to be loved, but I'm perfectly fit for writing and that has to be enough.

Mom nothing will happen. I know my way through a crowded bar. The glances wear off, sooner than the cheap makeup.

Jesus is love in His love.
God is love in His discipline.
Holy Spirit is love in His power.

I'm not exotic,
Nor well refined,

You made me a ***** in your bed,
You made me a maid in your house,
You made me fall in love with your words,
While your actions left me helpless,
You made me fear commitment because love is a revolving door.

I'm late to meet my bestfriend in the entire world, average. Leverage, not special.

I can't understand, why should would even want a man. But she don't leave and she won't anytime soon..

They say he's a lovesick puppy, always attached to her hip, they watch each other's eyes like there's other planets, residing in them. It's a game, plain and simple, he goes home to a girlfriend. And forgets about his chick when he's with her.

I smile & lick my lips, you're already mine