nobody tells you what to do
when you've made the mistake of falling,
you've ended up on the bottom
and your bones have fallen outside your reach
when you feel the watch ticking
on the hand that you've been holding
and it pulls you with each moment
theres nothing I can do
about the hours bound to unbind us
or the distance that will pull us apart
and nobody
nobody has told me what to do

can a feeling cause physical pain?
this fear, this tension
it starts in my back
up my neck and invading my skull
no longer a nagging thought
but a constant discomfort
distractions dont exist
what I need is a painkiller
but something stronger than drugs
strong enough to get me out of my head

he lives as if he knows the secret
that everyone else spends their lives
trying to discover

tell me what you need
and when I cannot find
one of your necessities
I'll reach inside myself
search around corners and under beds
and offer what I've found
you're free to take any part of me
I've meant to declutter anyway

I don’t really listen
When you speak on your passions
Because I can't understand
I just watch your face light up
And hear the inflections
Thinking about how to live is an art
And how fortunate I am to love

my strongest enemy lies within
coils around the heart and chokes
halts every sweet thought that runs through this brain
these insides are torn by the talons of my beast
what devil placed this monster in my chest?
and who can reach deep enough within me to conquer it?