My skin wears need. Like
static from an old t.v. screen-
willing you to touch.
But don’t touch me, OK?
Don’t look me in the eye,
and don’t ask.
Don’t ask 'cause I’d say yes,
when I should say no.
I’d say yes and I’d mean it.
But the whole world ‘d fall apart
after.

**** me.
Oh..yes...you..did!
****** me in a bed.
One woven of lies.
Riding me in a handsome mask,
all the while it was the toad
that sprayed me with its slime.

You held my throat,
Made me swallow all the deceit.
Suffocated me with what you called
- devotion.
Caresses hiding violent wishes.
Beating me.
******* me.
For batter or worse.
All you got was the ***** of
- I love you *******.

I want to cut the mask from your head - toad.
Tear the skin from your skull.
You are the phantom of 'love'.
Staining me with your *****.

Well, now only your ugly heart
is the only part of you that will
make me choke..

Riding in your truck,
Just you and me.
Off to see a football game.
The conversation was lite on the way there.
We talked about next year,
How great it will be to have our own house.
We talked about who we want to join us here,
How you will stay out of my way when I am having one of my "days."
We watched the game,
Saw old friends,
Met your family,
Snuggled in the bleachers.
When I said I was cold you offered your warmth,
When I said I was tired you offered your shoulder,
When I said I didn't understand this game you offered your knowledge .
On the way home we talked about relationships,
The good ones and the bad ones.
It seems we both have had more of the latter.
I can't help but think I missed my chance with you.
I wish I could go back to last year,
Make my move while I had the chance.
Now when I really see it's someone like you I want it's too late.
I wish I could have sat in the middle seat of your truck,
I wish I could have had your arm around me,
I wish you could offer your cheek for me to gently kiss.
I will forever be your friend because I still want to have at least one great guy in my life.

Black eyes that pierce,
Two dagger'd pupils fixated on my
Neck...
You see every beat of my pulse,
The circulation of pleasure- red blood,
Thrilled filled breaths...

I am being controlled,
(I ******* love it)
Frozen in awe at their..
Sharpness.
Cold chills up my spine,
Blue as your blood drained face.
You need me.

You crave me,
Me-
Whose blood your throat longs to
be coated with.
My blood that is so,
So sweet,
So full of youth.
So warm.
Drink from me,
Eat from me - please...

It is I who,
Hungers for your lips,
White daggers ******* me,
Embracing into my flesh.
I want you inside me,
Ravish away all my blood.
****** *******!
For cupid's bow is not as
Powerful.
I am not held by love,
But by your
Murderous spirit...

I am your lamb,
Kiss me,
Tenderly.
Then have my blood.
You are my God,
Devour this,
What lays naked beneath you...

Take this bread,
Drink from this cup.
For I am yours.