remove the blade
throw it away
lay with me
take my makeup off
and hold me tight
in my baggy T
tell me your secrets
everything will be okay
baby i love you
is all i have to say

Across my thighs
The scars are
Healing.
The new pink
Scars covering
Where i once
Carved your name
Into my leg.
Watching it fade
As my feelings
For you do too

The voices in me head
are getting louder
with ever word i speak
they are telling me
not to get to close because
they dont want
me to get hurt again
they are leaving
the pain entirely up to me.

It all started with yelling and screaming, some nasty comments here and there it’s my entire fault, I’m not the perfect child you asked for and trust me i know i never will be. I’m sorry I’ve made mistakes and I’m a massive **** up......
if in was here for a reason it better be a good one because i don’t know how much longer i can stay in this household and ratchet excuse I’m meant to call my life I’m only at the age of 17 years old and have been told i have so much more to live for but that must be all a joke on my behalf if I’m a failure at everything i seem to do
as the rain drops on my face I can't help but feel as though I was made to cry. I was made to be weak. I was made to be a stain of mascara sludge. but then i realized if it weren’t to rain I’d still be in this situation I’d still be the one crying, i swear I’m made for internal misery..
Some are just born with tragedy in their blood i mist be one of them, but all i can do is ******* hope as i lay on the road with the rain falling all around

if i leave,
i promise you
babe i will
see you soon!

Hello, hello anyone there?
“Go away…”
hello who’s there?
“You’re not safe in here…”
hello please respond?
“Save yourself before is too late…”
hello, someone please?
“They are too loud…”
hello, I can’t hold on much longer someone respond?
“I told you to go away, you didn’t listen they are here it’s too late…”

Hello 911 …. I need an ambulance; a young girl has just committed suicide.

nowadays i want to see
you in my daydreams
when we were together
living the life we once
wished for before it
all happened and you
were taken from me
by him
his words
his torment
im sorry i couldn't
save you before it
was too late
now im laying here
wishing you were here
and not 6 feet under
cause last time i saw
you, you were hanging
from a white rope
necklace with your last
words not even once
mentioning me
but you will always
know i loved you and
now its too late to show
you and im sorry
but ill promise you
ill see you soon baby

i cant ******* do anything
not when your like this
i feel ******* useless
because im so far away
i just want to hold you
in my arms
and kiss your forehead
and promise you that
when you are with me
everything will be okay
the demons are gone
the blades are just a
long lost memory
the voices you once
heard have become
real people the
ones who love you
and care about you
because baby we are
living in the real
world now and i
promise you everything
will be okay

you looked at my arms exactly a year ago today,
and what you saw was the small freckle on
my right wrist.

you looked at my arms yesterday, there had
been a few changes, pink scars covering
my arms.

you looked at my arms tonight and saw
blood stained wrists, with cuts everywhere
you looked me in the eyes
with the im sorry look.

i looked back at you and said me too
and left.

taking my life i still see your face, "im sorry"
but there was more to it you do it too.

sorry we couldnt save eachother before it was
too late.

why do i feel sad,
sad about my scars fading?
is that why i want to
make more?
so the thrill never leaves?
they have come a part
of me!
that i never want to leave!
now i think thats why
im lying here in a pool of
my own blood...

laying here, semi concious
and fully exposed.
blood, bruises, scratches!

you left me.
alone, in the cold dark
surroundings!

i dont know where
i went wrong,
with you.

you told me you loved me
i gave you everything,
i never said no.

but...
but...
but...

i dont care that you
didnt really love me,
i dont care that you
used me.

i care that you left me,
fully exposed and semi
concious.

You LEft mE

Throwing up my guts,
Worst headache ever.
I got so dizzy that I passed out,
My head is spinning.
i don't know what to do,
i hold my breath and hope for the best.
this is going to be hell,
living, breathing hell.
the pain is hard,
the torment is strong.
im over being sick,
worst feeling ever.

but its okay baby, ill always be there
through thick or thin
you wont feel like this much longer
or when im around anyway.

i love you.. he said walking out the door.
i loved you.. he said walking out my life.

As his lips left hers, him not knowing her deadly secret she was hiding ... Not only she had 3 months to live, she was also carrying his best friends child !