Every love begins with a lot of hope, every love begins encase In gold
Oh you never fear what you never know will be
I remember times when you took my hand
You might as well of taken my every breath
I never felt a moment of regret till now.

I don’t wanna say what I’m gonna say, but I’m gonna say it anyway...
If you say sometimes things aren’t meant to be then I gotta go with what I feel
I gotta go with what is meant for me?

You promised to love me,
And forever we would be.
I fell for your lustful lies.
And I'm still stuck missing you.
I drink to numb the pain,
Of falling victim to your game.

Tonight I had trouble sleeping,
Because my heart was a weeping.
I am not broken
Because of love,
I am broken
Because of the world.

You're a pathetic *******,
I'm starting to feel less and less.
I know it must be hard putting up with me
Because the truth,
You never love me.

And, *******.

Sincerely,
Your Psychotic ***** Girlfriend.

xoxo

Eventhough most of the time you are a sick, twisted and pathetic,
Out of billion guy in this world I still find you…
Amazing.

Maybe I am in love with the night.
I love night talks, night walks and nightly silence.
But most of all I love night thoughts
Thoughts full of sincery
In the morning there is no sign of the man
who became friends with the darkness.

Here comes that Beautiful Boy,
Whose smile out shines the sun.
But I sure do like the way
His eyes sparkle
When he look at me.
And make me feel beautiful.

I'm a girl who is so ugly
And how could a guy ever
Love me when an ugly girl
Like me can never love herself?

It’s been a rough ride the last couple of days,
Including bumping into him this morning.

I wish…
I could run towards him and hugged him.
And if that weren’t enough,
I whispered into his ear,
“I missed you so much”.

It was an outcry for help,
An extended arm to be
Pulled out from a world of pain.

He said nothing.

Everything after that was just a blur,
And I don’t remember much.
Eventually we said “bye”
And we walked away from each other.
I never turned around.

Today still,
I have difficulties describing
What happened inside of me.
It was an emotional turmoil,
My stomach knotted.

*Somehow I got home and just fell into the bed.
Then something happened that pretty much saved me.

I have these ghosts haunting the corridors of my mind,
Leading the way through lingering thoughts of you,
I cannot seem to resent or spew hatred,
It's a battle creating a wider gap.

Lately I’ve been feeling
Like my worries are sky high
I’ve tried to conquer mysteries
I’ve tried hard not to die
Once blinded by the brightness
Yet when all I see is black
Screaming
Frantically
Searching..
Trying to find my way back.
I still carry on
It’s filled with love yet hypocricy
And ruled with mediocrity

Yearning for some order I notice patterns in the pavement
Racing lines, creating ties, crossing T's and dotting I's
Grainy memories collide with one another as I wonder
Pondering the source of my observant sense leaving life in sunder
Beautifully benign to me, remembering the sea of colour.
Yellow, red, green, purple, blue.
Colorful of wonderful sarees
the cornfields are bright and yellow
ripe with laughter
the little Indian dancers
done up in feathers
create a new world
all in my eyes.

I want to be loved, your love is smothering.
I need a man, you’re just a boy.
I want to find my soulmate, you can’t figure out what you want.

I swear the mountains were purple that day.
Endless land that ever goes,
From dawn way out to dusk.
The mists are shifting, ever drifting,
Hiding everything,
Except the mountain tops.
What’s in the mist?
What is so deep?

Madness...

When a drop of water fell from the engorging sky,
it dropped thousands of miles beneath.
A devious bequeath that upheld the tantrum,
the sky soared with anger until its utter collapse.
How I long for this pain to leave akin the December sky,
this imminent glory was only dreamed about in disguis.