I have confessions to make
You radiate a beauty not before seen by mine eyes
Natural flawless by way of imperfection
I see you
I respect and admire you
Your drive, your intelligence
Travelled and educated I revel in your opinions
And take high stock in your solutions
I wish to come to know you better
Your eyes invite me
I see you've been hurt before
As too I
I wish no harm no anger between us
I would wish a million happy days for you
This is my confession you will never read
These my concessions of love

Marijuana smoke fills the air
I play with your hair
You're here, I'm here
Aural pleasure, your voice in my ear
Sirens play, crippled with fear
Ten kilos of ****** lay right here

Why would you be friends with a writer?
Ever so pretentious, ever so righteous
Only come to play in the night time
Coming down and nodding off as it gets lighter
Pacifists the lot of them, not one fighter
Oh but many shall be knighted

We're here on a Island, each one of us banished
Authors of the west were long ago abolished
We've had our share of bloodshed
Alas, it's all fun and games until one of us is published.

She woke up this morning
in her cigarette ashes
and found last night’s late pleasure
still stretched out on her bed—

How remarkable that
a single blue-eyed boy
could take just one look
of hers and have her
in his chains the next.
Willingly, of course,
but does it really make
a difference with the heart?

The heart which
tore out of her open chest,
latched firmly to his
and made a scene painted
with love in her
one-room apartment.

Her fingertips reached out
for his bare back—
warm to the touch,
and full of promises.

Bass rattles the roofing of the warehouse
Tonight we are truly alive
The alcohol and synthetic drugs course through our blood
Three people stuffed in a cubicle
Snorting lines of coke and adderall from the screen of a smartphone
A truly modern menagerie
The image of a woman confined to my mind
Searching desperately though eternal chasms
Tunnel vision and weary eyes
I don't know when the nights end
or begin
It's a psychosis that developed within me many years previous
The product of a generation with no forethought
Each pill popped was one less worry of the future
Synapses destroyed with such nonchalance
Enjoy the looming sadness

We, doomed to repeat
You, doomed to relive

Each shot to the arm takes it's toll
The toll may not be obvious now but in your twilight...
The wrinkles shall show and the scars continue to glow,
punctures in your flesh allow me to know.

I saw your mind decay before my eyes
Your body emaciated, your legs so fragile
I wish you hadn't experienced life to such a degree
I wish you had stopped me.

But alas, I stand here with my company
Another line
Another
One more
Level the score
One more pill and another tab
One more drag before I pass it back

To replicate my Mother and my father.

Where are you daddy?
Mommy won't stop crying.
I hear her at night.
She says she's alright.
But I can tell she's losing the fight.

Where are you daddy?
I can't sleep now.
You haven't told me the story about the little cow.
Mommy tries her best.
She starts off good.
But she can never remember the rest.

Where are you daddy?
I sit by the window everyday.
Just hoping you'll come home one day and stay.
I cry when I realize you won't show up.
I cry so hard, mommy's afraid I'll throw up.            

Where are you daddy?
Why did you leave us all alone?
Without you, this house doesn't feel like a home.
It feels like something's out of place.
Maybe it's your missing face.

Where are you daddy?
You weren't there to kiss me goodbye on my first day of school.
You weren't there to teach me to swim in the pool.
You weren't there to see me ride a bike.
You weren't there to see me fly my first kite.
Mommy was there for those things.
When you left, she became the wind beneath my wings.

Where are you daddy?
I need you to tuck me in at night.
I need you to turn on my night-light.
I need you to leave the door cracked, some light shining through.
I need you to scare away any monsters that might say "Boo!"
You can’t do those things daddy, because you're not here and I don't know where your at.
If you can hear me, wherever you are, I only ask one thing: Please come back.