How am I born empty & dented, I thought your immaculate hands didn't construct flaws Father.
Why is it that I find homes within strangers? Linger upon their words & filthy promises.
How is it that my soul will never be clean no matter how many times my fingers clench the bible?
I searched for love in vacant hearts like you said I should. It doesn't exist. It never existed. You created a lie.
Do you ever feel lonely? I do, every night when I realize that the letters my lips write don't reach you.
How do I love these demons Father? Teach me to tame them so that my spine no longer shivers when I feel them
Is darkness the only light I'm meant to see? Because I longer fear it. I fear my thoughts. The ones that are too heavy for my eyes.  
Lord, you said hearts were meant for beating, I think mine lost its rhythm

So. You like me as your pastime?
Hmm, please take another look
And see there's a person attached to it
With a full life and dreams, fool!

Being such the ardent lover of liver
She alit the bus and sat square across a damsel
Carrying happy burden; spontaneous loss
And on this day, witness to the leaking full......

Teeming thoughts rage on inside
Sees a man spitting ceaseless into a mug
Spitting, spitting, spitting...!!
Now a china teacup .... is all she'll have.

Frustration climbs the walls like spiders
Leave behind dangling webs of duplicitous ire
Spray its viscous poison everywhere
A smack, an outburst; ugly scene.

Hard to see where it ends, where it starts
Tumultuous energy always kept in check
Surreptitious trafficking in serendipity
Split desires sport with silken threads.

Embracing pain which dominates so
Heartache elemental dogs every move
See you leave, go off alone
Hide high grievance, suffocate.

Seems this loveware needs reconfiguring
Sittin' pretty, like a duck in the water
Ain't the way; keeps the target on yer back
Life's sometimes quite the storm..... in a Chinese teacup!


S T, 03 June 2013