loaf: Poems

abyssmal

loaf May 2019

abyssmal

i'm caught in an abyss
clawing my way out
clinging to hope
but hope's gone drought
sliding down deep
into bottomless despair
how surprised am i
to find you waiting there

haha pun title funny funny

Amir

loaf May 2019

Amir

A glory to your name
Engraved in characters clear
The Sun itself imparts to your flame

dusk meets dawn

loaf Mar 2021

dusk meets dawn

I only took the moon to care for the night
I fed her water and dusted her pillars, and when the dawn came to unleash its sight, the sun himself couldn’t bear her light

Here

loaf Apr 2019

Here

Here, where my thoughts tread slow
Here, where no one dares to go
Here, my ears don’t ring
Here, I fear nothing
I like it here

im nothing but im beautiful

loaf Dec 2021

im nothing but im beautiful

I've had this dream so many times
of swans in a ****** lake begging me to drink
well I came to this lake to drink, so drink I will
this lake that takes your pain
and gives you beauty in return
this lake that takes your pain
and drinks from you in return

in these red waves reflected back a specter
a wicked image of yourself, rotting, drenched in color
the burning stench of the swans shrouded by their beauty
these swans are looking directly at you

Lilith-Abi

loaf Feb 2019

Lilith-Abi

Unfamiliar with the cradle
Stranger so to mother’s lullaby
Lay bare your guilt here on the table
Hush now don’t you cry

Stolen from me the right to know my past
Yet still I hope that as the storm roams off
Perhaps I may understand at last
Why it was you’d ran and gone

I'm not great at naming things, okay?

Mikhail

loaf Jun 2018

Mikhail

if not for you, my life would be empty
my stars wouldnt shine, theyd fail to align
my limbs would give out and droop like spaghetti

if not for you, laughs would be sparce
my heart lodged in my throat, voice bleeting like a goat
sound would be as silent as a **** from my ****

if not for you, i wouldnt know love
my mind would be mindless, time is what binds us
despair's cold shackles im finally free of

#i #love #you #mikhail

One Flight

loaf May 2019

One Flight

One flight
Without dew
Warmed by the Sun,
It plugged the mouth
Stirred it smooth
Bubbling slowly,
It sputtered

quit starin

loaf Feb 2019

quit starin

The way you looked me in the eyes
I felt down to my core
The tingling feeling in my head
To my toes down on the floor
Never have I felt this feeling
Never in my life
Anything, I'd do to end it
End it even with a knife
Or perhaps a gun would do it
Pills may too suffice
Anything to stop this feeling
This feeling that is nice

spider

loaf May 2019

spider

The spider I see
Draws closer to me
It bares its fangs
I think about how I’d hang
From the tallest tree.

the ghost of a poet

loaf May 2019

the ghost of a poet

I’ll still return to haunt the dreams
Of those I’ve loved and who’ve loved me
secretly wanting to rip at the seams
they’ll fall to grief and I guarantee
they’ll cry
and cry
and wonder why
it had to be like this
Wasn’t I only joking?
Couldn’t I just resist?

I hope that at least, they’ll reminisce
hazy days spent in the sun
laughter and bliss
the scent of ***
bad music
and even worse poetry

Untitled

loaf May 2019

Untitled

following me are the devil's thieves
they ask if i'm alright
but i can hardly see
through the purples
and the blights
and the blinding bright lights
and in my grief i can't help but scream
nearing the edge of a bottomless stream
though the waves are violent
this trench remains silent
i claw at the cliff i'm tumbling down
to no avail
i simply drown

Untitled

loaf Aug 2019

Untitled

red tape tapers the walls

white walls cover the halls

tabula rasa my mind descends

into depths deeper, I pretend

i'm far from home, far from here

far from anyone and everyone dear

a lady in the corner speaking in riddles

singing upon the silver strings of a golden fiddle

Untitled

loaf Feb 2019

Untitled

I wade through murky water
Stumble through the sand
I do all I can to get through to you
To achieve that promised land
Though my efforts remain unnoticed
Though you continue to bite my hand
I promise to always be there with you
Beside you is where I stand

vows to grieve by

loaf Dec 2019

vows to grieve by

‪I want to say that all my life ive been a bride married to grief‬
‪It is the field from which I sow with foreboding and reap with transience‬
‪It grips me in my silence, and grazes me in my anger‬
‪To have and to hold‬
‪for better, for worse ‬
‪From this day forward;‬
‪Til death do us part.‬

World is Quiet

loaf Apr 2018

World is Quiet

A country torn by hands of greed
That loot and pillage without thought or need
Children of Syria cast away in terror
Family lost due to saviors error
And who else to turn to but our country’s diet?
Though you plead and beg, the world is quiet
With voices lost and prayers unheard
Disenfranchised people lose their faith in word
Violence arises, when all hope is lost
A soundless song played by people crossed
Syria, your lands in ruin
Cities demolished, enemies bruin
A hack tyrant yet rules
Takes his people for fools
Even with his failures unmasked
You’ll never have the peace for which you’ve asked
And the world is still quiet

— The End —