take this an an admonition
i will serve as a reminder in
everything around you

your room - now a prison cell
my abandoned items
littering every shelf
my paintings cemented
to your walls

you’ll hear my voice
circulating with the wind
i’ll become synonymous
with rainy days

you’ll see me in every season
every errand you run
every song you hit on shuffle
lucky you, it’s almost as if i never left

I don’t think they heard me
When I said I’m not okay
No one moved to comfort me
Or light my birthday cake

I don’t think they heard me
When I said “I’m feeling blue”
I was told to “ just cheer up”
“It’s completely up to you”

I don’t think they heard me
My tear-filled wails of pain
Cuz they were soon cut short
By the angry sound
Of my first and middle name

I don’t think they saw me
When i began to disappear
I don’t think they really cared
They said
“Shes never, ever here”

I don’t think they saw me
My withered, cracking shell
“She never eats or sleeps or drinks,
Shes putting us through hell.”

I don’t think they saw me
Standing right before their face
They told me“we’re sick of the lies and
all your tears are fake”