I’m going to miss you again today
And I’ve gathered enough courage to say this,
that I hope today
would be my last.
That when I wake up tomorrow, I’ll focus on me.
Where today I’ll be selfless and miss you more
than I thought I can bear.
That today would be the last.
I’ll be selfish starting from tomorrow,
so let me be fool for the last hours,
who kept missing her wrong love
at the wrong time
That in maybe next time, it'll then turn out right.

one
two,
three,
captured.

a face of you remain stills in my camera
memories flashing back in out of my head
memories i cant erase
i call it precious
you name it nothing

no second thoughts crossed
in your mind
it was so easy for the way you released me out of your grasp
from holds that i thought
was an everlasting shelter,
even when the world tries to break me
i was fooled thinking you were my knight.

i didn't understand when
you threw away everything that had to do with me
just as the way you named it

i could have ripped my throat out
when i said i love you,
my soul and heart merges when i utter those words,how unfortunate,
they never reach yours.

you walked out,
not a word spoken
for me to hear
not a sorry,
not the three words.

blinking to only push out the tears
i ignore the hurt weighed on me
pricking like abundant sharp needles


you let the world sees you as a victim
when you yourself,are the hurricane,
when you are the earthquake,
when you are the tsunami,
shattering parts of me drastically,
while i was not looking

--harsh.

you let the world
took me as something
to be made fun of.

Your mind was too occupied,
with all lies bundled up,
thoughts and actions contrast,
no room for keeping trust,
you push away truth, I
never knew you would shut
yourself too,
now how have you become two.

The worst thing you could ever do to love,
is when you worship love,
rather than embrace it.

You just come to like them,
You don't know them well,
You don't know whether they're good or bad,
You don't know what they like and dislike,
yet you are drawn into them.

An unlucky one,
when no reason, not anything,
could explain to yourself,
as no words could be made into an answer,
you'll keep asking more,
maybe it happens naturally,
your heart caught on before your mind does.

But i say feel,
because this is one of way life thrills.