This trap
Creates a trance
Looking down
Things would be different
How natural is it
Inside a snow globe
Run by computers
Practicing witchcraft
As accidents happen
In cars an in houses
And the crooked ones
Create more Holdens
More scapegoats
Who’re dumber than rocks
In a storm with a raincoat
Looking up
Things should be different
As Santa claws through our heads
Our minds wish for mud dolls
What will they look like
In heaven’s matinee-
Blood on the snow
Under a blue sky

Two places at once
Factories and farms
You conquered my city
With aid and with harm

Two places at once
How I wish I could be
Got over the night before
With champagne and herbal tea

Two places at once
Churches and dives
I conquered your city
To my great surprise

Two places at once
How I wish you could be
Right by my side
Not just a memory

With orange knickers in amber waves
A coyote shadow chases you in rainbows
From green to indigo to black
From green to indigo and back

Into therapy crawl the aggrieved
Still there’s an ache behind the curtain-
The planted seed bloomed as a monster
Arising like a jack-in-the-box

Perspective surprises
When the empty takes form
Half of spirit in altered states
Meditative bliss takes two

With amber knickers in orange waves
From station to station

Cameras in the walls.
Voices in my head.
Static or feedback?
LSD in water bottles.
Poison in my food.
No harm, no foul?
Blue Typing Gibberish on Digital TV.
Blurry Radio Frequency.
Communication breakdown?
Narcs wearing rainbow flags.
Cops dressed as man's best friend.
Do you see how they draw you in?
Whispers, stares and secrets.
Friends, liars, friars.
Who is really there?
Noises in the basement.
Sadistic faces in the windows.
Where is my knife?
Laughing hyenas
Spineless Lizards
Aren't they so pretty?
Misplaced belongings.
A key that looks copied.
Can we move to outer space?
Bad cell phone reception
Suspicious men in suits
Am I guilty of something?
Trauma-based mind control.
****** hell in a bottle.
What's the formula?
Reach out Reach out
Help Help
"Would you like a Noose?"
Paranoia, Ignorance
Gnosis, Bliss
Curse or blessing?
Burn a bridge
Burn a bridge
Burn a bridge?

They took something from me
Something that didn’t belong to them
So I went to get it back
Now I’m in this place
This maze with grotesque creatures
Now I am one of them
I am the underground
Sure I’m dead and buried
But I keep shaking off the dirt
Still the dust keeps falling from the hourglass
I can’t seem to remember my past
When all I had to say is
“You have no power over me”

She put a bullet in my head
Still she hated my ghost
So she filled her guitar with dynamite
Then strapped it to my host
Thinking no one would come
To pick up my pieces
And she was right
Until I had an impulse to sing
I sung her song against her with glee
And in her cold heart
She knew she was a lover
But she was no dancer

So she turned our battle
Into the biggest school-charade
"Barons of suburbia
Cast your votes
Who likes who better?"
Till I was laughed off the stage
Started to sink to her level
Even without a body
I started to sink to her level
Just another pale face
With unfinished business

It's the poison she serves
It spreads thin like butter
On all you once thought beloved
Till it rises like black sea-foam on the bog
And as I go through my
Daily evaporations
I often wonder where she'd be
Without all her little helpers
Her elves and her salesmen
And even those who pull her strings
Did dear daddy pull her strings
Till live and let live
Became live and let not?

She on the inside of out
I on the outside of in
You think they'd be one and the same
But they're not
She was begotten
But she was forgotten
So she turned to the only trade left
Operating on deceit
******* to the beat
Of second-hand news
She can't create
So she manipulates
Turning the decay of others
Into an art form for her eyes

But she could never hold a candle
In my darkness
And I'll never tremble at her words
They're adjectives, not verbs
And she may set my robes to shame
With the flame of her armor
But she'll never sit under the shade
Of the tree that doesn't rot
Cause I may die a little death each day
But you can't **** the same thing twice
One victory is all you need, says she
But will I see her in another life?

Tiny silver ***** are strewn across the floor
They roll this way and that, and somehow they meet
Only listen now if you're abhorred
By those with hearts frozen in concrete

You're a snowflake
You're a riverbed, baby
Degraded, serrated
A membrane that's in pursuit
Of nothing trivial
You've got energy
You've got your own order
Nevermind the hoarders
Of organization
You're a tornado
You're lightning, baby
Striking, frightening
A light that can't die
From something miniscule
Stay like an icicle
Frozen in the cave of a volcano

Tiny silver ***** are strewn across the floor
They roll this way and that, and somehow they meet
Only listen now if you're abhorred
By those with hearts frozen in concrete

A giant was killed by his little friend
Bang bang, the vessels burst
And as the former faded fast
The second, his brain went dead
A black vacuum came
And all their atoms shot out fireworks
They were reborn in different form
One of their cells a cyan sphere
Bouncing through the veins
And as the new creature weaves a blanket
For its cold, lonely lap
It ****** a finger and species perish
While the rest stay trapped

Constantly different but always the same
Frivolously wild and cautiously tame
I’m both your savior and your bane
You hate to love me and you love to hate
I can’t predict these things under the sun
I lose every time that I have won
I’m everything you know and I’m none
A million faces belonging to one
I’m the crone with a maiden living in my heart
And I can see all those sparks in the dark
And I feel the ghosts that roam in every park
And I know the best lies are swift and stark
While you look down at what is wrong
Eyes jeering at someone with a different drum
Soon it’ll play you in the long-run
Healing all wounds and defeating all tongues
Where is the lantern of severest truth
Where is the counselor cut in two
I need an answer, please reach out soon
Feet tied to earth, head bound to moon

Boastful cat
Saturn rain
Night is dull
Dull blades still slay
City craves rustic sway
And these white houses
Are the grave
(Thunder brings a night of lust
Christmas lights are empty trust)
Should've been a raindog time
But the clouds had fate for eyes
Someone shot a feverish arrow
And laughed as I went blind

Pink room
Red womb
Blackened heart
***** spoon

Opened my eyes -- The mirror fooled and did tricks on me -- Pelicans and temporary ghosts -- Like a pleasant phantom come to visit -- Until it reared its ugly head and showed its face -- It took all my grace -- Swan lake -- Sky high -- Pace and word -- Makes clear as it distorts -- No war and peace -- Foes and cohorts -- Just everything you've adored and everything they'll abhor -- And nothing more -- Should have put thoughts on paper -- Couldn't hold a pen -- Three days of geometric chaos -- And a lifetime of no symmetry -- Should have never reentered the cave -- Shadows on the walls -- Filled with tattooed luck -- Now I'm Cecilia in a bathtub -- Waiting for the inevitable -- With demons on my shoulders -- Incubi atop me -- Genies above me -- Elves behind me -- Dirt below me -- And cult claws on my walls -- Stuck in symbol-land with constant mock cymbals -- TV laugh-track plays every step I take -- Sterile and over-sensitive -- Can't ever get numb -- Screaming babies and French sirens -- Eureka's ball court -- Xibalba's darkhouse -- Doomed to rot -- Would've aced the other tests -- Eating glass -- Metnal mental -- Raggedy Ann -- .Extravagant *** -- Yellow wallpaper on every face -- Painted blue for sacrifice -- Puppet overnight -- Trying to gut truth -- But so far the mystagogues have webbed tongues -- And the angels all have angles --

Dealt myself a hand I can't take back
Married to the moon with it's icy black
Now it's time to teach myself a lesson
I've gotta learn to fall out of love with you
The world is made of paper now
I'm on the stage taking a half-bow
Ceaselessly pushing the envelope
When I should be making origami
The sun is out, the earth is blooming
I'm an anti-consumer who can't stop consuming
And the boys all wanna plant their seed
But this time I won't water it

Like a ***** on a blood buzz
That surrendered to the dragon
Like Jupiter in a strange land
Water colors and cannibals
Like lemon world, minus candy
And true promise and false let-downs
Like McCandless or a Thoreau
Down a river lacking mystic
Like a soldier safe from harm's way
Watching pen-pals throw big grenades
Like echoes heard from a black hole
Filled with demons and Madonna's
Like an idea in a time warp
Full of castles and time capsules
Like a fire burning brightly
By Eskimos throwing blankets
Like Orestes punished greatly
By loud sirens in double-bind
Like a big world in alignment
With a spindle made of chaos
Like paisley love remaining still
While new age brings adhesive hate
Like a black swan, last unicorn
Asleep during apocalypse
Like kind vultures killing a beast
Because his stripes were too crooked
Like a family unforgiving
Of an angel born of their blood
Like a bad cough in a clear throat
Of a drunk God with bronchitis

You see
But what do you see?
Who is me?
Just a computer brain
They thrive on duality
To be or not to be
And I can't trace their patterns
Even with my telescopic eye
Perhaps they've got a program
For that type of illness too
But they don't tell you
How to use it against them
No, they prefer to herd you in
Like pre-slaughtered cattle
Shaking their death rattles
In every step you take
In every moment lies a place
You'll see once again
It's not deja vu
It's just them peering in inside of you
But you're no machine
You're not a circus beam
They can walk upon cause
They have crossed all the lines already
They have all took the time
Just a matter of minutes
Passed on information from the elders
That don't exist
They burnt all the books
So how can we know
If it's really about how it looks
Or how it feels
How can we tear apart
The inevitable lies and starts
There is no beginning
There is no end
Look outside your window
Nothing has changed
Except three little birds
And two little trees
And one little piece
Of stolen geometry
Don't meet your maker
Meet the architect
He's the boss
He foresees the costs
Of everything that
You once cherished
And that you lost
You can claim you have it all
But you most likely belong
In a store window
Heaven and hell
Outer-space or underground
You decide

Tree split right down the middle
Between grey-black storm clouds
And a yellow lush meadow
Blame it on the lightning
But you should know better
Blame it on the fact that
The roots needed to get wetter
But we all know the division
Was caused by the incision
Of curiosity in paradise
And a clock with a nasty vice

*I set the two earth candles on the mantle without a care
Then placed Saturn in between with a Japanese flair
Unintentional, but I was setting myself a trap
We're all puppets basking in the orange-glow aftermath

"Because cowboys and snakes are my kin"*

Because I feel volcanoes in my skin
Because I've sinned
Because I want to get in
Because I've already grown...

Nature replicates in sets of eight
Deviating ends of the weak and the great
Chemical stew makes memory fail
Chemical brew makes brain inhale
Do the push, take the plunge
Absorb the agony like a sponge
Can't map the contradictions
(Is there truth in fiction?)
Give up the blood and give up the ghost
Reaching out to them that hate you most
Couldn't even reach level two
Divy up the army between red and blue

Pieces slowly fitting
But puzzle never solved
Reaching out to nothing
Only one resolve
Listened to a hero's song
'Bout a thousand times
But wisdom never sank in
Too much focus on the rhyme
(Prayed for the night, for the very first time
But night never came
And the rain falls on everyone but me
Cause nature's got a few tricks up her sleeve)

Imperfect circles, always imperfect circles
(Autumn angel gets their wings)

Fate will find you on a still, moon-filled night
Lying on the shores of a black pool of ink
So you dip your pen in, and then you begin
To slowly lose your ability to think
But chaos bubbles up, the reversal of all order
The mind begins being pulled apart by the senses
Desires may enter your ocean but should never move it
Still, in the daylight, the urges are relentless
So I pray, let me be pale-faced
By a white dwarf illumination
Let me lie in a dreamless state
Process of elimination
And when my nightmares are relinquished
I’ll chant something like OM
Wishing I’ll return to the stars
My one and only home
Where’s your vantage point
In the empty jungle of space
Lick, chew, ****, swallow
The moon contains our taste
So are you here to conquer,
Destroy or explore?
Find the baby in the bubble
And open up the door

I'm a used up *****
Who's running out of band-aids
Name any emotion under the sun
But I've bet you've never been burned like me
So you do your strut always two steps ahead
Thinking I don't smell the poison sitting on your tongue
Like I'm ******* oblivious to bitterness
Welcome to the world of the sold and bought
So if you got something to say
Unleash that beast, be brave
Cause I bet a million bucks
That your heart's a *****
That's been waiting to show its true colors all along
Hey honey, you should thank me for the place you get to put your rage
And Job's Coffin looks down on the both of us
But go believing everything you haven't witnessed firsthand
And put a price tag on your dreams

Her arrival comes
When the winged-ones
Are all gone
What an ironic
Punishment
Love and war
They were supposed
To conceive
Something we earthlings
Call peace
But it seems we’re still split
Into sects of save the trees
And warrior’s armor
How’s it possible
To violate one’s own will
Did you?
Did you?
Bright shadows remain a mystery
Mystery always equals death
But despite her injuries
She still hasn’t left
Peccavimus
Is written on Venus
As the crowd throws
Old tomatoes on her stage
Chanting ‘he’
In the name of progress
In the name of
All that they can’t understand
She’s made of all the skins you throw away
She’s made of all the skins you throw away

Cut wide open
Vertical
Is how I’d go

Society
Being civilized
Is not meant for this animal

So take me to the hospital
Donate my body
Just sing me to sleep
As I fade away

The good heart
Is open for business
But they’re no buyers
A bowl full of liars
So I guess I’ll cry
For the world and for my life

Cut wide open
Vertical
Is how I’d go

Midori trees and

Verde fields, no greenbacks on

Emerald Isle

I am a masculine goddess
I am a patriarch with an unborn child
I am a black sheep with the wings of a swan
I am not graceful, I am not ******
When you find me most amusing, I'll use you as my muse
When you play games with me, I'll pretend I don't have a clue
I am everything and I'm nothing
I know everything and I know nothing
I'm never in bloom; but I'm not the thorn you ***** your finger on
I grow like weeds, pretty in color, that you feel the need to destroy,
But I keep coming back
You try to stick me in maze while you harvest the corn
But I recognize the seasons of both sowing and reaping
I'm a crooked tree with branches reaching out towards the sun
I know the end will come, I know all things are one
Spirituality turns me on, and I can smell black magic a mile away
I know the art of getting by
And I know how to feed the fire with words spoken from a pure heart-
This is my gun with many bullets and only one chamber
This is me-
I live and die through each and every moment....
You can always visualize your revisions.
But you can't revise your visions.

There’s voodoo in New Jersey
And I’m losing brownie points
There’s a devil in the pine barrens
And he’s looking to anoint
There’re the dark suburban houses
With their cookie-cutter frames
There’re child-bearing stickers on mini-vans
Filled with kids who need taming
There’re bus stops reeking of poverty
Filled with those who aren’t well-groomed
They’re fast food places and strip joints
Where food and *** are consumed
They’re people who are evil
Living in this wretched state
Socio and ******-paths-
And everyone’s related

Crooked, Tempest, Spineless F*ck
The worst intentions with the best of luck
****, Take, "Pancake"
Consume, Devour, Fire in the Lake
Do yourself once in awhile,
Let me be.
Mosey along, claim to be free
Pocket full of posies and stains on your knees
Give in to what they want,
Cause it's all you ever knew
Pockets full of knives and blood on my shoes
Do yourself once in awhile,
Let me be.
Arrived in new lands, to conquer or claim?
Call it your home, I wish it your bane
No more identity, no more home
Pining away from cracks in the throne
You stole something I could never own
Do yourself once in awhile,
Let me be.
This carcass is dead, you've bled me dry
But there's more to these bones than meets the eye
Maybe one day you'll dig me up
Uncover the mystery amidst the muck
Than I could tell you the difference
Between saving a life and living a lie
Do yourself once in awhile,
Let me be.
The Polygamist and his Pharmacy Keys
"Worship me or you'll catch my disease."
I'm crawling on the ground but I'll see you in the sky
Where the ship will abduct, and Sophia says Hi.

He makes up the melody
She writes up the songs
Wailing for the universe
She thinks about the wide world
He complains days are long
Wailing for the universe
She drinks the holy water
As he breaks up the bread
Wailing for the universe
He works out his heart
While she plays with her head
Wailing for the universe
She looks for friends on the bottom of the ocean
He seeks them in an eyeball glass
Wailing for the universe
He can’t anticipate the future
She can’t forget about the past
Wailing for the universe
He waits for the white-out
While she blacks out a lot
Wailing for the universe
She prays for death of time
He thinks ‘she loves me not’
Wailing for the universe
She worries in the next life
That she will be feared
Wailing for the universe
He’s never been estranged from love,
But it’s strange to wipe her tears
Wailing for the universe
Surely, that ruler of airwaves
Has once upon a time
Wailed for the universe
He can pick up the tab
But he can’t commit the crime
Wailing for the universe
So if God decides to test you,
Better hold that faith steady
Wailing for the universe
Till the day that truth will come
And save you if you’re ready
Wailing for the universe

Once upon a time
There was a kaleidoscope of colors
But I only longed to see the white light
I was waiting for grace
Soon it was med-time before bed-time
And a bunch of pills under the mattress
And an insatiable *** drive
Coupled with a sweet tooth
Speak now or forever hold your vices
Dream of the wise men, the stars and the spices
The promises we keep even after death
As everything breaks down in a red bubble bath
Pillow fights and report cards
Off-white lab coats and crazy blondes
Only the end of the book knows best
Even God needed rest
Slit vertical and split the scars
Go and begin your journey to the stars
Sweat out your demons or pray that they beat you
Hope that the friendliest shark will eat you
Ride the wild horses into the darkness
Gaze at the twisted Mandela on the ceiling
Fight the minister in a wrestling match
Self-destruct once more, this time with feeling
My Pangaea ultima is falling apart
As the plate tectonics inside me collide
The craters on my skin outweigh the Grand Canyon
With nothing to lose, pain is a landslide
A chemical imbalance, a childhood trauma,
An improper diet, heterosexual drama-
It might seem dysfunctional at the end of it all
But some were meant to fly, I was meant to fall

Hysterical witch
Demonic *****
Weak and hungry always
But mostly unbalanced
Pet
How dare you reach
For what you need
When I can
Give you what I want
Receptacle for love
Receptacle for blood
Receptacle for seed
Receptacle for everything

A new world opened up today
Right before my eyes in May
An asphalt jungle of barren space
Transformed to a marketplace
Of shaking hands and lazy feet
Of sweetened sweat drawn by the heat
Of spices, mixtures, drink and dine
Of herbs and paper, food and wine
Where freelance poets and barefoot souls
Can wonder in a wandering flow
Where worry's gone and work is done
And getting lost is half the fun
Till 'neath your soles is verde lush
And gathering is quite the rush
When singles, triples, droves and pairs
Unite in glee at what they share-
A celebration worth the fare
For exorcism of despair
And when the artificial lights
Dim amidst the stars in flight
I'll ponder in my solitude
Why blissful moments still elude

She's in between a rock and a hard place
Faces don't smile at her anymore
Old friends lock their doors
And neighbors shut their drapes
And that's all it takes to be in hell
She transformed from a lamb into a black sheep
People don't smile anymore
Digging deep at the core
Of a rotten apple seed
And that's all she needs to never tell
What's on her mind, what's in her eyes
Blinded and traumatized
But she has tough skin
When she's smoking the liquids and
The consonants beat her down
Like the promises of the sounds
That soothe her, then leave her hanging around
By herself
Cause if you can't share love than love is wasted
Put on the shelf
By a man who swore he loved her taste
So she takes the bottle and starts to pour
Cause nobody smiles anymore
She's in between the demons and the sea
She wants to bring out her inner number three
But if you can't share love than love is wasted

Phone rings, only breathing
Landlord yelling, dog barking,
Mexican music, nosey neighbors
Long cigarette and goodbye girl
She’s absent and she’s catatonic
She’s boiling in unwanted fever
She hums as she irons unplugged
She hums as she cleans up the blood
She’s levitating against her will
She’s nailing the door shut with a candle
She’s rolling him up in a carpet
Yeah, your high horse and your sports
Are just heavy metaphors
For something a lot sweatier
****** Made Her Menstrual
You supplied the weapons

I blacked out
And all I saw was white
It was all too radiant
Next to the plastic lying around
He took me for a walk
The panic subsided
He on the hunt to look like my hero
Me on the hunt for a place to hide
His camera
His camera
He showed me his camera
He told me he took advantage
Like a crazed wounded man in need of a bandage
What was I supposed to think?
What was I supposed to think?
What happens to privacy when
The flood gates of a lens open
And you become a circus prize
To anyone who feasts their eyes
Like a drink before the plunge
Like a needle between the toes
Like ignoring your gut instinct
Like a slowly wilting rose
I just want forgiveness
For the drug still in my body
I beg and pray for mercy
For the drug still on my body
I just want high ceilings of endless sky
And bedside manner from the trees
And whispers of ancients on the breeze
And when I get lonely I’ll get down on my knees
I’ve got millions of questions pertaining to why
I got friends I’ll see in another life
I got false hope but it gets me by
And I run like the devil’s chasing me

California gold-rush blues
Got you pretty thirsty
Where's tank girl when you need her
Saliva thick
Lump in throat
Tongue swelling
Neck swollen
Can't breathe
Drowning
Shrinking skin
Hallucinations
Eyelids crack
Tears of blood
Leather-purse face
Amputated lips
Nose withered
Eyes trapped
We're all exported and exploited
Sold sanely cheap
Used how the rich see fit
Dead in one week
Ecosystem crashing
All for their mansions
Filled with rooms they never use
Profit ******
We see oceans through our windows
97 percent
97 percent
3 percent for you and none for us
Little boy is drinking bubbles
But it ain't champagne
It's dead dogs and fetus juice
Dog dogs and abuse
Where are the wetlands
Where are the holy springs
Soon we'll all be Atlantis
Just another lost city
Soon we'll be living
In underground caves
Like cowards
We all want roses in our garden bower
But the best heroes
Might as well be slaves
Global desert
Without rain
Green turns yellow
Here come the earthquakes
****** forest
Rest in peace
They erected cities
In your memory
Cartels and shades of grey
Vivendi, Veolia
Machines with no soul
Privatizing blue gold
In their corporate quads
Woe to WTO
The new colonialism
Coca Cola 7-Up
Sorry but your time is up
Destroy everything you touch
When it's gone
Get up and leave
Destroy another planet
**** and conquer
SLAPPing silly pointless fools
Transporting silly tools
Shooting all the people's people
Got to pull up the roots
Bullets through lace curtains
Has a ring to it
You spineless cruel leaders
With your oil rivers
Well you've made a rival now
World map's changing underground
Alternatives are scarce
Purity is all but lost
Path of least resistance blocked
Metamorphosizing clocks
Circulation down the train
Don't drink the red water
Just pray for rain

Junk monkeys with leather whips
Bearing a new crucifix
No more worries ‘bout impotence
When *** means to devour
Accidental elegance of fate
Minus some extra water weight
This new hunger has the taste
Of never laughing freely
And Jesus with his puncture wounds
And fingers stretched like on a loom
The tales among the tall weeds grew
The killer is the martyr
And all the iron butterflies
They sit around the fireside
Learning to evolve the night
Under a lava-moon
Stumbling down the lost highway
Groaning trees exalt your sway
With crimson chins, no time to pray
Racing with the morning star

If Alice stayed in Wonderland, I wonder what she'd find.
Would the revolution come? Or would we stay in double-bind?
Did Carroll have a migraine? Or a tumor in his head?
Is violet the favorite color because blood was meant to be shed?
What if a brunette fell down the rabbit hole? Would she even fall?
Or would she be too busy speaking to clouds, which speak to us all.
Would the Hatter be a shaman, or a schizophrenic fool?
Would he be put away on Earth, if indeed he broke the rules?
Would Alice have encountered serpents? Or was she bit from the start?
Would her sword still be a weapon? Or an inverted cross?
Did she believe in holy spirits, and evil that impaled?
Did she believe in gender wars, where zygotes did prevail?
Was there a sun in wonderland? Was it the biggest star?
What if Bethlehem had no nightfall, would they still see It from afar?
What was Alice's sign? Or was she the bulls-eye?
Or perhaps she was the 13th sign, and therefore never cried.
Did she recite the alphabet, and wonder where the letters lie?
A Beast, Love Man, Your Death, Count ZzZ's... (Don't be surprised.)
Is every day a mental health day in Wonderland? Do they believe in Halloween?
Do they remember past lives, as they remember Alice? Do they celebrate Christmas Eve?
If the Queen of Hearts was cut in half, would a question mark remain?
Did Jesus make a big mistake, and so we live in vain?
After the dragon's death, did Alice get bored?
Or did she start to play with pitchforks, knives, spoons and swords?
Did Alice believe in God? And was there knowledge in the tree?
And was this knowledge poison, or did it set her free?

We all have wounds
That will eventually **** us
On one side they’re saying surrender
On the other, don’t give up

The happy people cheer you on
Expecting you to fly
But you’re not ready
You must let the days go by

It’s so tiring-
Trying to be normal
A child knows
What his parents need him to be

Die for tomorrow
Escape from today
Give everything to everyone
Live and let play

Life deals you in
Death bails you out

In School
In a pool of cliches
I meant to define myself
I meant to stand out without trying
I meant to excel
But without that skill
You simply rebel
Or repel
Laws of attraction
Simple, really
They preach us to learn
But really they meant
"Know how to burn"
Classy, lightly, a flicker
Don't fade out
Last till you're blue
When you're blue
Wait till the burn-out
Don't wet your naive fingers
Even if it takes a million years
That or take an occupation
A job
(More like Job)
Endure your suffering
Put air into a dead corpse
Celebrate Columbus day
Know your atoms
Twenty-six times none is Eight
And it flows and flows
But they don't show you
The importance of rivers
They don't show you
The importance of clouds
They don't show you
The importance of being shrouded
In an aura all your own
They just show you how to blend
Mix of wool an apartheid
Don't blend, just weave
Breathe in, breathe out
That's all you're made to do
Breathe in, breathe out
And be happy to die
Just be happy to die

We could have it made
An everlasting spark
From coffee to the bed, or none
From lightness into dark
We could touch with our fingers
Or with eyes of fire that catch
Our kid could be an Einstein
Or an egg that never hatched
We could swear upon the nothing
Or swear upon our graves
An everlasting spark-
We could have it made

So why the disconnection
Didn’t think we could be bought
But someone’s put a coffin out
For our many thoughts
In my mind we’re holding hands
With views of a free bird
In your mind you’re too afraid
So you choose to join the herd
Now my heart’s in pins and needles for you
My feet are cracked and bruised for you
For clearly I have fell for you
For clearly you never heard the bells
The fire in our heads is defeated
By the fire below your waist
And when the feeling’s not mutual
I feel like Ophelia
Watching you Judas me
With a Russian accent

We could have it made
An everlasting spark
For you

She had eyes the color of planet earth
And I’m sinking as I climb
Can’t give this feeling a name
When your dead, dumb and blind
And the television-
I swear it’s trying to tell me something
And the world outside-
I swear it’s dying to see me weeping
I’m not ready but I’m ready
I’m ready but I’m not ready
I’m ready but I’m not worthy
I’m not worthy and I’m not ready
Illuminated but still in the dark
I’m fighting off demons in my dreams
Dangerous it is to dream by day
But that is my reality
They keep pushing me
They keep chasing me
They keep following me around
Following me around
They’ve got their high beams on
I look to the stars
And I’m ready to go upstairs
But they’re trying to run me down
And then, again, I’m not ready
Not ready to die this way

You ask me to come out of my shell
But not completely
You needed a footstool
With words you beat me
The things you said
I never asked to hear
It looks like the salad days are near
Again
So I thank you for reminding me
That the quickest way to doom
That the quickest way to tombs
Is love
And love, it drips with pent-up white blood
I helped to release it
Got rid of your headaches
But now all you need is your own hand
And her picture
Now our plane is going down
The people are screaming
Wide-eyed out the windows
I reach to hold your hand
And follow your gaze
To a blonde faceless maze
Yeah, it looks like the salad days are here
Again

I walk through walls
But I can’t find the door
They see right through me
But they don’t know me at all
Like a candle swaying in a dark room
Help me find relief from a long day
Night can never come too soon
Cause in sleep I have no words to say
So surreal and so delicate
Nothing’s perfect but nothing’s a mess
So extreme and so fragile
Wonder why I’m wearing a white dress
And like a lighthouse by an ocean
Guide me to relief from a long night
Day seems like the right potion
Cause in sleep my fears take flight
I walk through walls
But I can’t find the door
They see right through me
But they don’t know me at all

Skating in circles on a blank white canvas
A sliver sheet of paper on the universal tray
I look up to the antler branches and I mourn
I touch my head and feel a crown of thorns

On a diet of raw mud and thawed tears
In the wrong sort of spotlight for so many years
When will their perception see from greater heights
When will their shades of color return to the light

Not looking for a mate, I’m looking for me
What once was whole’s been cut by a thief
We must all be born, as little aliens
What happened to the white magic, please

Now I’m begging for some change and I’m starting to bleed
Blood falls heavier than tears, but both rest among the leaves
Now I’m begging for some mercy and I’m starting to believe
I should lick his salty tears and kiss his wounded feet

In a thunderstorm
You took my child away
Offered me a crystal ball
That turned into a snake
All you wanted was forever, you say
My eternity as queen in your dark maze
Walking through walls
And illusions by the pound
Should have known to make a left
When traveling underground
A clock with thirteen hours
And no end in sight
A reversed staircase
A devious mind-fight
Up or down
A princess gown
A rotten apple
Hypnotic castle
Everything keeps changing
Warped and rearranging
Lies that are flawless
Distorted and lawless

I'm tired of all these fake backbiters
Their petty tongues can't ******* desire
It lies beyond these dives and old tires
Beyond the earth and the funeral pyre
Cause every pair of friendly eyes
Contains a knave, a *****, a spy
They salivate on the juice of your mistakes
Pry open your wounds, so they can smile
This wicked little town is full of dreamers
Local hopefuls, kind souls and believers
Also known as calumny beamers
Bankrupt spirits, synthetic schemers
So pardon me if my presence I detract
Rather face the Tree than a talebearer's fact
You curse my organs, my ornamental torment
So from the Shadow, I'll never look back
Humiliation is the purest ruse
It's all fun and games until someone gets truth
But these stigmatas will turn to bruises
And from this place, I'll be destitute
A real friend
Always gathers up ammo
Incase the end comes
Guess I never got the memo

No one came before them
The original gangsters
Took a leap of faith
Found nothing is fixed (perhaps)
Silent progression an its svelte curved finger
Starting our engines, we dived through the door
Roaring regression, salute of four fingers
Down is the price that we paid to stand up
Back to the bricks, carved in a niche
It never told us we'd have to buy shoes
Flashes of future opened a portal
A game made of blocking, where no one can lose
Born with our minds blown
We've sure kept our eyes on the prize
Even dumb, dark and pegged
We'll still have our picture books
Our consciousness needs a hug and a kiss
Incinerate cyclic denial
Insinuate a means of escape and
Psychically break with your own form of exit

Stuck in the jaws of life
And she's got bedroom eyes
The candle's burning cinnamon
But I don't know where she's been
And I sense something eternal about her gaze
But I feel something infernal about her ways
Cause I made a silly bet with Saturn
And now I've lost track of the patterns
That gave my life meaning
And gave nature's face a gleaning grace
I've already been in the garden, the place
Where all veils consist of a thin piece of lace
But to me, she looks like the May Queen
Wearing a mask to disguise her motives unseen
But my heart is stronger than my reign
She will always be my window pain
That I lean on whenever I feel the shame
That comes from the souls that fall
In every drop of rain

Wisdom suffered and had a baby called the world
Confusion became earth
Terror became water
Grief became air
And fire just because

I want to get that warmth back
I’m sick of being ice cold
But with everything I touch
Cobwebs drop from my fingers
Said I want to get that fire back
So sick of being ice cold
But everywhere I go
I simply shrivel up
And all the boys are missing
But one
He keeps coming back, showing up
When he’s not wanted
The masculine goddess
Keeps calling my name
Still I’m stuck
Went underwater, swam in the lake
Hoping to embrace fire once more
Somehow it’s gone astray
I want to get that warmth back

It’s us against the world
We partook in society’s bad habits
Just to see what was missing
But the treasure was empty
And we found each other
It was all a test
And will always be a struggle
But as for now,
We’re passing with flying colors
There must be a God
Because miracles happen every day-
When someone believes in you
And has faith in your future-
The hope that an apocalypse is just a sunset
And that mornings always bring a fresh start
There will always be tests
Always be struggles
But as for now,
We’re passing with flying colors

I met a man with lifts in his shoes
Watery eyes and a clicking tongue
As I washed my hands, disbanded
He gave me some dreamboat advice
And a house to go with it
He said to follow the money trail
Up an up an up you go
And freedom means never
Having to go to trial
And don't forget to stay
Underestimated
And always **** them with kindness
He lives in a pre-war clock tower
It's a family building
But he loves the twentieth century
His associates are beautiful
But in my dream they were made of cardboard
Cause he made my girlfriend cut her curly locks
And paint one wall yellow
But now my plain Jane has delusions
She can't stand mirrors
And claims he shot the angels on her shoulders
With an invisible gun
He said vanity is a perfect eight
As he rubbed his pinky ring
He knows the root of every game tree
Still he loves to test me
It gives him a shiny glow

He sang, "Soul mates never die"
And I thought of why
I never deserved one like you
We were far from perfection
We avoided the reflection
That the outside world at us threw
But I want you to know
You're the closest I ever came
To knowing how it feels to be alive
Even at my lowest you made me feel high
And he sang, "Love is watching someone die"
And I thought about all the bleak hospital stays
But also of how you held my hand through all my little deaths
Lending me your spirit through each and every breath
And now that we're at the peak of the ultimate test
I want to promise you that if you need sleep, I'll give you rest
If you need passion, I'll give you all my fire
If you crave a quick fix, I'll quench your desires
If you need friendship, I'll give you love
I'll always give you love, cause that's how it began
We don't have to define ourselves or play pretend
We shouldn't have to care if to others we don't make sense
Cause we both know the puzzle pieces fit
We are both losers, weirdos and misfits
And the world will never know our story
Cause we are entwined through shame and through glory

I hate these walls
And I hate this town
And I no longer want
To be around here or anywhere
So my mind goes to bathtubs
And kitchen knife drawers
And the pile of rope
Dad left on the floor
And medicine cabinets
An a brown paper bag
With a short note attached

What will it be?
Option A, B or C
I never was good at choosing
When it comes to me
I try to shut it off
Try to make the grand leap
But before I know it
I’ve fallen back asleep