And the prophets all dressed in their Sunday's best,
Waiting for the secret of the sacred test
While the little red birds and the ******* crows
Sang a tune, "One above, one below"
And as she whittled the knife cross her wrist,
She came across an ancient tryst
A place she knew from way back when;
The place she knew that she would end
It had hands like hers, and vulnerable eyes,
But the mind did not shake, the soul not disguise
It drug her away from the beady-eyed ones,
While she stared from below with a mouthful of guns
It took her away to a quiet room,
Where around her was no one she knew
She turned to look at its face, but only emptiness
She turned to ask it a name, but only vagueness
And what did you mean when you said you had a dream
Full of colorful squares and the butter king?
And why did the man drinking gin from a can,
Provide such a riddle on the night of the ******?
"He'll come to you in chains, so take what he gives"
Does this mean that I'll die, and he lives?
Is redemption the path for the doomed and the great,
That comes only when called upon by your fate?
Where then is this world, with chips, ruffles and pearls?
Where is my ticket to? Heaven or Hell?
Either way, I'm not meant for this realm,
Where I'm flying blind with no one at the helm
The haunted attic days are over
No more crimson, no more clover
The lollipops are frozen, the crisps have turned black
They possess everything; I only love what I lack
So rid me of here, or obliterate it all;
Being "self-contained" just isn't my call
I could be strong and keep a tight trigger,
But these unborn chicken voices are bigger

You brought me a monster disguised as a mime
Said it was my time to get it talking
I pondered what great a gift to set something free
While in the shadows you put blood in the water
Then fed it to me

I remember lips moving, but never the words
I remember immobility, but never the verbs
(How two-faced is instinct when masked
With a drug you've never tasted before?)

I thought I had shaken this feeling of quiver
Until you delivered me straight to the sheep
Who immediately sank their teeth and grinned
They still had fleece: The joke's on me

At the same time your obsession wavered
Said to savor the memories and the mystery
For what I didn't know would **** me
And so your hands are clean

But I knew something too
A sober fool- yes
But even drunk on your first elixir
I could see through you

Kept coming back to catch you in the act
Partaking in your habits to appease your false politeness
Until it painted my world black-
But I was so close

Just wanted to know a piece of you worth saving
But you feared my mind's sedition-
You mistook napkin stories
For published ammunition

And so gained pleasure in wetting your fingers
And putting out my flame
Keeping secret tallies with your body-snatchers
As to when I'd burn out and fade away

But what you never told them
And will never tell the future
The truth-
Your scars may be invisible
But fire burns in fury when it's blue

So I'll be waiting in my exile
Till the end of days
When the haze has lifted
Your spell has broken
And the Creator returns to its rightful owner

Death stuck its tongue down my throat
The day you waltzed into my life
I should have felt the universe's tempo erupt
But I was too busy fulfilling self-prophecies

Luring with your lore
The diabolical trickster
I would have had an alibi
But you led me to the woods
You said, "Follow these bread crumbs,
I'm right by your side."
But when we arrived,
You blew the house down
And as I watched the Jack of Hearts
Fly away like a destined balloon,
You threw me in the oven

I just wanted to know what I stood for
You spelled it out for everyone
Psychological warfare bends
Now you have my friends
In your sweaty little palm

You're Warhol in a freezer
Conducting Gold with your disposable
Tin-foil factory
They postulate and worship you
While you jam their fingernails in soil,
In smack,
On steering wheels of junk Cadillacs
But your exploitation is a little less divine
They'll build statues in your honor
But their names never graced
The pages of your diary

I couldn't help but ask
Where did you learn such deceit?
Did the antichrist tribe transform you?
Or did a brainwashing cult abduct you?
Did dear liberty project a monarch on your crown
Then steal your head away?
Someone had to teach you the tactics of the dead
Otherwise I wouldn't be here

The ****** who never loses his shirt
But fights *****
Who thinks he's a sun god
But never could see the ice on the moon
You're nothing but a blurred photograph
An insect in amber
An unborn fetus
A ghost
You could have had your revolution
But you chained all the orphans
And crucified her on a telephone pole

As the moon peeks out from beyond the clouds
I'm proud to say I might live another day
Stress has aged me beyond my years
A lethal equation summed up by fears and tears
I can't make them love me
So I paint on a smile
Fake it till you make it for awhile
They're all mesmerized by the city lights
But I think I'll just look towards the sky
Cause in my dreams you sent me messages from the deep
You asked love or money,
What would I prefer
But I chose you and your vibrant moods to
Bring me back to life and to remember
There were two champagne glasses there that night
Are you my destiny in the next go round?
Are you unhappy underground?
The football games, the empty space, the elegant waste, the promises you made
Cause mansions don't make someone rich
And the ***** of it all is that we never met
But I won't forget you-
A cradle in a bad mood. a comforter of all those you see right through
So come back to me
I'll pay you back times three
The quarterback in dreams
We will discover God and ask what he means about redemption

If I knew exactly what went down
Do you think I'd be here safe and sound
No, I'd be somewhere inhaling dirt
With a system that no longer worked
Cause old friends and strangers both
Have thrown chunks at my head
Some pieces are filler
Some say I'm better off dead
An all their eyes have dollar signs
Like they've just drunk the kool-aid wine
And what else can I do but say
Take what you want, don't delay
But if you want blood off your hands
You must fill me in on me
The ravens and the ravenous
Perhaps they're waiting in the mist
They'll make it look like Shakespeare
And thank me for playing
But when to be or not to be is cut off
By the information source
Well, how much more ****** up
Can it get
It's the last person you'd expect
But someone's got feathers
And rabbits in a cage
And a fetish for leather
And a man told me once, with a smile
He killed a girl in his basement
He buried her in a plot of land
And he went crazy
And this girl told me once, with her eyes
She killed a fellow friend
Stuck poison in the needle
Made it look like an accident
And if I knew exactly what went down
Do you think I'd be here gagged and bound
And what else can I do but say
Take what you want, don't delay
But if you want blood off your hands
You must fill me in on me

If I knew exactly what went down
Do you think I'd be here safe and sound
No, I'd be somewhere inhaling dirt
With a system that no longer worked
Cause old friends and strangers both
Have thrown chunks at my head
Some pieces are filler
Some say I'm better off dead
An all their eyes have dollar signs
Like they've just drunk the kool-aid wine
And what else can I do but say
Take what you want, don't delay
But if you want blood off your hands
You must fill me in on me
The ravens and the ravenous
Perhaps they're waiting in the mist
They'll make it look like Shakespeare
And thank me for playing
But when to be or not to be is cut off
By the information source
Well, how much more ****** up
Can it get
It's the last person you'd expect
But someone's got feathers
And rabbits in a cage
And a fetish for leather
And a man told me once, with a smile
He killed a girl in his basement
He buried her in a plot of land
And he went crazy
And this girl told me once, with her eyes
She killed a fellow friend
Stuck poison in the needle
Made it look like an accident
And if I knew exactly what went down
Do you think I'd be here gagged and bound
And what else can I do but say
Take what you want, don't delay
But if you want blood off your hands
You must fill me in on me

They say you ought to fight fire with fire
They say you ought to be a good man
They say you ought to be strong and simple
They say you ought to do what you can
So I ride in stripes of green and white leaves
I ride in stripes of golden brown sands
I see in shades of red and blue lights
I see in shades of ***** amends
They cover their mouths with thin scarves and drag
The speak in weird tongues; we speak with a flag
They hide weapons well, while we reveal none
Unless you consider, at our side, a gun
And a tank, combat boots, a vest and grenades-
Our own little pretty artillery arcade
So we shot a few kids, a few wives, a few cattle
That's the price you pay in a battle
It's a part of our bodies, we do as we're told
It's them or us, no fuss, no time to be bold
So we "breathe easy," hold tight, take aim and fire
We try to forget our at-home desires
We remember our fathers, and those who died well
We remember our wives, and loves we didn't tell
We remember our home, and all we've worked for
We remember our country and all those in war.
It's part of our minds
"Be all you can be."
Shut up, stand down
Get on your knees
Always fight the good fight
Fight fire with fire
Leave all troubles at home
And don't cut the red wire

Faces
Nameless
The regulars come and go
Telling their stories slow
Drinking away their woes
That come and go
Stimulating conversation
On a brain that’s buzzed
Wipes away the rust
Foot-tapping on a floor of dust
With a pen, a napkin, and a glass
Time doesn’t move too fast
If only the thoughts could last
Seeing the future for the past
Familiar but not friendly
The bartender thinks
As he pours another drink
In a room that sinks
Faces
Nameless
The regulars come and go
Telling their stories slow
Drinking away their woes
That come and go

I have a house on a chain
It used to dangle from my wrist
It was lost and someone found it
But then it didn't fit

I strung it from a wire
Tied it loosely round my neck
But the sunlight bleached it
Still, I wanted to keep it

Pulled it closer to my heart
Collared love and neck-bone lace
Till the string was pulled too tight
I was choked but didn't die

The house took my spirit away
But my breath remained
Then came the dreams of fire
And I knew the house was cursed

Should have kept the superstitions
Said my acts of contrition
Followed all the warning bells
And realized that this house was hell

Now the matter seeps in heavy
Sandman has replaced the sun
I beg the stars, eternal rest
And, which form of death is best?

The world is on a time loop
You missed the second coming
It already happened
You already lived it
But you had no followers
No one noticed your miracles
Not a penny in your pocket
Just the riches of the heart-
Invisible to the naked eye
So you fell apart
Born without a holy family
Created with a fragile soul
Gazing at the bird-like faces in the ancient paintings takes its toll

This cigarette ain't smoking
This bottle's missing poison
I've hit the wall, jumped out a window
Didn't feel anything
Am I alive
Am I alive
But more importantly
Am I dead
These words are getting sour
This touch has lost its potency
I've been to Venus, been to Vegas
Didn't know anything
Am I alive
Am I alive
But more importantly
Am I dead
Is this life worth living
Is this life a crime
Accident, coincidence
Or just synchronicity
Am I alive
Am I alive
Well apparently
I am
I am not
I am not not dead
I am

Backsliding, broken off the tree
How does one repair an ancient prophecy
Judgment begins with the good
As the wicked wait in scents of wood
And crooked generations cut all hearts
Chiseling salvation is an art
Fiery trial lit by lamps, powered by the sweat of soul
Smile, He only tempts until you lose all control
Sunshine days are over, all that remains is light-
The quest that’s worth a million murdered brides
The holy one is stuck in traffic
As future spawn make a racket
He can’t come back until no one
Mourns his death under the sun
Only then will skies depart-
Bronze mountains, horses stark
Then all the fiends will fall out of the clouds
Like mother’s water breaking on a shroud

The beasts of land came to be
One named A and one named B
They saw a palm tree
And waded through the waters
To reap the fruit of thee
But they almost drowned
Afraid of their own weakness
And to make their way back
They cut down a tree
Made a boat to stay afloat
And now their skin is turned
Basked in the heat of the burn
And she's got a lime in the coconut
Or so it says

Your opposite is evil
He has needs
He'll ***** you
Like only a brother can
Take your land, your woman
Your worth
He'll become your obsession
If you let him
While the flower-girl kneels
And prays for a man
It says you're not meant to drift
But your mind often does
Your brother is not your twin

Forget blood
Forget worries
The goldmine of
Yours and Mine
Has not been found yet
Keep searching for a
Sister…

Dancing like the ancients
From a potent wine
All those deep in slumber
Move their lips in time
The paramour is exiled
In suffering she grows
While the crowd of people loud
Harbor sins of old
The cosmic wheel keeps turning
Hardened hearts’ its fuel
The soul gains scar tissue
The judgment is too cruel
For those that go astray
Like wild children roam
Will be removed like cancer
For the curse that’s in their bones
Stubborn is the ruler
Who loses his right mind
When future grace is pointless
Death will seem too kind
The glass beads of Manhattan
The sickle and the hourglass
What on earth cannot be purchased?
What on earth has no dim past?
We circle our own planets
Like yielding specks of rock
For if we walk off our timeline
The void awaits unlocked

The only friends I have
Are scumbags like me
But I didn't say I owned them
Haven't possessed much except a birth
So I'll smoke like a chimney
Till my lungs are black
And I'll drink like barfly
Till I'm the tar I'm steppin' in
Over-nourished, under-grown
We all yearn to stay high
But secretly we love the lows
Scratch my back
I'll stab you in yours
And a man said he liked my evil ways
Double-dared me to match him up
But I ain't proud of who I am
And now there're shards in his skull
Keep your eyes closed
Like you're staring at the sun
I'll continue to bathe in holy water with
Burned retinas

Infancy, not remembered
Newborns with original sin
Mother is a vessel
Baptism should come later in
Life
Waves of temptation
Bring the proud to decay
The divine is given to evil men
Who value Greek gods and prey
Upon life
Racing against the depths
Of unforgivable time
We push death out
Of our minds
With true love

The stormy ******* of human life-
Wonderful and forgettable

Muted streetlight hovers on a glistening sidewalk
I walk in the street holding my own hand
Every day my life’s like straddling the yellow line
Between speeding cars in both directions
I never could find a palm the right temperature
I never could direct the traffic in my mind
I never could do quite anything as well as you, so
My self-worth rented a room in your head
And it plans to stay there
The hotel is snowed in
It plans to stay there
Somewhere I’m walking in wildflowers
Sharing the sun with everything I sense
But here I’m stuck, suspended indoor rust
Growing like mold on everything I touch
I never could find a complacent day
I never could direct my feet to ignore their stares
I never could be quite anything that you could, so
My self-worth rented a room in your heart
And it plans to stay there
The hotel is snowed in
It plans to stay there
And here, there are no future plans
She said, don’t you go making future plans
Their torture lingers in my solar plexus
The time has come to pray
Yeah, while they play with me

******* and a sly grin
Mixed with a glass of root beer and gin
Then the train came running through
Oh how my heart aches for you
Like smoking in bed
Like waking up in someone’s arms
Like a lamb that’s slain
Like someone else’s blood running through your veins
Like recycled air
Like photosynthesis
Like a cloud producing rain
Like a blessing that’s a bane
Like you slurring someone else’s name
Like you saying someone else’s name

Three fingers and a stylish grin
Mixed with a glass of tonic and gin
Then the train came running through
Oh how my soul bleeds for you

I hear the shriek of the mandrake
As my future dies
Kiss me under the cherry tree
So we can be lucky
A universal sponge absorbing fennel
Waiting for the mind’s revival
Cooperating with my enemies
Hanging by the cemetery cypress tree
The naked and cunning chameleon
Tries to show his true colors
As Cain the unicorn says,
“Have a good line”
She wears a necklace of opal
It ruins her spiritual insurance policy
Born from the foam of an underwater church
She emerges with St. Christopher
As the future Buddha’s laugh at fate
They pick the road narrow and straight
I hear the shriek of the mandrake
As my future dies
So kiss me under the cherry tree
I want to be lucky

I try not to be too serious
And I dress pretty casual
I may not be a porcelain butterfly
But I'm still extremely fragile

My bleeding heart could burst
If I found out you had something to hide
Do I belong on your wall of caskets
Or am I a burn victim inside your lies

Your disguise is disarming
I find this alarming
You could charm the wits off anyone

You're good to me it seems
You say you're on my team
But in dreams you do me wrong

You and your chemicals
Me and my smoke
Mix up the two
Turn a grey sky blue

You and your promises
Me and my mistakes
Mix up the two
And I'm left confused

You love me with your eyes....
You **** me with your eyes....

The sun shines angry
The rain brings truth
I know some of the answers
But I still need proof

A Dionysian craving
Caused the switch to flip
And slowly but surely
Time’s thread began to rip

They tell you how to look
How to feel, how to be
But everyone knows
Freedom’s not free

They’re all about teamwork
To scare, taunt, alarm me
I’m just about dreamwork
Myself with no army

It will end in a fog
A torrential downpour
And only in the end
Will you know the score

Hell is a nightmare
Heaven is a dream
Your words are the former
The latter is a sky-beam

Shall we cast some limbs tonight
To avoid eternal hellfire
Shall we break commandments of men
To claim back our right-hand
As the giants call our names
From restraint in Tartaroo
Shall we take it all in
And spew it out from our mouths
Shall we strum from the wrist
And watch dancers on the flame
Shall we break the laws of men
And have a soul to gain
Shall we pray for the prophet
Or for a Messiah

A thought came to me
While we were tugging at
Each other's wits
Why can't we just leave
Just get out
I've had my doubts
But won't stop
Till you prove them wrong
It's tough
This blood
It's rough
This blood
Solitary lonesome blues
A harmonica should echo
Our each and every step
Cause it's so so bitter
But so much more sweeter
Then they could ever imagine
They shatter
When they chatter
Oh, how they shatter
And Myra knew the pain
Of being upside-down
A gene that some genie's taken over
Repulsive attractive mess
I'll be me
Just stay you
And we could be ok
The sweet sting of the middle
Might be ok

Jitterbug to the beat of amnesia
A blood-red head
Dreams of Rita Hayworth, blood-money and blue keys
Landing the lead role, your face in magazines
Diamonds and pearls painted neon pink
A diner with a monster behind the kitchen sink
Look into the mirror and you see that it’s you
Walk into the bright lights of an angel city
Find a room, relax, and look pretty
The dream is broken by a phone call
Snap back to reality and begin to fall
But before you pull the trigger
Watch the box open
And let it remind you of your ***** motives

Mother nature points her finger at a flower
It blooms and wilts at the same time
No rhyme or reason
Just a changing of the season
But the moon doesn’t mix with the tide

“Do you want me?”
“Do you want me?”
Cries out the soul of a jelly bean
Who’s floating around in space somewhere
If only you could go up there

Mother nature points her finger at a forest
It burns and shivers wickedly
No rhyme or reason
Just a purging of the season
Where one and one make three

“Do you want me?”
“Do you want me?”
Cries out the soul of a jelly bean
Who’s floating away in space somewhere
If only you could go there

You point to your third eye
And raise it like a rhino
But I only hear your song
I only hear your song

You dance on stage for pleasure
But I only feel pain
And I only hear your song
I only hear your song

I can see you
If only I could read you
I breathe with you
But somehow the air is different

It grows like a tree
But is it sorcery

They turn you on
They get you in
Until
You drop out of your own free will

I can tell you're ripe
Killing me with kind
So don't mind if I just unwind
While you **** a smile-
But baby, I'm not disarmed
You make quite the cocktail
And I paint quite the picture
You don't quiet down in spite of me
And I don't pretend that it doesn't hurt to breathe
This is the way things must be
My own demented version of healthy
Your one-dimensional reality
And the silence makes three
So go ahead, do what you need to
Look up, forth, back, down but never through
I'll just slouch and smoke till I get the joke
And count the times you never blinked
Closer to my skin you were
Till things took another turn
Now I'm prying my eyes
And crying your thoughts
From heart to spine
Fingertip to elbow
Gives a whole new meaning to
You had me at hello

Thunderstorms are ******
So stand underneath a tree
Or light a candle in your bedroom and lust after the one you love

The wind is a wise gypsy
So let yourself be blown away like autumn leaves
And let the colors swirl around you

Sunshine leaves sweat and joy
So play in the daytime
And watch the white fluffy clouds turn into shapes

Nighttime brings diamonds in the sky
So look for the man in the moon
And make a wish on a falling star

Mountains are for those with kind souls
So climb to the top
And let your soul grow wings

The ocean forces you to dream
So ride each wave
While your mind evaporates

Trees are habitats for woodland creatures
So meditate with the noise they make
And feel serenity

(Savor nature in all its glory)

I’m a lonely ball of blue
And I can’t exist without my moon
I’m spinning out of control
So fast, so fast
I’m tilted
I can’t evolve
How can I solve any mystery
In a hostile world
The colors swirl into nothing
I can’t talk
You must read my body language
I take a walk
Amid jungles and ice
Is this the price I pay
For losing my mind
Shortened days of time
I’m tilted
Can’t stop spinning
Out of control
So fast, so fast, so fast

These pastels have gotten paler
You refuse to pale in comparison
I'm a tourist
As I mend the stitching of your soul
And watch you lose control
And somehow this song
Makes it personal
Makes it orbital
Makes French sirens
Sound like butterfly wings
An exotic vacation
No beaches needed
As we disco dance
In a trance of city lights
Resounding from the cove
Of secret species' who
Never do as their told
My body still aches
But I killed a prehistoric fish today

All is well if you keep
Sticking me with pins
I've already had the needles
I've already had a phallus
To suspend all their malice
Yet I still breathe warm-blooded
And cold
***** me before I ***** you
Survival of the fittest Adam’s and Eve’s
You’re all the things I want but don’t need
My seed is your worst enemy

I must have separated serpents
Somewhere along the way
Cause there I was, transformed
And I remain to this day
And how I wish
I would have felt the venom in my veins
Yeah I wish
I wasn’t the horse stuck in these reins
So I’m counting down seven years
Yeah I’m counting down seven years
Till I can reverse, or become whole
Reverse all that they stole
My situation as pariah
Became known to the body police
They came to strip me of my powers
Make me crawl on my knees
And how I wish
I would have felt the venom in my veins
Yeah I wish
I could feel both the sun and the rain
So I’m counting down seven years
Yeah I’m counting down seven years

Thought our love was built on rocks
But you were pouring sand
We were nothing but moments that
Could have been spent with anyone
Over and over I wrote the music
But you never sang along
I was your ghost in the mirror,
A prop reassuring your beauty
But reflections lie
And so did I
I saw right through you
But wanted to be the alchemist
For your heart-
Which turned out to be an
Inanimate object on your vanity
Thought our love was built on rocks
But you were pouring sand

Inside every artists's head is a ******
A dose of genius with a dash of madness
But before we get trapped in a Wonderland of horrors
We must destroy the throne erected in ourselves

The artist should rest in reason
Like gazing peacefully at a meadow
The artist should move in passion
Like a lightning storm where heavy winds blow

Artists should always be observant, like the nocturnal owl
Who absorbs daylight like the sun is its opposite lover
Moon will guide you to creation, like winged wisdom hunts its foul
(Even if you feel that night provides no cover)

Artists should smell of the earth
In all its sweet fragrances and pungent odors
There are some people in this world who won't judge you
They are the mountains, hills, plains and oceans

Inside every artists's heart is a labyrinth
A dash of true nature and a dose of reality
No wonder some of us create art in the dark
(True artists don't seek fame; they yearn to be free)

The devil waltzes into your dreams dressed like your heroes
As his demons do paint by numbers starting with zero
Or maybe it’s an angel disguised as your white lust
A messenger who gives you jewelry, diamonds, and dust
Quite possibly it could be God offering a promise ring
He silences the mighty and makes the meek to sing
Or perhaps it’s just a sad-man cloaked in all your myths
Here to give you a warning about the power of a kiss

You see the thing with dreams is, you never have a say
Of who’ll decide to sneak up, leave, hang or stay
Still all the players and the prophets come from your head
You seek up all infinity from the confines of your bed
But really all you’re doing is watching a short film
Of you existing somewhere else with different laws and limbs
So levitate or ******* or just create- it’s all the same
Every me and every you, a pawn in our own game

My Dearest Moth,
Is a baptism what I need
Or an official drowning?
I suppose both will suffice
In deep or shallow waters

But will your voice still resound
When my soul's asleep yet again?
Will its essence be able to resist rest?
Or can I count on you to keep me in dreams
Until the perfect moment comes for me to scream
"Wake me up"

Is death so sweet yet so morbid?
Are the fruits made of paper?
Is a giant bird carrying the weight of the world
With its eggs as our souls?

Do we fall and crack open
Destined for Hell
Or does the bird get tired
And drop the heavy burdens
Telling his boss we fell at our will

I'm trying so hard to decipher your codex
But the hardest part is figuring out
Whether or not you want it broken
Just keep singing me to sleep
(I prefer you over ghosts)

And you hate me
And always will
I know there're laughing
But it feels more like
A thousand daggers when
You know the gist
And not the details

Whatever happened to being yourself
Or your own worst enemy
I'm sorry if I get it wrong
These eyes are no longer my own
The world is no L word anymore
It's just not big enough

By everything, unhinged-
Money and dead leaves
Spider-webs and shattered glass
Light-bulbs and nooses
Hangers and trees
Scarecrows and Jesus
Atlantis America
Animal AI
Shoelaces and hangman-
It's all I see
In a sliver of the multitudes of me
While duality's making a killing
And the devil plays with more DNA
And I wonder how long endurance
Can outlive truth

Take control
Spin me up and away
But don't spin a web
Don't play with my head
Please don't conform
With your ears and your eyes
Use a little more brain, a little more spine
Then again, all my heroes
Have gone to milk cartons
Or simply have gone away
And while I speak my mind
The hypocrites scream diatribe
But words are all I have
And I'm just a crazy pariah
So what do they care
My world is coming to an end
And I'm not supposed to tell them
What nobody knows

The tome is heavy
The message is light
But I no longer have the luxury
Of distraction
I need purging
But they just want to get clean

There's too much I can't forget
And tons more I can't remember
And the whole world seems to know the latter-
Slashed and diced
Brain on a platter
If there's really room in the end
Maybe I shouldn't worry
But is there room for truth?
I don't want to solve the universe
I want to solve my forgone youth
And I rather hang with the crucified and poor
They don't have time for videotape and black magic-
All that's tragic
No guilt
No innocence
Just trying to survive the next ten minutes

Pregnant mind
Keeps rewinding
Going backwards in time to the
Opposite of life
So forgive me the delve, the dare
And maybe the wrong
These questions and methods replace
Bullets I don't own
And the chamber is always full

Can I pick your brain
Off the record
I got the blues
But it's not cause I don't have green
Don't knock it till you tape it
You see
I couldn't exorcise a demon
But I entertained an angel
He warned me of the secret destroyers
But without a name, a face
How do we keep the facts straight
God can land in any body at any time
And so can his other half
The dark master in white
Lays a thin-veiled canopy
Turns day into a moonless night
Had a lethal conversation
With a top-hat man
In a public place
And I can't get his smug grin
Out of my mind
Nostalgia's just bitter
Intoxicated by the trees
And these god-fearing people
Make it feel like voodoo
Religious machinery
And sunburnt souls
I'm so lost
What is deep and what is death
What is bottom when it's cold liquid
Not rock
Amnesia
Cruel euthanasia
It came
It conquered
It had my eyes for a moment
Then it was gone
I just want to go to the place
Where there is no truth
Cause there is no judge
One-legged animals
That somehow get around

I’ve tried words
I’ve tried gestures
I’ve tried tears
I’ve tried letters
I wrote you one recently
About the love you refuse
It’s all I have to give
Still I’m not worthy of you
So like the good book says
If you’re not with me
You’re on the other side
But like a wise man said
Love thy enemy
We’re on the same side

I’ve tried brains
I’ve tried *****
I’ve tried heart
I’ve tried lotus
I opened a petal recently
It revealed the love you choose
And it’s all that I can’t give
To ask, who is worthy of you
So like the good book says
If you’re not with me
You’re on the other side
But like a wise man said
Love thy enemy
We’re on the same side

Please forgive me
I’m broken by misunderstandings
And I’ve turned my insides out for you
But your eyes belong to the world outside
Your eyes…
Your eyes…

I'm shaken
But they keep trying
To stir me
Quiet echoes
Of taunts outside my head
Any therapist would disagree
I'm swallowing spirits
And it's making me sick
Prehistoric birds
Getting revenge on my walls
And every speck of paint
Is an eyeball on a stick
And I'm turning on a spit
In my ear, a toothpick
Place your bets,
****** friends,
As to when I'll get stiff
Secreting secrets
From another world
Where no one goes
To see about a girl

I walk with fire
They'll never know the burn
No blue oceans
No blue skies
No tomorrows when you're
Constantly running
To the left and to the right
Some call it feeling alive
But it's more like dying
One second at a time
Some want to follow it down
But there's no bottom in this town
And every time the sun rises
You'll put on another face
And every time the sun goes down
The past is erased
It's crawling through
The bedroom window again
I've fought it for a lifetime
So it's time to accept
It's crawling through
My bedroom window again
The angel disappeared
As I cried my last tear
Upon torn pages
And red curtains
Who's responsible
For your sins
It's crawling through
The bedroom window again

Bruised feet
A fearful heart
To Him that can’t be comprehended
Are you still carrying me?
In debt 500 years,
Forgiven but assigned a horse
Another glitch in memory-
Which one did I chose?
Or do I ride them all?
1488 tattooed on a past life
3/23, and there goes 8 again
Strange ties to Elvis
And all kings
Is this the Holy Ghost or am I speeding
The lamb under the rainbow watches and waits
As the wheel turns into a halo

Soul mates
Are stolen crates of wishes
Forget love letters
Forget drug & *** woos
All we want is a friend
Funny how friend is now taboo
Pick a pocket full of daisies for no one
No one wants a pocket of something that dies
Yet we all die
We all perish
So why does it matter what we give
As long as we give freely
Instead we take cheaply lavish
And shove it in our pockets
Of bed-posts, of lamp-shades
Of never-seen river-glades
Where we bury the bodies
Of souls we never knew
Never took the time to
Never had the mind to sense
All these warning bells and chimes
Could never recompense
For time spent
For words lent
So cheaply
We've grown so cheaply
Accept a videotape
Watch the actions
Ignore the lips not moving
Watch the actions
Ignore the edits
Watch the actions
Miss the key plot
Sleep through it
Too busy dozing off
You've missed it
We could've had it all
If only we had time
But we missed it
Me one moment off
You a lifetime

Trekking terra incognita
With some cranial damage
Below there’s tide-pooling
And no one has a bandage
There’s turbulence and opulence
There’re roads that are reeling
Floating along this obstacle course
When all I need is high ceilings

Today I set a bird afire
Didn't know the consequence
I admired their flight
Thought they were angels
But some winged creature told me otherwise

They told me to be careful
But the entire world's a playground
Still when I swing and jump and scream
I'm hanging behind bars
With those who say the answer is anarchy

My soul signs its signature in blood
Didn't know the reasoning
Behind great fires of floods
Thought it was coming
But some demon told me it's a hoax

Today I learned to speak in tongues
Didn't know I'd make new friends
I admired their voices
Thought they were comrades
But some man with a key told me otherwise

I just did disco on the Underground Railroad
Got caught in a fever from the blues
I did a jig to shake my wig off
And realized it was glued to my head
Point your fingers, supply and command

I believe
In a benevolent universe
But the people in it are the opposite
And you can’t imagine a universe
Without human beings
So there are two opposing forces
That I face when I walk out my front door
And enter the reality of the world-
One’s full of harmony
One’s a shattered society
I must have entered the earth
In a troubled womb

It's such a silly paradox
The lonely man
The island of one
Till someone enters your stage
Then you love, leave and turn the page
Cause a spirit needs to be nurtured
And most of us haven't felt that since birth
So why bother trying
When they sing freedom songs
From shackles of iron

But why not skip
On the cruelty of duel thoughts
You could be crazy or corporate
But your real father is spread wide open

I know your brain is bleeding
You rather have it broken then
Try to mend a torn hem
Living for the moment
Can make you rather numb
So you wear your jeans inside out
Hoping the future comes
Sticks and stones
Bring warmth to your bones
But words will always hurt you

But why not skip
On the cruelty of duel thoughts
You could be crazy or corporate
But your real father is spread wide open

Everyone around you
Is wearing the face of Jesus
But you see their roots
From the Judas tree
And they hit
Every branch
On the way down
Back to square one
Is back to the flora
And dumb

You were the broken boy
The misguided little toy
No one believed that you would
No one ever thought you could

But you sure got your revenge
Drawing X's on the faces of
Little girls who said they'd never bend
And now that power's in your hands
Why would you stop at Senseless Stares,
No One Cares, and Just for Fun
Why not attack The One Who Got Away
And she came, and she stayed too long

Your mouth didn't move
It didn't have to
Cause she heard you loud and clear:
"You've done everything you should
But I've got debts to pay
And my collectors think it would
Be best to delay
This game
Just for our amusement
Just to feed your delusion
Just to add some fusion
To our boring little days"

Your sewing circle of assumption grew
An immaculate consumption of a lie
Cause we know fiction holds the truth
And now the townspeople echo laughter
Everywhere she goes
Shouting,
"Look it's a freak, let's take a peek
Look it's the freak, let's take a piece,
Or why not take it all"

You got the blessing
And you had the day-old blues
She got the curse
So you hand her the noose
With a smile
And the passing of a ruse

The last one without a chair
When the music stops
The last one holding the gourd-
Pain is always passed on
To the one not willing to
Dish it out
In accordance with the norm

Now the little horror's
Slain but standing
All for the sake of judgment,
Scarlet letters and a grudge
And your summer lovin' torture party

But she never underestimated you
She wanted to believe in you
She should've hit the floor
And it should've ended there
You should've let her hit the floor
But you had eleven more stations to score

Run away with your aching
Your little savior is now
Bashed, ripped and torn
But he has designs on you
A tune to block out all the tunes
Your little girl can't play
On her pretty, lame guitar

You and your kin
Hope you all drown in all your
Videotape
Your cosmic movie
Will have an ugly face
And when you reach the junkyard
I hope she gives you paper cuts

Mountain by Mountain
Link by Chain
Tuft by Tuft
A High Crest wave
Will wash you both away

There’s a war raging on outside my back door
There’re wars running wild across the seas
But the one war that really aches my core
Is the one going on inside of me

It’s a war between the bitter and the sweet
The heart and the head
The feet and the knees
It’s a war between the wants and the needs
The ocean and the sky
The blood and the bleed

There’s a war raging on outside my back door
There’re wars running wild across the seas
But the one war that really aches my core
Is the one going on inside of me

What mirrors of sickness breed
In the tug o’ war between the sleep and the dreams
Cruelty of the bed, mercy of the sheets
Pain of a body with the soul of a beast

Van Gogh lost an ear
And ****** was born
Something tells me history
Will repeat itself
Is repeating
Roots to grow
Roots to pull up
Like the near future
My star-clock keeps resetting
Connect the dots
I don't believe in accidents
And I'm the most sane I'll ever get
Call it what you will
In the waves and on the ground
Is where I find myself
And yet that's where
The enemy lies
Or say they tell me
Another truth turned on its head
The weight of my decisions
You can't handle
Yet it's not your heart
Frozen to the mantle
In the clouds
Eyes peer down
A ***** on a mechanical bull
A cup transformed into a robot
They sure have eyes everywhere
Turning big sister into a threat
And if we're all headed underground
Why the mixed bait of suicide and peace
Danger or sleep
And if it all happens for good reason
Why the dependency on TV skies
Hearts or eyes
Read the diagram of a head
If it makes you sleep sounder in bed
But the anatomy of a mind
Will put your concrete beliefs in double-bind
Roots to grow
Roots to pull up
The future is here
Our star-clock keeps resetting

Enclosed by arbors of armor - Celery trees
But once lightning struck, one split like a banana
This violent wind moves leaves like meteors
Spiders cling to their structured creations
Feet sink like quicksand in a swamp
You let the earth’s tears heal your grief which made you wild and ravenous
It falls like the nauseating thud of a body but keeps falling until you marvel and turn yourself inside out
It falls like a fleet of soldiers dropping from a parachute cloud
It transforms the rotten into Einsteins
It puts a spark in your *****
The blinding shield of water makes your mind zig-zag between moist and dry places
Up and down the twisted staircase and up and down again
Nostalgia kills but you forget rare flavors of memories
In the storm, you learn to breathe
A burning heart is cooled and cleansed
Sorrow returns only when the sun shines in
And you find yourself a wet dog surrounded by tiger lilies