At the moment of choice
I faltered
Now there needs to be a sacrifice
At their altar

But before I go
Headfirst into the unknown
I need you to see
The true colors of me

You knew I was sensitive
To the threats in the cafeteria
But do you realize
We were all once bacteria?

I'll take the blame
For how I've made you hurt
But is it my fault that I haven't evolved
Past my time as a bug in the dirt?

I know your heart burns
And suicides need revenge
They shouldn't reside next to the daily weather
They should be mystically erected like Stonehenge

I know you feel like all the pain
Is on your side of the fence
I'm just going with my gut here
I'm just trying to make sense

I have a feeling I met her once
In a hostile, sterile place
Don't remember what I said to her
But in those walls, I let no one into my true head space

I have birthmarks on my ears
And when I was young, I stepped on a toad
One could be a sign of something miraculous
One could be a sign of a wicked, wretched road

I know your people value the color red
I know you protect those with wings
But like Saint Augustine said,
All birds have their origins in the sea

I know you cast your spells
While I say my prayers
Magic and religion were once one
Till divided on a truth or dare

The soul of the world is nourished
By happiness, sadness and envy
Our desires came from the Universal Soul
Even if they caused a frenzy

Even though Lisa said it didn't matter
I have one last thing to say before I'm done
The soul of the one you love is everywhere around you
Even if Earth is the third planet from the sun
(ALL THINGS ARE ONE)

They come to you when you weep
They enter your dreams when you sleep
They come from a place known as the Deep
They are hunters who use your salty tears to reap
All your sins
All your broken promises
All your faults
All your misdeeds
They carry their keep to the big empty
To feed the aliens, the cacti and the dusty weeds
The leftovers get poured into a stream
Which runs into the river
Which flows into the ocean
So as you look up at the clouds
In a state of love or fear
Remember that they're made of
All your recycled and discarded tears
So dance in the rain
Hear the passion of the thunder
And don't be afraid to cry
Open your mouth and taste the wonder
Of nature's pain,
The strange and insane,
The wild and the tame,
The cycle of loss and gain

Stitch these angry limbs
Before they lead us to ruin
Disengage the dancing mind
Like secrets in an empty room

The mask is coming off
Peeling air like a spinning top
Cut the cord of certainty
Till the cold wind rushes in

You hurt yourself again
Trying to dig deeper
To implode and expand
Like the universe’s keeper

I hate these walls
And I hate this town
And I no longer want
To be around here or anywhere
So my mind goes to bathtubs
And kitchen knife drawers
And the pile of rope
Dad left on the floor
And medicine cabinets
An a brown paper bag
With a short note attached

What will it be?
Option A, B or C
I never was good at choosing
When it comes to me
I try to shut it off
Try to make the grand leap
But before I know it
I’ve fallen back asleep

There’s a war raging on outside my back door
There’re wars running wild across the seas
But the one war that really aches my core
Is the one going on inside of me

It’s a war between the bitter and the sweet
The heart and the head
The feet and the knees
It’s a war between the wants and the needs
The ocean and the sky
The blood and the bleed

There’s a war raging on outside my back door
There’re wars running wild across the seas
But the one war that really aches my core
Is the one going on inside of me

What mirrors of sickness breed
In the tug o’ war between the sleep and the dreams
Cruelty of the bed, mercy of the sheets
Pain of a body with the soul of a beast

Devil plays whisper down the lane
Jump, drown, crawl or don’t remain
Meanwhile back in my own brain
I’m eating grass and drinking the ocean

Devil makes everyone the same
Reciting verse from books of Cain
Meanwhile back in my own brain
I’m flying without wings in motion

Devil’s play is always work
Recruiting souls who love to hurt
Meanwhile the last me becomes first
A subtle, strong and strange old notion

Devil’s roots are in the dirt
Making all our dreams inert
Meanwhile my heavy heart it burns
A side effect of earthly potions

Devil has gardens full of weeds
Where one plus one equals three
Meanwhile I’m down on my knees
Suffering the world for my devotion

Day terrors and inside jokes
They’re the ones that love you the most
They cast the net
You learn to forget
Wonder if it’s the same coast to coast
It’s a grave situation
Enslaved in a smile
Honesty can’t be seen for miles
So what do you do
The past never feels new
The future feels fruitless
Your soul’s black and blue

But it has to get better
Cause even hate rusts
The dust in the hourglass
Never moves fast enough
And if you were a teacher
You could teach pain
All the heartbreak in the world
In every single drop of rain