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i get sad sometimes
too much
feeling in my
throat
swollen tonsils
with hydrated
emotions
wallowing in
one place
thinking of winter
and days that
act
as night
dawn doesn't
show
wrists
that cannot
cease
blood flow
i was a corpse
once
did you know?
i think
sometimes
my
heart
remembers
death
and its the same
old itch
that
ignites
memories best
forgotten
but
there's the
salt
and here's
my wound.
 Aug 2013 madeline may
marina
i've become the person i wanted to be
two years ago, but i've forgotten
why i wanted to be this way in the first place

(it's time to reconstruct myself again)
i'm so tired of hating myself.  i feel sick.  i want to go to sleep and not wake up.  
i hope tomorrow is better.
 Jul 2013 madeline may
Morgan
I don't need god because I have a pillow top mattress. It's always there for comfort in the back of my mind like a reason to make it home tonight after an 18 hour shift.

Forgiver of all my sins. It cradles me to peace, even on my most evil of nights. Omniscient and silent. It knows what I've done and it knows how I've felt. I've wept into it. Wrote poem after poem while sitting Indian style atop of it. Chosen lovers and tasted their skin all over it. It doesn't ask questions. It just holds me gently and mends my aching bones until I'm fast asleep.
I,
a casualty,
          of the absence of your love
                              of a war with no cause
                                       of a memory now lost
 Jul 2013 madeline may
hkr
denim
 Jul 2013 madeline may
hkr
i hear you carry my name around
in your pocket [instead of on your sleeve]
so convinced that i forgot yours
on the bottom of a glass bottle

[but i could never]

when my mother turned my jeans
inside out to wash
she found your name scribbled
inside, over and over
and over again.
 Jul 2013 madeline may
Morgan
You will lose yourself chasing ambulances around these busy streets looking for a soul that aches just so that you can heal it and you will tear your hands to shreds picking up shattered minds off these ***** floors just so that you can sort them all back together. Embrace your own pain before it gets buried under the weight of a million other's.
 Jul 2013 madeline may
Morgan
You've been living in your
dreams for far too long now
I can't be the one to wake you
Relationships don't fade out
peacefully like the love songs
you've been writing
and happiness doesn't come
wrapped in silicon
Doctors aren't just drug dealers
A couple of vic's can't ****
all of the pain you've created
Not this time
I can't be the one to wake you
but if you don't open your eyes soon
you're gonna die where you're at...
in your sleep & Baby, I just don't have
it in me to sit at the foot of your bed for
an other year of this anti-reality
I'm so sorry
Going through the motions of making love
making nothing and feeling undone
Sitting hunched over at the edge of his bed
I'd never admit it but sometimes,
I'd like to be held instead
I've never known the feeling
Of that little spoon
The one that sits in the grooves
Of the other larger half moon
He brings my train of thought to an ugly end
He mutters, " get off the bed, its time to get dressed. "
I leave the room thinking about half moons
And how sometimes even little spoons get used
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