Heavy heart
Dark thoughts
Will i ever make it through this part
Fades away as quickly as it came
Just dust in the wind scattering across the plain

I have yet to figure out which is darker this pit im in or your heart.

Lets talk about the elephant in the room
Its dark and scary and likes to consume.
Towering over me with her ghoulish smile
She knows everything even your denial
Comsuming your heart and even your smile
Casting her shadows is ever so vile
Her name is depression and she will never go away.
Just hides in my  darkness just waiting to play.

Siren of song lead me to my death
Voice so angelic gets me feeling best.
Oh lead me to my death
Oh lead me to my death
Siren of song youve got me feeling best
Im coming along and following your song
Lead me to my fate at which i belong
Miles ive walked stuck with your song
Wondering if ill ever get to which i belong
My Feet are blistered and shoes have rot but here here I walk to reach your song.

Ill never admit defeat
I will always get back on my feet
As long as im breathing
Ill be victorious and ill make you bow at my feet.

Broken ship lost in a stormy sea
You were my lighthouse
but your flame died out for me.

Its a long road into the unknown
All your insecurities & all of your fears
All seem to be there and never disappear
Constant battle between the love and hate
Should you press forward or become part of what aint

Taken away to the darkest place
Where ive been trying to make my escape
Everytime i run into fate
Who brings me back to the same old place

Tell her im okay
Tell her im fine
ive just lost my mind
Thats all
Ill soon to come around
As soon as i can find my feet
To put them on the ground.

Trapped in this prison with no way to escape
I look to the heavens to examine my fate
The road ahead will be tough and full of self hate
Tired of fighting the brick wall in my face.
To end it now and bring myself home
Or sit on this thrown depressed and alone.

I loved you with all that hate i had for the world
still do but sadly you broken my heart in two.
I wonder if that ever meant anything to you.

Living life on the edge of tomorrow

My heart was broken
Shattered in two
I quit believing what was true
Ive lost all hope
This is true
Ive about lost my head
All of this
And i  say all of this
Is because of you.

Left with so much hate
I just pile it up on my plate
Forcing feeding it straight into my face

You are a contradiction running through my head

fabricated truths of the misguided youth

Lost in a daze
My life is a maze
My emotions are unfazed
My heart has felt your taze
Broken and but unscathed
Ill make it untill tomorrow
Is what i always say

I pull the bottle of the shelf
Covered in dust
I twist off the cap
I pour me a glass
Heres to me
For finally being alone
At last.

I like to sit and watch the world burn
And i dont like to exclude myself

So far from gone to get it right
Lost in the madness to even see the light
Clinging to hope like that lonely piece of thread.

All work with little time to play
Thats the blue collar kinda way

In a world full of hate be the kindness you wish to create.

The moment you walked into the room
I knew i was doomed
I could see in by the look in your eyes
I did my best not to care
The reality of what i done was in the air
I could see it in your stare
I still dont know how you feel or what we will be
But i never ment to put you in that situation
im glad we can still be friends in the end.

Here i am still
All in one piece
You thought you broke me
All a facade to say the least
I was thrilled when you let me off my leash
No more master and shadow caster
Much happier without you around
I feel bad for the next guy
Who comes walking down your part of town

I should have left a  trail or something to find my way back.
Im so far off the path ill never find my way back.

You hummed your song as i sang along
As you carried on this lovely tune
I was whisked away that very day
You hummed that that lovely tune.

The emptiness i feel is becoming more full
My emotions are becoming more dull
I have a glazed over darkness in my eyes
I hear satan calling me asking if i need a ride
I think for this moment i will take that ride.

Im the grenade.
your the pin.
We go great together
Just like paper to a pen.
Separate us...
We just meaningful object
Made to destroy men

Tell me about the webs you spin
Let me be the bearer of your sins
Ill be the judge to see if youll be condemned

Your a wildfire coursing through my veins

Fragile
Stretched to paper thin
My heart not easy to mend
Lost somewhere and dont know how it began
Cold wind blows across my blood shot eyes
Left frozen tears to withstand the sands of time.

Itll only hurt for just a second
In the end itll be pleasant.

Far back within darkest parts
I harbor a small ounce of humanity
Its with this i pull the love to give you
Once its all gone
Ill have nothing left for you.

Tick ,tock ,tick, tock
It was about 9:20 is when my heart stopped
The trust i had for you.
all the love i had & wanted to give to you
All ceased to exist.
The moment i found those two.
After the first i did my best to let it go but two more times really makes my crazy grow.
Idk if ill ever trust you again.
Heart so broken i dont even know how ill mend.
Just digging my own grave to  my inevitable
End.

This ride i take
It has no plans
Unforeseen stops by this non guided hands

Every homeless dog needs a good bone
Every now and again.

Thrown into the drakness where i fought to survive
Holding onto hope like im on the frontlines
Theirs no denying all the pain inside
So i make another cut just to feel alive.
They say pain is for the weak, id have to disagree
but the pain in loving you gots me all shades of fifty
Ah no no
Ill tell you about my sickness & how i feel inside
Itll make your skin crawl while you run in hide

Every egg cracks eventually only time tells

Tangled up with 2 serpents unable to break from their grip
I'll succumb to them both
maybe this old dog will learn a new trick

Bury the knife into my skin
Take me back to where it begans
Where im not drowning in all my sins
Youve played your part
please finsh what you start
Bury me in the cover of the dark
Under the oak tree at our favorite park
No one would give it a second thought
Bury the knife into my skin
Take me back to where it begans
Where im not drowning in all of my sins

Im scared of what could be
If i could open up to let you see
How you truly you affect me
Most importantly im afraid to love again
What pain it brings after its all said and done

lost out in a daze
I've been strung out for days
life it doesn't seem to faze
but the pain it still stays

My hardest addiction to kick was and forever will be love

Standing above the abyss
****** and bruised
Victorious one again
Big sh** eating grin
Life will not hold me down
As long as im breathing and my feet can be planted in the ground

My delusions are becoming real
my life has become so surreal
When I try and go to sleep at night
I Fight the demons that keep me up all night
Stuck in my head feeding my own sickness that I've breed
My hunger grows even though demons they must be fed
im starving them until
We all coexist inside my head.

If i ever asked you to leave would you?
If i got on my hands and knees could you?
If i asked you to come live with me should you?
If this should be an opportunity you could seize would you?

I speak to you of them demons i harbor inside
Demons ive delt with and how the effect the outside
You ask me to stop because it instillls fear in your mind
My sweat baby your the last one id hurt
You should be more afraid for people who wanna hurt you
Because i have a list a thousand pages long
Of stuff that im willing to do just to protect you