Chill night grips the bones,
snow flakes fall finding their place on stones
A man walks past, lost and alone
Each stride takes a part from his hearts lost home
His eyes a glaze, coated hopes to atone.
Searched the meaning of his name
The results yield unknown.
Collapsed into himself
No marrow in his bones
He embraces the chill
Numb to the cold.
Like the snow flakes that fall
He's at home on these stones

Disregard

I sit here in indulgence
Consuming every and anything
I smoke and drink,
With no care of the outcome.
I let impulse lead me.
My Only care is if I will burn in the flames Of the fires I set.
So Let my demise be time and let each second pass by, or better yet fly.
I'm not so weak as to take the short cut.
Ill still push through each Rutt with no **** to give.
I can take a pill and let go for a bit, then when the mood flips,
That hit gets followed by a sip,
I will say all is done, it was fun,
Lay in my solitude of who I have become, and find peace in knowing Im forever numb.

Influence

I see the world
I see all the people lost in the ****.
Consumed by the day to day facade.
Working day to day for a number on a screen.
Just so they can get a bigger screen,
hoping it will reflect the size of that number.
I see The word media
Its thunder,
with no real choice left for a real dreamer to wonder
Let the past be a trace of are hast
A quickend pase of "that's good enough mind state"
We all relate but do nothing
Market peace and love like it still means something,
But watch reality tv as if it's truth of what we will be,
We slowly form a belief
That what we see is really reality

Ending

I wait for my time to stop or for the clock to drop
Going day to day with little joy saying I'm ok
I'm not.
I'm in and out like water drops from a spout.
Find breaks in a day dream,
but reality would rather keep the light out.
So lock me in my house and let the days go bye,
I'll stay locked inside like I do on the outside.
Not literally but I'm a prisoner of my mind.
I'd move the face on the clock,
If it meant I could move times stride,
weeks, months, years from summer to snow.
Ill sit and listen as the clock ticks grow,
Ill grow old and help my body grow too.
So give me a pill, a drink, a dare, or stare I don't care I'll do any thing I have too,
I welcome letting go.
In this place and time iv realized all I have been doing is just waiting,
Waiting to die

This anger grows
It's weight unknown
I carry it on my back
Can the flooring hold?
I ration why
On my back you lie
Tho i'd gladly climb,
your top so high
And imbrace the fall,
Rather then imbrace the climb.

Sadness is nothing more,
Then memories of feelings we miss/ed.

On days like this,
Where I find no bliss.
And Every shot
well aimed,
will miss.

Yes on days like this,
where I hear a call.
Beckoning me
To face the fall,
and greet this devil.
Residing
Outside
My walls.

This devil whom
Iv come to know,
Who's hands holds truth
and who's truth holds full.

Telling stories
I feel his words grab hold
Like shadows in the shade,
They fuse to my bone.

Laying awake in bed,
Back in my home
Still a chill in the air
Lingers his icy tone.

I know it's to late
To heed his call
For he resides in my mind.
In my walls so tall.

I sit here with these thoughts
you are each and everyone.
Im infected by your influence,
the words rolling from your tongue.
You could take me or leave me.
From that I hope I can move on.
My path is crashed i'm on my back I don't think I can be that strong.
You finally drove me crazy.
I think my sanity has left.
You've been playing all these games
I'm just a piece in your set.
Got lions by the mane snow white,
look at all the creatures you have tamed.
A master of your craft,
Yet you can't recall there names.
If there ever was a second,
you had to be alone.
You would eat the red apple
so you could finally sleep alone.
Saved by the seven
Who you influence with your tongue.
Playing with there emotions
You laid rest to the happy one.
I heard you in his room,
you finally kissed the prince.
Had thoughts of dancing at the ball,
Living a story of romance.
Like growing old together.
How happy you could be.
You had every thing you wanted
Gained everything you need.
Note I wrote this in past tense
For It was nothing but a dream.
Broken and overcome
Now you know what I've been feeling.
Or are you simply numb?
Is your Heart even beating?
Did you not get your full,
From all the followers you've been misleading?
I hope you had your fun
Now Dot the I's
your stories done.
I'll sit here in my silence
Until I finally see the sun.
Your eyes where mirrors of my regrets.
Tho They have finally lost their shine.
It seems the years don't move past you.
You're all caught up with lost time.
Said you found your HAPPY ENDING,
I ask can you give me mine?
Cause no matter the day.
Thoughts of you still linger in my mind.
Ill have piece the day you read this,
caring enough to know I tried.
But if that day never comes.
Know I love you was was a lie.

Got a troubled life and a troubled mind.
All my troubles have been delt then multiplied.
Growing from it become so redundant.
Getting older all I've learned is troubles reapply.