The fallen angels, the risen devils
Preserve a bond by living silently
Distractions are many for humankind
The mystery is the birds and the bees
Beauty is incomplete and shadowy
Where is the farmer who plows the heart
Diving for pearls and permission for flattery
Where does it end and where does it start
Moon looks like an inflated balloon
Pluck it out of the sky like the birds
Who rule the first of the heavens
Beneath the second realm of a burning sun
The expansive curtain of the stars
Sits below His mighty throne-
A paradise few ever see
A place where no telescope goes
Putting you into a state of collapse
Is the prince of the air who
Accepts all evil sacrifices
And gives you a stiff neck

She’s an end-of-the-rainbow hunter
Fighting the forces of Old and Evil
Wearing tea-shades to hide from
Exaggerated reality
She names her cars after fish
And swims in demented colors
Losing track of time when she
Can’t see the sun
She carries grapefruit in her pockets
Along with a switchblade
She’s queen of the highway
And she likes it that way

Fish, reptile, human embryo
Take your pick of what we are
The romance of god
The sterility of science-
A match not made in heaven
He made something out of nothing-
Sun, the light-bearer
But also blow-your-mind light
And plural heavens
As he hovered upon the face of the deep
And caused immense vibrations
You’re either here by mistake
Or here with a purpose
You’re either higher than monkeys
Or lower than angels

One nation under god
Father grasps the shoulder of the son
Who listens to American music
They're growing beets in the garden
One nation under water
Trance grabs the shoulders of the sun
Who glistens over drunk, dazed revelers
They're growing cancer in the eye
Drink a beer, wear a silk batik
Drive a truck, and keep your mystique
They're just tools to use
In the long walk of
Finding the real thing
And if you do, be sure to
Inject it intravenously
(Just kidding)

Down by the sea
They shared secret smiles of blood
They drank ashes of the deep
While the ace of clubs watched
They laughed loud and heartily
They did all that they could
Down by the sea
While the ace of clubs watched
Soon the toe paint started to chip
Another ounce of time, goodbye
Soon the black eyes began to slip
Another loss for words, alright
Down by the sea
They shared secret smiles of blood
Never noticing the trees
Or the begonias in the mud
Down by the sea
They drank ashes of the deep
When it was all done
The ace of clubs went to sleep

Relics of darkness
Flood my mind
But under my feet
His light still shines
What have I to give
What have I to learn
What shall I believe
How long must this burn
Heaven’s in a scroll, or so we’re told
His word is the skin that never grows old
Rough thickets of thorns, I walk through daily
But so did she, the one called Mary
I’m waiting for the day
When red hot fire surrounds me
And I float up in a cloud, with daylight all around me

Torn out of heaven by my friends
To see a boy about a girl
Falling asleep to a backwards sun
Are the rulers of the world

So gather two of every animal
Holy Ghost you should clutch
We’ve been christened with fire
So hell wouldn’t hurt as much

And the dreams we forget
Tend to hold the keys
To a place found in death
That overshadows memory

So gather two of every animal
Holy Ghost you should clutch
We’ve been christened with fire
So hell wouldn’t hurt as much

I want you to make me feel mysterious
I want you to make me feel fearless
Both out in the world and in your arms
I want me to make you feel powerful
I want me to make you feel vulnerable
Both out in the world and in my arms

We both know, I'm too sensitive for my own good
We both know, you're too restless for your own good
We both know, our destiny is for the greater good

I need you to hold my hand
I need you to read my words
Both in the moment and out of this world
I need me to be your rock
I need me to be your muse
Both in the moment and out of the blue

We both know, we're both linked to the hex
We both know, on every level we connect
We both know, there's intimacy greater than ***

So let's not pretend
Let's bend the rules
Let's fend for ourselves
Let's amend our commitment
Create a home-school for love

I hover
Looking for a place to land
Undercover
You won’t know me till I’m dead
Still I try to
Penetrate your force field
But even under your sheets
You’re so unyielding
But your room is area 51
And your books have all come undone
And your fortress is a loaded gun
But it’s there I like to hover
So keep me in the back of your mind
With crop circles serpentine
It’s only there where I can unwind
Until I find another place to hover
You won’t know me till I’m dead
You won’t know me till I’m dead

How can you know who you are
When your only friends are the stars?
How can you know who to be
When your own blood considers you an enemy?
How can you know how to forgive
When this world is not live and let live?
How do you know how to survive
When you’re wanted dead or alive?
How can you know what you feel
When everything is deranged and surreal?
How do you know what you’ve learned
When with every mistake, you crash and burn?
How do you know how to love
When you don’t even feel it from above?

It's definitely gotten
Weird enough for me
Strange days-
An understatement
So what choice do I have
But throw in the towel
Cash in my chips
Buy the farm
Kick the bucket
An eye for an eye
A truth for a lie
The philosophic problem of revenge
Is always on my mind
Yet I've no counselor to console
I guess no one ever does
Atop the mountain
We're all a mystery
No one, even ourselves,
Wants to solve
Disenchanted souls
You know they'll worship your tombstone
But not until it goes in the ground
Running on a two-dimensional rainbow
In a schizophrenic sky
Has God shown you his face?
My only trigger is a finger
And they're calling me
Insanely cheap
But in their midst
I quietly understand
In my own alley
They talk about free will
But all I see is witless swill
The same ol' people
******* the sun
Glad you weren't here to bear witness
You must have known
There's only one way to be Earnest
When all your friends
Are dead people
No other choice
But to turn inside-in

I reckon I hear the call
Let's get lifted as we fall
Expose your soul as an innocent monster
It beckons to us all

You contain the kind of laughter that
Disguises many shades of tears
What happens when love is your master
Pulsing through your veins and years

Already walking in shadows
But you kept me in the dark
Looking for a familiar pattern-
A star, a scar, a spark

As I was wounded and hurting
Looking for dessert for the deserted
I lit a fire-
But it burnt the forest down

Now we are both sad clowns
Working our way through the wreckage-
Someone shuffled the deck
And all the hearts went missing

I asked Satan for divorce
He said, “Alright, of course,
But you’re still swimming
In waters lukewarm and shallow.”
Here I thought I was hallowed
But I’m wrestling something nameless
I want it to be solid
His name is full of consonants
But I feel the vowels are valid
In His world it’s black or white
Night or day, light or dark
I ponder which one I am
As I count the ripples on tree bark
How long is my shelf life
How far can I travel safely
How much more can I take
Will I ever find my place
Butterflies into bombers
We must get back to the garden
Bombers into butterflies
We must get back to the garden

The secret to life
Is learning to love
All the chaos
We fly with pasted-on wings
Too close to the sun
The melting wax drips
Into the ocean
But if we could escape
By bus or by train
Even by airplane we could
But we’d never escape our flesh
The casing of a body
When the story ends in death
Yes, the story ends in death
God sure knows how to put
The damage on
We must shed our skin
Let the light in
Before our silver linings sever
We’re tied to heaven forever
It’s just gravity pulling us away
Take that thing called fate and
Mix it with a little faith
Maybe one day you’ll conquer the sky
The secret to life
Is learning to love
All the chaos

Nights under stars
Sand between toes
Drive-in movie cars
Freshly fallen snow
Raggedy dresses
Waterfall rainbows
Socotra trees
Ripped pantyhose
Unmatched socks
Leaves in transition
Innocence and sunflowers
Lighthouses and words written
Familiar kitchen patterns
In a stranger’s house
New Orleans architecture
A cemetery mouse
Flip-flops in winter
Zebras and block parties
Cinnamon and cloves
Whiskey and Bacardi
Candy in pillow cases
Static electricity in the dark
Barun Valley and painted faces
Houses made from tree bark
Wrap-around porches
Neon city lights
Lightning-bug torches
Thunderstorm nights
Epicurean summers
Lapis Lazuli skies
Youth prayers in rocking chairs
Heterochromatic eyes

I'm blowing on a dandelion
And you're the tornado that blows me away
But amidst all the cows and car parts
Remember I'll always see your face
I'm the goldfish swimming in the pond
And you're the bird that plucks me out
I guess I should thank you for
A quick death and a trip to your mouth
Cause you're lack of hope maintains a shadow
So even when you're close I'll be weary
I guess now you see just how twisted I can be
As your right hand's on red, and my left foot's on green
I am in the mouse in the maze
Constantly looking for the prize
All your friends are amazed
That you're such a patient snake
But why don't you crawl out of the weeds
I'd like to show you something neat-
The ins and outsides of me
****, you've seen it already
I know I'm the fire that burnt the forest down
But your the hose in the sky that put it out
Didn't know I was capable of such demolition
I guess this puts you in an awkward position
So please, I beg you, please
If we ever meant anything
Than please don't pretend
That your eye isn't on the lens
Oh please, I beg you, please
I've always been your entrance to summer
So if you must exit
Just leave me be in this cape cod
And forget all the memories
We never had
We never had

You walk up the staircase
In a blue dress stained with violet
To a fountain with a phallus in the middle
You notice a bare parquet floor
In front of a famous painting with two pyramids
You go to the bathroom which
Divides the stick figures into genders
And you turn on the lone light bulb hanging from the ceiling
Afterwards you come to a fire,
The light bouncing off the stone floor
But you notice outside spotlights
So you walk down a long corridor
And leave by the exit sign door

In a sense,
Some of us haven’t lost our innocence
Despite mistakes and age
Some of us still want to play
But by our own rules
Not the government’s or schools
Who want to exorcise our right
To exercise our freedoms
When we want the right to declare
Responsibility as sin
Instead of toiling in exchange for trouble
While the capital letters keep snooping and swooping in
We blow bubbles and dive in the mud
They can’t imagine our life story
Cause they never lived it
Someone must protect our soaring souls and wild hearts

In a sense,
Some of us have lost our innocence
But despite mistakes and age
Some of us still want to play

Unhappy with eternity
Sleeping in my black veil
My dark eyes match this life-
One big dark room
I watch the cows eat cellulose
With my skeleton key stomach
I want to eat the grass as well
Feed on something I can’t have
I’ll drink blood instead
And do the cha-cha in my wedding dress
While I float above the staircase

Pavements sparkle
Asphalt glistens
Like a warm rain that just washed everything over
And a dream hit your head when the rain hit your roof
And you've just walked outside at 3AM to buy smokes
It's the weekend, you're free and it's ok you're all alone
You slept through the night's rallies and tallies
But it's ok- the streets are empty and beautiful and they're yours
Evergreens look like fake rubber plastic palm trees at a serene luau
Graves of white houses omit a strange glow that makes them look pretty all in a row
Grass is soft Astroturf to roll around on in moonlight
Like a well-paced acid-trip comedown
The world is your playground of wonder
You're in control but just as willing to give it up at any moment
Stores are closed and streetlamps guide you through invisible neon signs which seem far more friendly when out of the daylight
Dirt, grime and teeth-stomped bubblegum take backstage to glittering cement and rock elements
Intoxicated by everything and you're on nothing
You're on nothing

In Existenz
I saw two moons
One was cardboard-grey
And the dish ran away with the spoon
The other was piercing, yellow and bright-
A unisex cross of an eye-blinding light
And on a street corner
Between two tall trees
Kneeled two black angels
With massive white wings
They bowed on a plateau
Before a gumby-like shadow
With broad-even shoulders
And dangling limbs
And for a moment
I understood closure
What it means not to know
And never to see --
-- But back to the shades
Lacking glimmer, a glisten
I wonder why they don't talk
When I'm willing to listen
Why don't they state the rules
In the chance they'll be broken
Unless they didn't count
On one poor lost token
What I wouldn't give
To just make them pleased
They wanted oil and water
But I gave them fire and ice-
How much more can I tell them
I don't hold the keys --
-- Back to Existenz
Where fake plastic looks pretty
Wool-gathering and rubber gods-
Birds do come out at night
Amidst petty shudders
And dreams in plight

Cold all the time
Even in the warmth
Anemia or ghosts hovering?
Would explain the attraction to fire
Why couldn't I be a gambler
Or a midnight rambler
Have a good disease
Instead it's you, him, her, them
My disease is other people
I infect and make them addicts to my tear ducts
Fear hides and ducks, but it's always here

And she says
Nature is the devil’s church
As I feel the birch trees
Fall all around me
And this land
Seems to have an *******
From our birth
From our pain
And she blows her candles out
Like dandelions in acid rain
In Idaho fields
Her own private shield
In Idaho fields
And if all that flies falls
Who will be circling up top
Who will be swimming
Is there any plot of Earth
Free from grid-demise
Worth saving
Worth slaving over
On this black-top
Spinning asphalt
And she says
All the world’s a trap
The trees just create a map
For the pandemonium tax
And the breeze
You best think twice
Before you stare down
The one with medusa hair
In Idaho fields

In a blinded alley
In a tornado’s eye
Otherwise known as
Eternal blindness
So they build you up
Build you up, good
A near-perfect potion
A headstrong, rooted wood
Enter their domain
On a stretcher of wills-
Questionable, collective thrills
Throw pennies in their fountain
Till piggy bank’s in debt
Still there seems one thought
They haven’t collected yet
So they build you up
Outnumbered, how dare you try
To stay tough
Enmeshed in accidents your head
Is not aware of
Still your heart pangs with guilt
From an unknown source
Future hospital bills
Or maybe it’s their stares, glares
And cheap hellos
Their confession of only keeping you around
To see you crawl on all elbows
An all the twilight abductions
Poke, **** and nod your head
Cause it’s all really happening
But you’ve no way in hell to prove it
Didn’t know telepathy could be so
Unsterile, so unclean
As seed is stolen from your bloated belly
Your drowning genes
Your mutilated mind
Your soon extinct scene
They didn’t know you already
Held back the moon in a dream
What excruciating payback
For an unremembered accident
Brought on by your words of now
Echoing your thoughts of then
Plaguing me
Cursing me for the later

In my head I’ve been hoarding impressions of contemplation
My thoughts have run on for extra innings
But if you ask me what I’m thinking about
My mind draws a serious blank
So I say I’m dreaming of death-
How, when, and where it will come
Cause I’m quite aware I could expire before the milk in the fridge
And yet I’m filled with heavy burdens which don’t allow me to fully live
While everyone around me is working on self-improvement,
I choose self-destruction
Perhaps I’ve always gone against the grain
But the past is a broken mirror and I can’t see myself straight
And as I sit in clouds of smoke and think how there aren’t
Enough days, enough seasons, enough of the world to go around
And the billionaires are lucky since they’ll get first dibs on a new planet

In my orb
Bare feet on the carpet
Windows open
Incense burning
Releasing energy
Absorbing energy
Organic vibrations
Balancing the scales

In my orb
I’m underwater
Moving in waves
Translucent breath
Absorbing energy
Releasing energy
Restoring my aura
Dusting off my halo

People don’t say hello to me
But goodbye comes easily
I see children playing in the street
But they don’t smile or wave-
I’m alone in my tree
And the highs and lows stream naturally
They come and go but in actuality
It’s impossible to know who you are
When you’re not allowed to be
No one needs to tell me-
I’m alone in my tree

Indulge your senses and your appetites
Lust after an aching for desires
Love is always the obvious choice
But pleasure has the loudest voice
Pining over someone you can’t have
In pain, denial, looking for a distraction
It’s a jungle of emotions
Art with a verdict
Cause *** is never as good or evil
As many make it out to be
It’s not ordinary or a luxury
Yet we treat it as the cause and cure

In the bloodbath of a dream
I went sleep-walking into Eden-
It was burnt to the ground
I smelled the charcoal, tasted the flames
While in a cloud was a huge forked-tongue
That got me thinking of the letter M…
I hopped around to other worlds
Perceiving the events with a cautious schoolgirl nature
I watched chemicals and stars do their ****** dance
Twirling endlessly into each other-
Creating a carnival of colorful exploding death and rebirth
I felt the ghosts in their fortresses eye up the hourglass-
Wondering when time will be broken and they’ll be set free…
There’s blood on a rainbow down by the waterfall
It stained my soul and put my thoughts to rapture and ridiculousness
How far will they go, the demons of this world,
When a measly human breaks their code,
Smashes their hologram mirror,
And realizes that everyone everywhere has always been alone
Everyone everywhere is their own god-
And everyone else, with their dark interiors,
Is there only to torture the blamed
For a mistake they can’t remember…
Lost in the remnants of a dream
I unlocked the gates to hell
And realized that life on earth is purgatory-
There must be a heaven on another astral plane,
A dimension without pain-
Of all the universes in existence, I hope that one bleeds through
Before I wake up to a world where God is dead
An angels fall like shooting stars that wish to remain unseen-
Extinction.

I awoke in paradise
After he made me
I was basked in moonlight
And the flowers danced for me
Walking around aimlessly
Was another just like me
He held my hand and we
Traversed our new home
Then one night while I was dreaming
A hissing voice came in my ear
Suddenly my mind was filled with
Oceans of blood
The next day I took a bite from
The tree I was supposed to fear
Then the world turned upside-down
I saw a vision of a crown of thorns
And punctured hands and bleeding feet
I dropped the fruit into his lap
But before I could stop him he took a bite
If only He told us that because of our transgression
A savior would later have to die

In the garden of our living
The root chokes the vine
Energy is chemical, and so is time

In the garden of our living
The wise ones pick the ripe
Cause the ground has chemicals, and shifts to the wrong side

In the garden of our living
The special sell divine
All their words have chemicals, an owls hoot their lies

In the garden of our living
Not a creature cares for why
We are nothing but chemicals, each an oedipal eye

The blank page beckons
The sword pierces the soul
The friends become lovers
The lovers become gods
The monsters aid in evolution
The spirit grasps its revolution
The reflection lies but
The power of it makes us cry
The dead dog attracts the best and worst
The book of life is sealed
The temptation lies in something new
The old ways produce inexperienced sinners
The sleep you cling to was once death
The pursuits you follow are trivial
The world is a battlefield
The gutter is full

In a packed room
Full of hipsters and vampires
You know they're one and the same
So we coat our balloons with the poison
So they can't **** the source from our wet veins
And I know we might not understand each other
But in this crowded place, I'm ok
As long as I'm next to you
It doesn't matter if the night ends red or blue
Cause we both know it's just the peel of the orange
And we both know there might not be a tomorrow
So you can go on your quest
And I'll make my final request
For both of us to possess
Another friendly caress from a stranger
Nevermind the danger, the whole world's a mess
But in this crowded place, I'm ok
As long as I'm next to you
It doesn't matter if the night ends with sand or glue
Cause we both know it's just the peel of time
Our heads hold the reason, our hearts hold the rhyme

Till death do us part
Is such a nice start
But I’ll carry you with me
Into eternity
Into the overtime
Into the in-between
Like paper dolls
We wither away
But I’ll cling to your ashes
As they burn in the day
Till death do us part
Is such a nice start
But it isn’t good enough
For me
So I’ll carry you with me
Into eternity
Into the overtime
Into the in-between
Into the future arms of me

I taste the moon
As I strive for Eden’s perfection
And with you I can’t tell the difference
Between trauma and adventure
I climb into the picture
And crawl out with dead hope
Cause controlling the mind
Is like controlling the wind
Try to be the sage that sleeps by day
But his bewilderment causes impaired memory
What do you do,
When happiness and suffering are the same?
A love triangle- stuck inside the pyramid
A little pain can make you stronger,
Or it can **** you-
How long until you’re dead weight?

Tied your hands and feet
Fed you to the aviator
You're a king and you're loved
So you must be put to death
We need a miracle, man
Stripped naked, blood-red cape
Wreath of spinous wood
Pounded in by hammering bark
Spit, hit, mocked, robbed, derobed
Sent to the place of a skull
Grape juice from a sour vine
Rationed you away by nine
A thief to your left
And a thief to your right
Begging for bulletproof miracles
Eclipsed, forsaken
Wine-soaked sponge,
A scream,
And he's gone

The Earth is an ornament on the universal tree
Every time I see my reflection, it shatters into pieces
A long time ago, I placed the moon in my heart
Still never expected to taste so much salt
It's all blood and water in the end
From this view, the ocean looks red
But as the world falls around me
I am astounded, I am at peace
Morning dew, take me back to you
I can't conclude with another thought of you
So I'll focus on the jaded and tainted
Is a devil with no appetite a saint?
I hear fireworks ahead with some amazing graces
And I remember the days when I used to paint my face
In the mirror...Unforgiving mirror
On a starry night, would you cut your ear off
Just to create?

Someone told me a story once
About a genius and a dunce
Both had stories, both had problems
Both would whistle while they worked
And while each resigned to their own corners
Which to us would seem like borders
They sure could learn a lot
From each other
But would they ever meet and greet
In the fields or in the street
Maybe in another life
Maybe on a desert island
And if stranded on some plot of land
Surrounded by sea, ice or sand
Maybe they could help each other
Both can tie knots like an expert

The duality of reality and fantasy-
Is that all there is?
There are worse things in this world than a broken heart. But in the end, every mistake, every disaster, every tragedy, results in a broken heart. –
Is that all there is?
I look down, below, and I see the past. I look above, to the sky, and I see the future. I look straight in front of me, and I see the present.-
Is that all there is?

I know I did you wrong
Can't explain it in a song
I asked God to strike me dead
Shooting stars had other plans
What else can I say
Maybe earth is just not in my DNA

And maybe I come from a place
Filled with myths of decay
And all the biblical horrors
Don't come close to my sorrow
How else can I grow
If I'm not in the audio afterglow

It's like aqua seafoam shame
Cause there's no on else to blame
Except mine lacks a color
I'm in the boat without a rudder
What else can I do
Except count the constellations two by two

I'm running with lungs full of smoke
Because I am the local joke
I'm running out of air to breathe
Tenderness is what I need
But what else can I feel
When the rain is just evaporated tears

I'm searching for the moment in space
Where my head and my heart match my face
Roll with the punches, leave a scar
Cause I'm tied to dying fish and angry Mars
To whom should I hail
When the fourth dimension lifts its veil

(Jack & Jill fetched the pail
And the universe inhaled)

He was born on a day when the sun didn't rise
And the birds laid eggs that didn't hatch
Little did he know, it was all a disguise
Till he awoke in a strange pumpkin patch

There he found creatures, they all were afloat
Like jelly beans flown into space
They were different in color, like Joseph's coat
But all were extinct from the race

One day he found a dragon tree
And in it dragon's blood
He went to tell his friends, with glee
Until it landed with a thud

Free of love and void of hope,
He hated where he was
No one had the courage to cope
And only answered, "Just because"

One day he met a soul like his
And asked, "Why were we sent to this place?"
His twin answered, "The secret is this-
But close your eyes- just incase"

The boy shut his eyes, and waited in vain-
What he saw shook his insides
He saw himself a mortal, slain
In the place he currently resides

From then on, he thought, "What if?..."
"What if I was born on a day when the sun did rise?"
Eventually, he awoke from his dream
And realized he never opened his eyes

I bet you could sense my frustration at your hesitation
It wasn't like before...
You treat me like a pig who can't see the sky
But really I'm just a zebra with crooked stripes
You used to be like me- afraid to sleep alone
Now you're just setting traps to win the rhino's horn
Or are you the leech, with thirty-two brains
Who isn't ashamed to **** my blood for your gain
Or have you become like the common jellyfish,
Whose sting hurts like hell and who's a little heartless

I watch the antlers of the trees
Break off piece by piece
I watch the flowers bold and green
Rust into dead and lifeless things
Just another summer day in winter
Just another winter day in summer
I see the dragonflies hover in the breeze
They compete with the spiders’ careful weave
All the squirrels are guarding their meat
The birds take the leftovers with ease
Just another doomful day in paradise
Just another fruitful day of doom
I watch the sky, the clouds are mean
But at least they tell me some things
I watch the streets, ***** and clean
They burn a hole inside of me
Just another summer day in winter
Just another winter day in summer

Wish upon a star
Wish upon a soul
Earth the same as gold
Salvation is the goal
Just between the eyebrows
Focus vision on the nose’s tip
Still, controlling your mind is like
Controlling the wind
So with the arrow of time
You enter the cosmic womb
You ride upon the mystical machine
Until you enter the tomb
Coming forth into being
Going forth into absorption
Find the yoke of union
Connect, harness, and in your soul, report it

On a train
Where no one cares where I go
On a platform
You somehow reach me against the odds
We quarrel, we fight, until exhaustion
And the moment of my freedom
Just happens to be your moment of self
Moment of salt
And I bleed tears
Knowing the timing
It’s always the right time for tragedy
My tragedy
Your weekly release
Of salt
Takes a lot, I know
But it’s not enough
It’s not
What’s under the belt
It’s what’s under the skin
That you can’t ever
Understand
Understand
What’s another word for
Understand

There once was a guest at my door named surprise
It told me 'Get rid of that fear in your eyes,
The world's a big place, with plenty of space
I'll always be here if the moment should rise'

So the clown and the wallflower danced
A strange dervish and buffalo stance
Till one disappeared, the other lost ears
And both wore a thin mask of chance

To rebel (to excel) (to rebel) To excel
To go your own way alone is a surefire hell
But a changeling's tight bind an instinct's soft mind
Bloom too late to sense the obvious spell

Caught on the wings of a nine
But somehow still lost on the eight
Stuck on the circuit with no end in sight
Waiting for the hourglass to break

There are no ends to these extremes
This must be purgatory
Ghosts follow you
They treat you as the hollow you
The minute you fade away they burn you
What an art to learn
How they easily adapt to those they say they hate
Drinking the kool-aid with a straw smile
So **** lucky to fall in line-
Never losing sense of time
What a thick batch of rapture
Don’t know who to fear
Don’t know what to love
There are no ends to these extremes

The ocean is red
The sky is red
The earth is red
We are red
Our souls are burnt, scorched
Like everything under the sun
But He, She, It is blue
How can we get closer?
Everything inside of us is all around us,
From the depths of the oceans to the heights of outer space
Our blood stains the asteroids before they hit,
And the rocks become the Dirt we stand on
The birds wear a disguise as they echo in song
Maybe this disguise is a symbol
Even the birds leave their free but empty skies,
Tumbling back to earth,
As we pray on our knees to a symbol
Maybe this symbol is grace
And human language is raw nature
When nature and grace collide,
Can this destruction bring forth creation?
Is our world the child of grace and nature,
Swaying always slightly towards damage over peace?
We are the new dinosaurs,
Eating plants and eating meat
In our deepest caverns we dream of frozen waterfalls,
Waiting for our true selves to bubble to the surface
Then the volcano erupts- and we’re back to the caves,
Playing with our singular shadows in the dark
Can’t we explode into the light?
Our energy instead goes to the hole,
The hole we dig from the moment we slide out
The cells, the craters, the planets- the holes
The ocean is blue
The sky is blue
The earth is blue
We are blue
But He, She, It is red
How can we get closer?

There’s this black cloud that follows me
Wherever I go
It drains all of my energy
It likes to do it slow
It’s been so long since I’ve seen an outcome
When all I want is the last straw to come
So I can be completely undone
Neil said someone would come to rescue
Thom said to wait
If we all breathe the same air
Why so many worldly tastes
There’s no splendor in the grass round here
It’s only lies
I stand without a cloak and dagger
But they all have a disguise
It’s been so long since I’ve seen an outcome
When all I want is to be undone
Waiting for that last straw to come

Skip the bread and wine
Give me smack and a needle
Put on some Neil, Tori, Morrison,
Or anything by the Beatles
Cause I want to die trying something new
While hearing something familiar
My soul's already black and blue
And I've lost all rights familial
If you must make me suffer
I'll take the pain
No fight or flight reflex
Just a hard falling rain
But please don't harm those I love
They never beared witness
They only are my blood
And I know they regret my kinship
Maybe the memories will surface
Once I'm in proximity to you
I know the world is divided in my fate
In colors red and blue
I just hope the heroes death
Is not a myth or a hoax
Run by merchants, Zion or media
That applauded your being a ghost
Cause around my neck is a chain
Of an unborn baby name
And in my room is a picture frame
Of a soul that seemed to hunger for pain
Cause suffering is aligned with joy
There's a scale of balance in your head
On one end there's a heart of agony
The other waits opened-armed by your bed