So... You like me.
Like... Me. ME. ACTUALLY me? Who I ACTUALLY am?

I told you my flaws, you kissed my scars.
No one's ever made me feel that beautiful.

You told me your demons, dark depths to your soul;
my heart cried, my heart bled, my heart yearned for you.

"What flaws do you think you have?" -what? What flaws do I THINK I have? You don't see? You don't see them? They're SCATTERED, they're LITTERED all over my body...
but than again you're the first man I've ever been interested in who hasn't seen me without my clothes.

Without my clothes, unclothed... You have; you've seen the most naked part to me. You've seen my skin -not the one that's tattered & lined with battle wounds, but the one that's under that. The one that's full of my words & thoughts & heart.

My God, you are beautiful.
Yes, beautiful. The word, the meaning, you don't often give to people. The title you are very particular & careful about when using... Yes. You are beautiful. You find me beautiful, you find me "charismatic, confident, and beautiful." Oh, but if only you knew how insecure & ugly I can be. If only you knew how terrified I am.

Secretly I think you do. Do you feel that way too?
I'm not sure what to feel or what to think, but these fireworks -these bright light displays- are going off in my mind & my heart. The moment we kissed, the moment you looked at me, the moment you kissed my scars -my head exploded, my heart soon followed.
You're leaving me breathless. You're giving me chills. You're making me think things I shouldn't, though they feel so good, but they get overclouded by the fear & the doubt.

You'll leave like all the others, I shouldn't get my hopes up.

But what if it's my heart that you're getting up?

BEAM ME UP.

When it was me & you standing shoulder to shoulder, I knew.
It was just us two, going at it together, no matter the weather.
Soon enough the nights were long, the fights were tough;
The egos came up, I couldn't see what
I had in front of me. How could we let this be?
Baby, you mean the world to me; I can hardly breathe when you're not close to me.
Baby, talk to me, all could be -just as it once was,
But we gotta drop the walls, you're the only one I love.
Pick the pieces up, put them back intact;
You're the only one for me, this ain't no selfish act.
We were Bonnie& Cylde, I'm still down to take the ride.
**** the world, baby, if you ain't by my side.
No matter how hard, no matter the stride,
No matter how many tears we may cry,
We got each other, baby, til' the day that we die.
I know we ain't perfect, I know it's not alright, but ..
If loving you is wrong, I don't wanna be right...

Fingers intertwined, hearts strum together.
Feelings in our eyes, can we stay here forever?
Soft words on soft lips,
& I'm yearning for their touch.
Touch my lips, touch my cold soul;
can we stay like this,
can we share this bliss?
Warm me up, ignite the flame;
make my insides alive, make me scream out the pain.
No more hurt, no more sorrow,
as we lay here in the prospect of tomorrow.

I'm strong bc I've been weak. I'm brave bc I've been scared & lived in fear. I know what it's like at the bottom of the well, I know what it's like to feel your heart shatter into tiny fragments.. How do you mend it together again? I've lost some pieces along the way..I've lost parts of me through the years, every time I hear the words "I can't go on," every time I see the tears fall & crash around me, every time I witness people in pain -pain & torture of the soul & mind. Nothing can fix that.. Nothing can give me back the old pieces of me that use to be. Nothing can mend this breaking heart of mine except love. I have nothing to offer, & these parts may be broken & these pieces may be scattered, but in each fragment of my beaten heart, I have undying love & hope & faith that I am offering to any & everyone who needs it bc my God I know what it's like to have a poor soul. I struggle every day, & some days & some nights are worse than others, some of them ******* burn through my veins worse than others, but I will always know happiness bc I have known utter despair & I have walked through the flames of this internal hell. Love is the answer... Love is ALWAYS the answer & we all need to know that we're not in this world alone.

Talk to me of *** & lust,
gain my attention, but not my trust.
Speak to me with words of lust,
gain my attention, but not my love.
Talk to me of words & soul,
gained my attention, my heart you stole.
Speak to me with words from above,
gain my attention, & all of my love.

When I'm down & out & there's everything to cry about,
I look up to the sky & it erases my doubt.
Feeling so small, my problem's are minuscule;
this isn't some **** you'd learn back in middle school.
They don't teach you ways to come back to earth,
they don't teach you confidence or self-worth.
This is something from the heart, of the soul.
This is what we need to close this gaping hole.  
This world is our planet, it's our friend;
it's time we learn to love & begin to mend.
This world is ours, look up & you'll see
that this world is my own & it's waiting for me.

I will never understand your reasoning or your logic. You claim we're alike, but oh my friend, we are worlds apart. I for one could never comprehend how you can call someone stupid & dumb & *******, especially when they're your own flesh & blood. Excuse me if I can't accept and defend your ****** up way of thinking like the rest of them, but I will not lay down & let you spew your venom to me any longer. You are wrong.. You've been wrong for the past 30 years & until you change your attitude, which you most likely never will, you're not welcome in this heart of mine.